I was born for a war to fight,
With a bare skin, i am a knight,
First five years, just flew by,
Never had a chance to say goodbye,
My heart started hurting ,
I knew it wasn't a normal beating,
It thumped and roared and cried aloud,
Later i realized it was scared of the daily hound...
Confused! i grazed my hands against my chest,
A moment later i felt my first cardiac arrest,
With blood level low, i had to stand,
If i couldn't! i would become a dead land,
Figuring out all this i became thirteen,
Before i knew i was manipulated to not be seen,
It was my family's respect, i had to protect,
I maybe unwanted but i am the eldest, it was my aspect...
I was hurting, didn't know why!,
Soon i started to pry,
To find the answers those were hidden,
I had to get under many... I had to get bedridden,
With a growing number i knew a little more,
What i was doing was twisted to explore,
I realised i was a soul reader, born empath was now clear,
Every soul taught me something, it was a souvenir,
Reading a new soul i just had to bear,
With every new man it became more shear...
I understood how human works,
they allnbecame faces with a smirk,
A women on other hand i could always see through,
These five to seven years became a break through,
To many i became a slut, after all seven in seven years,
It's not normal, to me it was facing all my fears,
Finally i was now twenty,
I had the knowledge of system, it was plenty ...
May be i was just a spoiled girl,
Maybe i was born mentally curled,
Who do i go to ask all this,
I became a women from a little miss,
I grew strong and bold with willpower amd a future planned,
When i couldn't handle i chose to interpret n understand,
When it comes down to situations i knew i shouldn't react,
I have a lil' sister and lil'brother... I think about the impact!
I am not a kid with demands anymore,
I am now a women i found my soul and now i roar,
By facing so many struggles and hurdles, i hardened,
I looked at my parents and said you're pardoned,
I thought! I know their soul, it's the human at fault,
Crucifying them won't bring my life, the hault!
They gave birth no matter what,
I was their flesh and blood, i know my gut!!
To turn and to blame that is not me
Between a heart and five soul, i protected my humanity...
With all the knowledge of the world
With all the adjustments that i swirl
I know that i knew better than to ask
But this one question was piercing deep like a flask
So i finally asked " why do you treat me like this.
To give birth and never nurture, tell me, what it is!? "
The answer i got... We didn't, we just got our marriage cake,
Birthing you was just a silly mistake!!
Yes! It did breake my heart into pieces,
A few harsh words and i was just speechless,
I was meant to be a tea with some breakfast,
Instead my world! It fell apart,
A mistake! That was all i was,
To them i was an empty vase,
But no! I am knight, i had to win a fight,
My life is my own and i am taking the highest flight!!
I am a human, a female, a women, i am the poem,
They were just an entity, a sperm and an ovum,
This is my life... I am the weaver,
I will make it all worth, my birth! i am a believer,
They may have given me birth,
But i was born with earth as my girth,
All the heavens by my side, i was supported,
With all universal powers, they always rooted,
With all my guides, angels, protectors who could harm me!
I always had an army!!...
Today without any remorse i am me!!...