#startingover

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  • mariateresa 4w

    Life lessons learned when relationships end. Some people come into our lives to awaken us to our own song. My partner provided me with so many moments of truth. To see myself through his eyes. Priceless. Grateful ❤

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    Here I stand

    Clearing away the ashes from the past
    Soul's spirited essence becoming more bold, fiery blasts
    Echoes from yesterday's lessons propel me forward
    No regrets, love's offerings present a million words
    Expressing my truth, holding on to what I've learned
    Grateful for every moment
    We laughed, cried, and held hands
    You've taught me so much, at times I didn't want to hear
    Now those words ring loud and sing in my ear
    Your absence is felt deeply, I feel cold in its darkness
    Light appearing shows me the strength I must now harness
    Life's a series of songs and dances
    Some are not understood until the moment our heart is ready to take chances
    Leaving you hurts yet I must press on
    Deepening my soul's purpose by this new beginning, leaning into the unknown
    Learning more about myself
    Comforted by my own song
    Here I stand ready for it all
    Never forgetting what you gave to me
    Knowing your love
    Provided fuel for the faith that hope drives solo
    ©mariateresa

  • shaundele 7w

    I'm used to you caring
    Bear with me
    I'm still learning to adjust

    ©shaundele

  • rajvis 14w

    RECIPES

    I messed up the
    perfect recipe to life
    right in the beginning

    so now I'm throwing away
    all the burnt vessels to
    start over
    ©rajvis

  • unheard_voices 15w

    Relationships

    If you're strong enough to let yourself fall in love and give everything you have, you will be strong enough to let it all go. Strong enough to pick up all your pieces and start over.
    -Poemsporn

  • veesthoughts 29w

    I'm unraveling
    Faster than the last time
    Faster than the worst time


    ©veesthoughts

  • amcart1221 38w

    An affair ended

    Wow, It's been a year since we first met! A whole year that just flew by! A year of discovering you, getting to know your quirks and personality. A year of sharing and enjoying your body. A year of kisses and hugs and countless "I love you's". And a year of revelation for me. Discovering who I am apart from J- when I love someone else. I never thought the day would come when I could care for someone as much as I cared for him. You showed me how wrong I was. You showed me that I can love again. Wholly and unequivocally. Giving myself, my body and my heart to someone whom I'm vulnerable to and for me, it was beautiful. Wrong or not, I'll treasure you all the days of my life. You told me the next time I call it off with you for me to be sure because your heart can't take the back and forth. I'm sure by now you know what this note is. I promise you I haven't made this decision lightly but, this time, I'm sure. This past year has also been a year of envy and jealousy; of guilt and confession; of forgiveness and redemption; of loneliness and trying to find my worth and value. I've never wished I was someone else more than this year. Wishing I was someone more prominent in your life rather than a shameful secret hidden in a secret folder in your phone. And I've NEVER wished I was born anywhere else like New York or New Jersey but, this year I did, so that perhaps it was me that met you first. But life happens as it happens and here we are. A girl in love with a boy who she can't have. I started this journey with the mindset of wanting to find someone to have a relationship with that led to marriage. Instead, I found you. I don't know why we have this connection between us. All I know is that it's intense and really REALLY hard to walk away from (you'll never know how hard). When I'm away from you I tell myself that I made it up in my head. That there isn't possibly a connection as strong as I think it is. And then I see you and it's like the world stops and everything slows down. I'm aware of nothing outside of us and yet, my senses are heightened. It's just me and you and no one else. My mind that is so cluttered and confused and constantly daydreaming just stops and clears out and you're all that I see. You're all I can think of even while I'm physically with you. I'm consumed by you and your presence. But that consumption doesn't stop for me once we're apart. I think of you constantly. Always wondering what you're doing. Are you smiling? Are you dancing? Are you eating chocolate? Are you tired? Are you singing? Are you thinking of me too? I thought that I could see you until I meet someone else but, once again, you showed me how wrong I was. I'm stunted by my love for you. You see, in thinking of you constantly there's no way that anyone else could possibly have a chance to win me over. How could they? They aren't you. They don't compare. They've lost before they even begun. But I desperately want to grow with someone. Plant roots with someone. Have inside jokes and car rides with the windows down while we listen to music and hold hands. I want hugs from behind while I'm standing at the kitchen sink washing dishes. I want naps on the couch while we hold each other. I want late night talks and early mornings of whispers asking "are you awake?" I want someone who I don't have to be a secret to. And I can't have that and keep you too. I have to choose. I have to walk away from you. Please know this isn't easy for me. If this were a letter then the ink would blur from my tears that are falling. I'm sorry for sending this after seeing you. There's no way I could've said all this to your face. I would go silent and it would physically be impossible for me to even form the words to tell you goodbye. I'm afraid I would be highly emotional and crying violently. And I can't see the sadness in your eyes, let alone see you cry. It would break me and make me want to call it off and say "I'm sorry I'll never leave you!" But, my love, that's not fair to me. The only way I can do this is like this. I know you asked for me to allow you to "release" me but I can't do that either. I would never go through with it. I could never walk away from you. Instead I have to slink away as one unseen. As a secret that no one knows about. A chapter ended in a book that no one knows you even read. But, when you reflect back, I hope that this year has been as magical and revealing for you as it has been for me. I hope you find satisfaction in your marriage K-, I sincerely do. I hope, in the end, that you're happy. This life goes so fast and so suddenly and before you know it your children are grown, the house is paid for, savings have accumulated and you're grey and a little more worn down. I hope you're able to look back fondly and feel gratitude for everything that you've experienced. I hope you look back and feel proud for the man you are and will be. And I hope you know how amazing, talented and exceptional you are. You're the sweetest man that I've ever met. I'm so proud that I got to meet you and I feel lucky that you saw something in me worth loving. I thought I wasn't worth loving from a good man. But, again, you showed me how wrong I was. Thank you for that. I needed that lesson. Because of you I know I can require more from someone. That I can hope for a man who is funny and sweet and loving and who wants a life with me. And try as I might, I'm sure I'll see you when I look at him. That I'll see you and what could've been. That there is no him without you. Because you were the sacrifice that had to happen for him to happen. I'll be thankful to you and for you always. Thank you for what's to come and thank you for loving me. I needed that.

