My online friend
You and I met on a beautiful day by accident. We - two people on two sides of the country - connected with each other to escape our loneliness. We were two strangers who knew nothing about each other and yet could comfortably talk to each other through the nights. Whenever I needed to talk about my issues, the first person I would think of was you because I knew you would always be there on the other side of the screen to listen and comfort me. Just like that you silently entered my life and I also unconsciously accepted your presence. Chatting with you daily had become my hobby, you know? I used to think you were my best friend, a soulmate of my life. You were very important to me, I bet you never expect that. To a quiet and reserved person like me, having a true friend to share sadness and happiness is so difficult, so you were the brightest light in my darkest days, you were my guiding star.
But one day the star suddenly stopped shining, the sun did not come up anymore. All seemed to have disappeared along with you, just like that you vanished into thin air. Have you really disappeared from my life? I did not know, I just knew that I really lost contact with you. I waited for you, one day, two days, three days… and then a week passed, you were nowhere to be found. At that time do you know how I felt? Hate, resentment or anger? No, I was very worried about you. I asked your friends, but they never answered, they must have thought I was crazy. Eventually I decided to let go, and as time went by the memories of you also faded… Sometimes I still unconsciously thought about you, but it would end quickly. Afterall, I decided to forget you, all about you...
Then a long time later, you came back but with a different username. You asked me if I still remembered you, I just smiled and said I still did. You told me that time you suddenly disappeared because your account was hacked, it was difficult to find me but luckily you still managed to do it. How did you think I would feel? Was I happy, sad or angry? Actually I only felt relieved knowing you were still doing well, but I no longer felt the same excitement when I saw you online like before. I did not think we could go back to the way we were before, ever! You know, I no longer put too much trust in virtual friendships, a soulmate or something lasting forever, how ridiculous it is. To be frank, you never consider me as your friend, because if you had wanted to find me, you would have found many ways to do it, you would not have to wait so many years later, right? I was tired of waiting and keeping my hopes up, I no longer have enough faith in a friend in the virtual world like you anymore. Sorry and also thank you for everything!