I don't like to show how I really feel It makes me vulnerable to the ones who don't know about this seal And the package deal That comes with me They are signing for something unreal By making promises they don't know how to keep
I stay away from strangers And push away the ones who care about me I am hurting all the time Because smiling comes with a price A price so high That simply livin' can't suffice I completely shut off Every now and then Cutting every possible connection from the real world Telling myself that I need some time away Some time with myself Some time to think and process this craziness When the craziness is just inside my head And it keeps getting worse
It gets to me when I least expect it to Bursting into tears for no reason at all With pounding heart in my chest Wailing like a banshee but silently Away from prying eyes of the ones who care enough To shout at me for feeling "bad" emotions Wanting to give up Give up on future Give up on myself Give up on hope
I see those disappointed eyes Disappointed in me Disappointed in the person I've become I don't blame them Just want to scream out loud For once And tell them that I'm not okay Tell them, I need help But I slide it under the carpet instead Because I know they don't want to know the truth They don't want to see the truth For it's all right in front of them It always has been
I snug inside my dyin' body Every night To soothe my soul As I lose the last drop of hope I don't know why I am like this I don't know why I don't want to fight Fight for what I want Fight for what I believe in For I buried it so deep so long ago I can't remember what that is
So if I take more time To gather up enough energy For another round In the life I never asked for The life I never wanted If I take more time To slow my anxious heart down To feel something other than confusion If I never find the little girl I never was But so desperately wanted to be Or if I don't want to take another chance Will you still be around?
gemmahIts fine .. just hope everything is going fine..
daunting_phoenixThe whirpool of emotions it makes me go through is just love❤ I can't explain how much I relate to all these feelings....and the question at the end is smthng I've wanted to ask so many times, but refrained
This piece went through so many changes. I felt like sharing the entire journey of writing this one because it's worth it. If you don't want to read this, you can skip it and directly jump to the poetry part. So here it is. Initially, Medusa, Athena, and some other characters in the first draft were just supposed to be metaphors for the characters of a short dream sequence I had in mind. I started making the initial draft, like gathering bits and pieces that came to my mind about everything I wanted to cover in that sequence. While making these outlines, I just kept thinking about Medusa and what she went through (if you want to know her story, the original story, check my comments in the comment section). Then it occurred to me that not many people from the present generation know about this Greek mythology so I should write about her instead because people should know how cruel and unfair patriarchy can get sometimes. So I deleted the previous outlines and started writing the original story in my words but the fact that Medusa always just got pain and betrayal but never the love she deserved, stopped me. Then a thought striked my mind that she deserves a love story but no one ever thought about that amidst all the monster portrayals she got and I again started it from the scratch with a prince, his kingdom, the queen, Athena, Medusa and some other characters but I got stuck in the end. According to Athena's curse, any man who ever look at her, will get petrified (turned into stone) and I could have worked it out in the story by the prince always keeping his eyes covered with a blind fold or just looking at her reflection in the water but why a man? Why it always has to be a man? That hit me really hard and I just stopped writing for a really long time. I took time to think about it and ended up writing this.
