This particular month comes to an end and I am near exhaustion.
It had me bent over grief and fear.
I try not to go down the memory lane
Mostly because once I do, the tears won't stop.
I hate casting a reflection because it's difficult routing, to be without you and your wiggly tail.
I'm sorry but I try not to think about you and it's been a month now, I have miserably failed.
I am guilty, I am sad
I feel so confused, there is so much pain that I can't explain,
I am mad, mad over myself.
I'm sorry I couldn't be there, I couldn't see you,
When you were struggling for life, in tremendous fear.
I'm sorry for all the pain, I didn't even got a chance to say adieu.
Every time someone mentions your name
It feels like there are broken glass pieces scattered across the room and I have to walk through it.
I can't see you anymore and it devastates me Because I miss your hands in my hands,
Your cheeks, your smile, your belly, your small thighs.
All I want is you in my arms anyhow.
Please come back, it's been a while!?
My brother misses rubbing your belly, carrying you in his lap.
He says every time he looks at your pictures he tries to think of those 9 years that you have blessed us with, not that one day when you left.
And yet I fail to do so, I can't forget the date, for me not accepting your absence is the only way.
We yearn for you, every day
Our heart wriggles,
I blink and you run across,
My mind, my heart, the floor
I know, You are here, you aren't far away.
Please never forget us
We gonna meet
We're gonna hug and kiss like before
It's gonna be like we were never separated
I'll come back home and I will hear your bark
See you hop and bounce while you wait at the door.