    All my love -
    ©amcart1221

  • thesoulscribbles 47w

    Holding on isn't easy
    Letting go is difficult too
    But starting over
    is where the real problem lies!

    ©thesoulscribbles

  • iamsteverichard 49w

    Everyone has that moment I think, the moment when something so momentous happens that it rips your very being into small pieces. And then you have to stop. For a long time, you gather your pieces. And it takes such a very long time, not to fit them back together, but to assemble them in a new way, not necessarily a better way. More, a way you can live with until you know for certain that this piece should go there, and that one there.

    ©iamsteverichard

  • veesthoughts 51w

    It rips me into pieces
    Just to pull me back together
    Just to rip me into pieces


    ©veesthoughts

  • queenwriter 58w

    SURVIVOR

    Surrounded by love from a few
    Looking back on days before I grew

    Stressful days has crossed my path
    I turned my sadness into all laughs

    ©queenwriter

  • queenwriter 58w

    Great performance brings forth many.
    One mistake, costs plenty

    ©queenwriter

  • aka_natasha 62w

    Senses

    Coming to my senses once again,
    it seems to be happening a lot lately.
    I feel like such a fool, because I've been played, controlled and manipulated for so long that I have been blinded again.
    I always see the best in people its who I am.
    You think people will be nice, peaceful or treat you right.
    But they don't.
    Even if they say they will.
    Actions always speak louder than words.
    Two different situations are happening in my life...
    One is proving everything I thought would happen but didn't want to believe he would.
    Second has always told me up front and has never lied but there is no future.
    Just someone to pass my time throughout my transition in life.
    It's ashame I fell in love.
    I have only hurt myself with an unrealistic expectation that I knew would never be since the start.
    I don't regret my choice...
    I've wanted out for years.
    I was never strong enough or had the self confidence back then.
    It has taken me 2 years to change my mindset and realize my worth to get the courage and boldness to leave.
    I will make the best life and I will do my best always for all my children (adults/minor).
    I will move forward.
    I will survive.
    I will find love again.
    Someone will be my knight.
    ©️sashi_

  • loftydreams101 65w

    The Endless Passage

    I will cut apart the apron strings
    When the foghorn calls
    For me to depart

    Through the daybreak mist
    Where my former wants
    All former foes
    Will fade to ghost white

    To the new open port
    So crowded with ships
    Filled with young vagabonds
    On their endless passage

    © William Wright, Jr. 2020

  • samhudson 76w

    Lost Highway

    Packed my bags, cashed my check.
    Leave this town, done with this shit.
    Said goodbye to the few that I love,
    Hit the road, followed the sun.
    Headed out west, to rebuild my life.
    But wherever I went, I was followed by strife.
    Things I missed, memories of the past,
    No escape, the sadness lasts.
    The highway keeps going, on into the night.
    The sound of the engine, rumbles in delight.
    But somewhere on that dark, desert road,
    I had to stop, my mind on overload.
    I stepped out and looked above,
    Infinite stars burning their love.
    Maybe they were pointing the way,
    For me to go on this lost highway.
    ©samhudson

  • grim_lyssa 84w

    What can I say,
    What can I do,
    The void in my heart,
    Is there cause of you,
    But today's a new day,
    So I start something new
    ©grim_lyssa

  • expiredangel 88w

    disposable

    & so it begins. a new day tomorrow. maybe, just maybe i'll be okay after all.
    ©expiredangel

  • dbelles_writes 93w

    Healing

    I will heal myself
    I will start afresh
    Not agonise over
    men, nor money,
    nor death.

    ©dbelles_writes

  • music13guitar 104w

    A Liminal Place

    18 candles in 18 days
    Not a candle a day, but
    18 candles in 18 days

    You never know exactly when you were born
    Some know, but I bet they're wrong
    I have my own format
    When the last candle burns out,
    I'm a year older

    Sometimes my "birthday" isn't even my birthday.
    It all equals out

    In 18 days I'll blow out 18 candles
    In an instant my life will change

    Obviously not.
    But it's the first time I'll have to
    Admit It to myself it will

    Stepping into a liminal place
    Away from my old life
    Into a new one

    18 days 18 candles

    And once they're all out
    I don't know where I'll end up
    Or who will be on the other side

    18 days 18 candles
    I'll get to start over again

    ©music13guitar

  • loftydreams101 116w

    June's Hellfire

    After the shooting flames,
    When the ashes soar high
    I sprawl on and on,
    Nothing stirs in me for miles

    But I'll teem again
    As a forest of pines,
    Before June’s hellfire
    Even gleams from afar

    © William Wright, Jr. 2019

  • leemarie 118w

    Admitting defeat

    Sometimes, giving up isn't really giving up.
    It's letting go of holding on.
    Holding on to all of the people, the places, the things that are preventing you from becoming the best version of you.
    Sometimes, giving up means suffering in the moment, to allow a future of happiness and bliss.
    So I can't get on board with those who tell you to never give up, because sometimes you just have to.
    Sometimes, giving up is the best thing that you can do for you.
    Sometimes.
    ©angryatempathy