#toxictraits

2 posts
  • sanduza 28w

    Regrets

    Yes it happened
    İts now past
    İt was a phase


    Now everyone keeps taking me back
    İ want to heal
    İ dont want you reminding me
    Yes i know it happened
    İt pains me too
    Why do you act like youre perfect
    Let me be me

    Allow me to fail
    Let me make mistakes
    How can i have a perfect life?
    İam human, yes
    Allow me to be me not you
    Talk about me yes i dont care
    But my regrets leave them
    Lets not dig up a grave

    İf you were me iam sure it was gonna be a laywear,
    Well its my life ,
    Yes i get that iam crazy and all
    Please stop limiting my life
    Let me face my own fears alone
    İ like fighting my battles alone
    This is who iam.
    İam me
    İts all me

    İ used to be steppedover by everyone
    Now i know my worth
    İts more like iam a threat to them
    Trust me i changed
    Switched lanes like never before
    İ killed that second best
    İ know my worth
    Dont ever tell my story for me
    İts mine alone to tell

    İ fought my battles alone
    İ aint afraid to take risks
    Nothing frightens me
    İ will never go back to the old me

    İ wont apologise for your faults
    İ will focus on me not you
    This is my journey and my actions
    İ want to be free
    Let me cry alone
    Set me free
    İam tired of you
    Leave my past


    By Sanduza
    ©sanduza

  • mousam_kashyap 76w

    Sunflower Vol.2

    Release. All I want is release
    I don't know how I ended up here
    Sand in my mouth. Screaming aloud
    for release.
    I don't know how I landed up here.
    In the night, with no water around

    Every movie, every song, every word spoken wrong reminds me of all that's gone.

    Take me down the spiral staircase you built for me.
    Maybe I'll come and get my bags I left with you
    I could be the Sunflower standing in front of you,
    waiting for your light.
    But you could deny it or shower your new moon night.

    Release. All I want is release.
    My therapist told me my trauma has seeped into my personality
    So release
    All I want release.
    Could you back off a little bit, please?
    It's the night I want to be alone.

    Every place, every picture, every word spoken wrong reminds me of all that's gone.

    Take me down to your basement where you kept your insecurities.
    That you projected it on me to make me feel worse about who I am.
    I could be the Sunflower standing in front of you,
    waiting for your light.
    But you denied it to shower your new moon night.

    I see nothing redeeming in this life.
    But I wait for hours to see some sunlight.
    I have nothing to look forward to in this late hour.
    Are there any perks to being a Sunflower?

    -Mousam