The Healer on the Mountain
Lord there is no doubt that this is where you have called me to be, you have made that abundantly clear.
However the true purpose of your intent still seems as elusive as ever to my finite mind.
I know that change and growth of any kind is painful and difficult so you brought me to train upon this mountain top so that I might know you now while your face is clear.
Help me to memorize it so when it is my turn to descend into the valleys where it will be hidden from view I will know how to move by its light.
My fears and inadequacies have reared their snake-like heads once more, I fear their venom almost more than I did before.
It has been so long I am scared my mind has no more defence against it.
Oh but Lord, your grace comes upon me like a healing balm, burning out the pathogen only to then soothe the wound with mercy and time. You built an immunity to their poisions in me long ago and with you ever closer I find their abilities heightened.
So rip the doubt from my heart and selfishness from my nature, burn my pride down and help to grow humility in its wake.
You are praised as the great physician, all powerful in your healing.
Sew me back together, replace my wants with yours so that I may serve accordingly.