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Once upon a time, There was a princess With eyes like the reflection Of full moon in the ocean, Big and bright. Medusa fall for her Right in the first sight! She used to visit the same oak tree, Probably searching for peace, Once every week. Medusa watched her Hiding near the creek. Princess sensed her presence, And gazed at her reflection But never said a word. One's reflection never lies, Is what they say And maybe that's why She saw the girl Medusa once was And not the monster She was forced to become! "I'll confront her about my feelings The next time she visits", Medusa swore. Little did she knew, Her heart belonged to Athena, The goddess of war! Medusa waited and waited But she never returned. Queen found out About her daughter's love For their nemesis Who destroyed their kingdom And banished her From the palace, for the betrayal. Princess ran to Athena's temple And prayed to call her for help. She didn't answered, Because the affair was just a scam. A scam to break the royals, To shatter the castle of trust They shared And to show them Where they belonged! Princess stayed in the temple For nights, Helpless and hurt. She finally lost hope, Wandering around in confusion. With blurred vision From all the tears, She found herself Standing by the creek. Medusa was waiting for her Hiding in the shadows. She decided to give her some privacy To process her thoughts. The princess looked like walking chaos In the moment But still so simple. Same deep, big, shiny eyes, Same long golden locks, Same innocence dripping Down her face. Medusa waited for her to calm down But lost patience after a while 'cause she was still searching For princess's beautiful smile! She couldn't see her despair So decided to retrace her steps back But stepped on a twig instead "You don't always need to hide, you know", The princess said wiping her tears. "You knew about me this whole time?" "I sensed your presence from your shine" "My shine?" "Your reflection in water, Medusa." "You know who I am?", Medusa asked Desperately hiding the snakes on her head. "You are still beautiful, inside out. I hope you know that" Medusa smiled for the first time After a really long time. With her pale skin, Finally gaining different shades of pink Her eyes lit up As she took a step towards her love "I missed this smile" "And I, thy eyes"
lovenotes_from_carolynYou're welcome, and I was very glad to read this! I'm having a huge challenge in regard to keeping up with members because there are more and more new accounts by the day, so it's becoming very chaotic and time consuming. I'm trying to figure out a better way to manage the situation, but I really don't know.
lovenotes_from_carolynFor that same reason, I'm unable to keep up with any ongoing stories/series right now either. Very sorry for that.
pakhi1738@lovenotes_from_carolyn Hey, it's absolutely okay Carolyn! I understand how chaotic it might be for you to read every single post. I keep visiting your hashtag every now and then and there are just so many posts. No one can keep up with that. Take your time. I'm sure you'll find a better way.
lovenotes_from_carolynAside from the hashtag, I do my best to help undiscovered members get established, as well as support and appreciate my supporters, so the hashtag has become impossible for me to manage alone and I periodically remind members who use it to support others who use it, as that would help all involved. Anyway, thank you for understanding. I think the amount of members here have quadrupled since the time I joined in 2016, so it's a rather large undertaking.
I know that I've been writing these little fantasy dream sequences a lot for a while now, but one of these actually led to something really amazing. I am so excited to share that one and it's entire journey with you guys. It's still a work in progress so, you'll have to wait for it. Meanwhile, here's a piece I wrote somewhere in the mid of March but never got a chance to post. Happy reading!
Every time I breathe My heart catches hold Of the ice and pieces you left And every moment That I spend With you Feels like a Déjà vu I look for you, everywhere, When love doesn't feel right But you loving me, The way I do, is all I want People change, I know And I see you changing Every single day But it all still just Feels the same The same old love With the same old faith! World! Can't it just fly away? I want you just for myself I want you to live inside me! I don't wanna stay And I don't wanna leave, Oh love! I don't wanna stay And I don't wanna leave I just wanna see One last trick With magic rolled up your sleeves! 'cause every time I breathe I breathe you in For we need Something to break this ice Between us, that's unseen! Words! Can't they just fade away I want you to read my eyes And tell me What my heart desires Just like before I'm living every moment You wanted to forget All over again For it feels like A long lost, sweet pain And I know, When this mirror of dream breaks It'll again just leave a stain! I don't wanna hide If you are by my side You kept looking For someone to love When your love Was hiding in the plain sight! It is our destiny, is what they say But wasn't destiny, what we left behind!
