Just To See Me Break
It’s too bad such evil exists. Especially the ones closest to my heart. Seems that reality turns around & slaps me straight. Many want to judge how I feel, but they are NOT ME. Period. It’s too bad, they never got to know me. Being pushed & pushed more to your limits of breaking. Done time after time. I keep telling myself, maybe it will be different next time. It never is.
You would think I would learn. I am not a bad person, until I’m pushed to feel anger. Then, I got a boiling point. She knows how to get me there. In minutes. I will never know why. Or maybe it will be revealed at a later time. I’m tired. I’m so very tired of trying to be there, just to be ridiculed. See that’s what you don’t know or see, the ones that think I’m so bad of a daughter & niece. You can’t nor do you try to see my point of view. I can’t tell you how this has effected me my entire damn life. And I don’t want your pity. Or your respect. I want NOTHING FROM YOU. I will always be misunderstood. And it is what is. The facts have been shown to me repeatedly. I have done wrong. I know. Please forgive me, for I am not perfect. I will never be. Verbal abuse is real. And I have to do what’s right for me.