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#Struggleisreal
What may seem ordinary to you,
Maybe big to someone else,
Don't take anything for granted,
Acknowledge the gratitude instead !!!
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Thanks, God..
Life does not get easier.. You get stronger..
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jodi_writes
77w
You jest
Waving away the laughter as small talk
But there's nothing about your words that are small
Each letter yells out all my imperfections
The imperfections you deem fit
Of course it's easier to spread your humor
Than to see what your mirror speaks
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jodi_writes
78w
Digging deep to find the bones of my unconsciousness
Uncovering fossils stained with tears
Feeling the weight of the dirt thrown at me
Will peace only embrace me with sleep eternal?
Must I wait until the darkness emerges to sever the ties of depression, anxiety and hopelessness?
Will my afterlife be consumed of greys and blues?
Or may I finally feel the yellows of sunshine warming the frozen remnants of a soul battered and bruised?
My life harbors no regrets. I am now as I've always been conscious of all my blessings, knowing the magnitude of all that has been bestowed upon me.
It's just... Why must I pay for my present and future happiness with a mind that travels to the past and tedo-totters against the borderline of my sanity?
Why must every prize accompany failure?
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jodi_writes
78w
she is tired
weary is she
they wouldn't understand
they are unable to see
the past that won't let her free
she is tired
weary is she
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jodi_writes
78w
she is tired
weary is she
they wouldn't understand
they are unable to see
the past that won't set her free
she is tired
weary is she
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jodi_writes
78w
You had me fooled
Thinking, Believing
You would stand your ground
Naive, Trusting
You made me a clown
All the hours
All the times
We'd make plans at your suggestion
You had me deceived
No betrayal is as ruthless as from your own kindred spirit
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jodi_writes
78w
Outside looking in
Depression
The demon of self confidence
Stripping away layers of self love
Never fitting in
Always on the outside looking in
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jodi_writes
78w
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#she
#daydreams
#magic
#free
#thestruggleisreal
#itsoknottobeok
#mentalillness
#physicalillness
#depression
#anxiety
#ptsd
#struggle
#madness
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#poetrycommunity
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#heartacheshe believed in her daydreams
but daydreams fade with the sunlight
she thought she found magic
but the trick was on her
she writes to be free
but the paper has turned yellow
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jodi_writes
78w
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#nobody
#nobodywantstoknow
#thestruggleisreal
#itsoknottobeok
#mentalillness
#physicalillness
#depression
#anxiety
#ptsd
#struggle
#madness
#poetry
#poetrycommunity
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#writersofinstagram
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#writingismyfreedom
#inlovewithwords
#writingmypainaway
#heartachenobody is a sad place to be
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jodi_writes
79w
Sitting at my daughter's desk, trying to write my words, the pain in my legs are exhausting. Should I complain? Should I keep quiet? Fibromyalgia. Arthritis. Bursitis. Tendinitis. Fucked up rotary cuff. I didn't even know what that was! Damn straight! It came to join the party in my body. I can go on and on about my physical and mental illness. Or should I say difficulties? Or maybe issues would be a better word? At this point does it really matter the specific names? It all centers around one distinctive word? Pain. Pain. Pain. And it sucks!
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jodi_writes
79w
Don't abuse your fingers by writing words that will never be printed. Move forward into your own sunlight. All you want is at these fingertips. Your motivation is deep within. Break away from hesitating. You have found the needle. Now get out of the haystack.
Free yourself from any insecurities. You got this!
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jodi_writes
80w
It
It's taunting me. It knows me well. I pretend as if I'm immune to it. But my soul owns no fraud. It's my monster. My demon. My friend. My redeemer. It uses what's in my view to push me towards it. It laughs at my temptation. It has no mercy. It's full of danger. Full of wrath. Full of hatred. Poisonous. Vengeful. A murderer of strength.
Yet, it knows me. It comforts me. It's my soft feathery pillow. It's my blanket of peace. It takes it away. It gives me love. It gives me rest.
Shamefully, the face I see is torn and broken.
Lovingly.... It sees beauty.
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jodi_writes
80w
Are we ever really prepared for the sadness in life? Of course we know there are times when we are blowed away by the intensity of heartaches. We know there has to be bad times. That's life. We see sadness coming and we hype ourselves up that we can handle it.
