From start to finish,
My soul was triumphant,
Here your first sign of life was brought to our attention, so small yet over the weeks you grew.
The anticipation from October 6 to November 9th was a long haul to an abrupt stop when your heart wasn’t detected it absolutely broke me apart, not only did I loose you I lost someone I truly loved.
My soul was insufficient at that moment, gathering the courage to finish this fight all on my own ,these past 3 months have done nothing but suffocated the very life out of me, from doctor to doctor, needle to needle, ultrasound to ultrasound I was left with a misleading diagnosis they never helped me solve for my overall health.
They told me I have passed the placenta myself, I know I haven’t passed anything on my own come the last week in January I went into labor, eight hours of unknown pain from a placenta the doctor said was not there don’t worry about it, I thought I was dying, my liver gave out, appendicitis, a tumor has busted, those eight hours went by so slowly Before I passed a large mass, blessed to be alive with a force as destructive as a hurricane, relived of pain there was a mess to clean.
My soul is mending after such a substantial loss, I do not pity myself for what I have went through, my prayers go out casted upon the universe for overall good health in each an ever single individual, for our hearts were built to hold love as much as letting the love go, knowing one day we will all become apart of one another’s soul again.
My misplaced feelings are being dealt with one day at a time.