// WHAT HAPPENED ? //
What happened ?
Why did we drift apart ?
We were close weren't we ?
Why did you abandon me ?
Why you didn't see that you were the last embodiment of hope I had ?
Why did you leave me me with half a heart ?
How am I supposed to trust people now ,
who say they are different and want something serious ?
How should I venture forth to take the risk of puting my faith in people , when it always ends in ways that leave me delirious ?
How am I not supposed to have all these questions ?
And if I make the same mistake again ,
then have I really learned my lesson ?
You left me with no closure
and plunged inside my conscious a self-critical dart.
This dart pinches me very often
and makes out of my emotions a bleeding art.
I've lost the strength to pull it out, so I guess it will stay here like your love couldn't in my heart.
Every now and then I ask myself that ,
" Am I not good enough ? ".
And if I am, then why you decided to disappear from my life with no explanation .
What really went down that our love suddenly hit it's date of expiration ?
The conversations that made me ecstatic are no longer the source of my exaltation.
The promises you couldn't keep and the cunning ways in which your made a fool out of my trust ,
leaves me stranded in frustration.
I used to go down the memory lane and it showed me the person you were,
but today when I did ,
I couldn't recognise you anymore ,
and all I saw was a blur.
A blur that mislead my affection,
took me for granted and misjudged my every action.
I felt like I was made out of stuff worth appreciating
but not worthy to be loved.
I thought that you were someone I never deserved.
I thought this pain would be over, would be over soon ,
but with time I've accepted that this wasn't love ,
this was bane disguised as boon.