But do we really deal with the pain at the moment we feel it? Or do we all suppress our feelings and hold them tight? Eventually it hits us like lightning.
My preparing is to lose my appetite. I get nauseous looking at food. Then my insomnia kicks my ass. Even my sleeping pills don't work.
I drink coffee and smoke cigarettes.
Every ailment I have gets multiplied by 100.
I want to desperately hit something. But I don't.
I hold tight to my feelings and push them away when they want to surface.
Where is this leading to?
After 7 months I finally got the okay to bury my mother's ashes.
Her cremains have been sitting on my bureau all these months. Come this Friday she will be placed in her permanent home. She will be resting peacefully with her parents and her sister.
My last duty will be done. My responsibilities will be over.
I've done everything she wanted me to do.
The last tangible thing I have will be gone. Come Friday she will leave my presence.
Will that be my closure?
Will I be able to breathe easier?
Will this hole in my heart start to close?
Will I stop seeing her face when Iook in the mirror?
Will I stop hearing her voice when I speak to my children?
If I'm not prepared for Friday, how will I be prepared for the rest of my life?
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jodi_writes
81w
Grilling eyes looking for any reason
Where's my retreat?
Where's my haven without any eyes upon the shadow of a girl who is journeying to find a home within herself.
Where's my somewhere, my anywhere?
Don't I deserve to come full circle?
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jodi_writes
86w
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#questions
#pain
#nobodywantstoknow
#thestruggleisreal
#itsoknottobeok
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#heartacheWill I ever get over not getting over the pain?
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jodi_writes
86w
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#hope
#lies
#myhopehasdied
#nobodywantstoknow
#thestruggleisreal
#itsoknottobeok
#mentalillness
#physicalillness
#depression
#anxiety
#ptsd
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#madness
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#heartacheSomewhere
Out there
In the sky
Floating high
Lingering amongst all your lies
Is my hope that has finally died
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jodi_writes
86w
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#youonlyhaveyou
#goodintensions
#kindwords
#nobodywantstoknow
#thestruggleisreal
#itsoknottobeok
#mentalillness
#physicalillness
#depression
#anxiety
#ptsd
#struggle
#madness
#poetry
#poetrycommunity
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#words
#writingcommunity
#writingcommunityofinstagram
#writersofinstagram
#mirakewriters
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#writingismyfreedom
#inlovewithwords
#writingmypainaway
#heartacheEverybody's good intentions and kind words will never over shadow the truth. At the end of the day you only have you.
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jodi_writes
87w
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#justletitgo
#innocence
#wishes
#universe
#pain
#nobodywantstoknow
#thestruggleisreal
#itsoknottobeok
#mentalillness
#physicalillness
#depression
#anxiety
#ptsd
#struggle
#madness
#poetry
#poetrycommunity
#commumityofpoets
#poet
#words
#writingcommunity
#writingcommunityofinstagram
#writersofinstagram
#mirakewriters
#instagramwriters
#writingismyfreedom
#inlovewithwords
#writingmypainaway
#heartacheJust let it go
Let it soar to the winds and let the universe make things as they should be
Just let it go
Write down the memories and set it on fire
Let the ashes burn all your pain
Just let it go
Decorate your heart with all the love that makes a beautiful you
Just let it go
Recapture the innocence and make wishes to come true
Just let it go
You are good
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jodi_writes
87w
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#shewillneverbeme
#pain
#fists
#anger
#verbalabuse
#nobodywantstoknow
#thestruggleisreal
#itsoknottobeok
#mentalillness
#physicalillness
#depression
#anxiety
#ptsd
#struggle
#madness
#poetry
#poetrycommunity
#commumityofpoets
#poet
#words
#writingcommunity
#writingcommunityofinstagram
#writersofinstagram
#mirakewriters
#instagramwriters
#writingismyfreedom
#inlovewithwords
#writingmypainaway
#heartacheLower your voice
Unclench your fists
Blink the anger out of your eyes
Breathe slowly
Sit and rest
Don't place me in the path of her
Your pain is not from me
I am not her
and she will never be me
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