मासूम सी ज़िन्दगी ये ढूंढने एक नया पता चली राहों में ख्वाबों की एक परछाई सी खड़ी शोर से दूर कहीं सन्नाटे की एक दुनिया नई परछाईयों को इशारे पर नचाती एक मायावी सहमा सहमा सा बड़ा बचपन एक कोना पकड़े खड़ा बचपन निगाहें तलाशती एक नन्ही चिड़िया ख्वाब थी जो लाने वाली आफताब ढला चाँद पिंघला बंद हुआ सोच का दरवाज़ा और कहीं गुम हो गई ताली आग लगी कहीं राख उड़ी कहीं धुँआ बिखरा हर जगह लाशें खोजने निकली परछाइयाँ कहीं किसी कोने में एक सपना मिला लहूलुहान सा जो था पड़ा ठोकर मारकर आगे बढ़ी परछाइयाँ और गुमशुदा का ठप्पा लगा समय बीता, बड़ी हुई गलियाँ रातें बीती, सूखी कलियाँ सपने तक का रास्ता भूली गलियाँ पीछे मुड़कर देखा एक दिन परछाई सी थी खड़ी कहीं कोने में छिपकर नीचे बैठा बचपन मेरा शोर के मारे रो रहा दिल की धड़कन तेज़ हुई आंखों में भी पानी आया बीते कल की यादों ने जब मन का दरवाज़ा खटखटाया पुरानी डायरी खोली तो गुमशुदा सपने को वहीं मरा पाया!
mystical_writer26Wowwww❤️ it's so beautifully written!! I'm sorry I didn't see it earlier.. exams are coming up so I ain't much online:-)
pakhi1738@mystical_writer26 Thank you so much for taking out some time to read it and drop a feedback. And you don't need to apologize for this. I too have exams coming up. Most of us do. No one's online like before anymore. So, I get it. Exams are priority right now and it's okay if you are focusing on that right now. All the best!
I saw you Dancing and screaming "It's her birthday today" Standing amongst some hundred people Running around, bursting in laughter Like a child Somewhat like a traveller going wild I remember me sitting on the ground And watching you with a huge smile on my face You grabbed my hand and asked me to dance with you But instead, I dragged you away from that crowd I remember lying down on the grass And you lying right next to me With your fingers entangled into mine, Continuously staring at the dark sky "I wish there were some more stars up in the sky. They look bored up there alone", You said. I laughed, and looked at you, Completely holding my breath Your eyes shining like the deepest hue Of aquamarine I placed my head on your shoulder And we lied there for a while. I remember us just walking Through the streets of the city In the middle of the night With you holding my hand So tight Playing with my hair Waiting for me to put up a fight I remember things getting blurry And time running like a slurry I was confused And looking around in a hurry Looking for as much as I could hold onto To remember it all Before I fall I felt your hold loosening up And you drifting away Into a world So mundane I heard a whisper As you slowly disappeared "Please don't wake up" "Don't wake up"
They say you are free To do whatever you want If only it was true 'cause now here you stand Trying to breathe in the air But breathing in chaos instead
They say you are stronger Than you know When they know Nothing about you They don't understand What you're feeling, What you've been through They tell you that they care But no one ever really sees you, For you!
They don't know That you keep yourself busy By burying your head in stories 'cause it help slow down These unbearable voices That keep you awake When you're trying to sleep And won't let you wake up In the mornin'
They say you were meant to be A doll from their dreams The one, born to fly So why do you feel suffocated All the damn time And would rather prefer dying
So why do you feel like Locked up in a coffin, A coffin of their expectations Deep down the ocean Drowning you over and over again
They say, you doubt yourself You underestimate your worth Then why does cutting yourself And bleeding to unconsciousness Sounds much easier
It's funny, how they keep telling you You are ruining your life But never really care! You make heroes Out of the survivors Searching for hope But when it's you, It hurts way more And you know, God! You know, You are just another Ticking time bomb Waiting for one last blow To give up and finally explode
You plug in your earphones And hurt your ear drums With the loud music All day To flush out the noise from your brain! You keep ignoring people Who really care 'cause you're afraid You tell them Everything's all right When you just wanna say, "I'm not okay!"
