Miraquill
The Father That Was Gone
I hate the thought of it
But if you call it as it is
And it's the problem that persists
Is the monster that exists
Swallowed up within
Wallowing about in sin
Falling down again
All started as a slip
All hardships as a kid
All but pardon what I did
I'm talking darkness I relive
Don't make the darndest bit of shit
The harder That it gets
Is the farther that I slip
Slip turns to a fall
The harder that I hit
I'm no martyr not a victim
The father I despised as a kid
Didn't realize what I missed
All the trying that he did
All the crying that he hid
The lies that he spit
While trying to make a difference
Did he fight as bad as his kid
Was fightin to live with his sins
Or did he die at a distance
Despite the times that I missed him
The times he was missing
A lifetime of my existence
A Life time of bad decisions
Who's timeline am I reliving
In my eyes
I'm giving it all that I can give it
While my father didn't give the smallest bit of shit
But in my kid's eyes
They never saw all the trying, trips, n falls
Or the father their father never got
Just The problems I didn't solve
They get the father that I got
Not the man that took the job
They get the father that was gone
©one_upp1