Five years, And it still hurts the same You hold on to that one last picture As all the other memories fade Painting your own hell In your head This whole time! A hell to hold you And scold you For eternity! As you dig your nails Into your sensitive, cold skin Trying to ease that aching Of your frozen heart and, And that burnin' in your brain Finally burning you to the ground! So much anger and hate Inside of you That it hurts when you Look into the glass! Holding up your neck With your cold, shivering hands You still patiently wait For you to explode some day 'cause you know you will Eventually! You hide it all inside of you Bundling it up In your heart beat Like a storm! A storm, To carry you far away Tossing you all over the place Making all that pain And anxiety bleed away You don't talk sense You've lost your mind Feeling so small And just waiting to fall You don't really talk much 'cause you don't really hope much And you know Oh, you know You're still ready to let go Of this dying smoke trail But the only thing that's changed Is that now you grab your pen And showcase your pain!
pakhi1738@gemmah ahh! you are just being polite. It really does feel like that sometimes, like a dream when I read all these amazing and beautiful comments from you guys in here. Thank you so much for this love and support. Thank you for everything. Honestly, I don't think I deserve it. I just write about how I feel and if you or anyone else can feel it too, it just feels like we are all doing something really wrong. Anyways, thank you
We all lost something growing up. This is a little attempt from my side to write about something I miss from my childhood. Let me know what is it that you used to do once as a kid but you don't anymore just because you grew up. P.S.- I miss skating and playing badminton for hours after school.
With orange wheels under your tiny feet, And white clouds painted all over the blue sky! You unfurled your arms to feel the wind! Only to lose control and fall down on your knees! You got up and holded the bamboo decoration in the ground Afraid to fall again, you denied to loosen your hold! Hurt, as you were, you sat down to watch other kids Swaying around with their wheels You observed them closely to learn some techniques With eyes closed and continuous chanting "You can do this" You got up and let go off that support!
With orange wheels under your tiny feet, And white clouds painted all over the blue sky! You again unfurled your arms to feel the wind! But this time, you took your time, Calmed yourself down, Bended a little to move forward! The wheels rolled and you gained speed You stumbled multiple times But still felt free! That feeling was real More real than several other things
You were happy You couldn't stop smiling! You would skate multiple times a day Almost like an obsession! It was just you and your skates after every meal You promised yourself to never let go of those wheels!
Things changed and you weren't 11 anymore! With increased study time, skating became a waste of time You couldn't afford to do things that you once loved Because they were labelled as timepass And you didn't had any time to pass! Memories of you and your orange wheels, All those promises you once made, were now bleak! You felt those happy memories drown As a sea of books and an ocean of expectations replaced you tiny wheels!
Sitting in your lap, Sandwiched between your arms That entire night Away from all the chaos, Looking at the dark, winter sky Covered with stars and moon Shining like precious jewels! You hugged me tight With an unspoken promise To never let go! I looked up in your eyes With a layer of water Shining like glass! You smiled, With an unexpressed apology And tightened your hold! The sides of our necks entangled And as your warm cheeks Brushed against my frozen ones My soul got a soothing chill! I felt your calm breath Your heartbeat, almost dying soft And mine, crazy high! So I tried to match mine with yours, To take away as a souvenir! As I closed my eyes in your arms, Feeling safe and almost about to break For just one last time! You kissed my forehead And said, "see you soon"! Yes, a lie! A lie, Just as shining white as the moon And as pure as the moonlight! But so were you, A lie that I saw Every night Through the eyes of My subconscious self! Yet, felt more real than any reality Every morning! Leaving me with a still crazy beating heart And a feeling of being ripped apart Into pieces But with a smile!
Lying in my bed Staring at the empty, dark ceiling I am processing my thoughts Trying to understand what I am feeling! My mind is empty After a really long time! Maybe it's the end of a story Or do you think it's really just wine? The curtains on this window Usually closed with perfection, Feels a bit drunk too Or is it just surjection? "Surjection"? You know, "Every image has a unique pre-image" Or at least that's what they say! Stupid real analysis! Anyways, I had phone in my hand All day long And now my eyes are sore Wait, was is "subjection" That I was looking for? Maybe! You see, I don't really remember things anymore I am becoming too lazy Or maybe I just stopped caring Is that why my future looks so hazy? Long ago, I had these dreams With me falling in an endless hypnosis loop And as the dot in the center Came closer to the sight I used to wake up with a jerk In the middle of the night! Now, as the deafening silence is prevailing This tiny boat of thoughts is taking a leap Only to sink deep As I am silently slipping into sleep! Waiting to finally fall And spared from becoming a prey Always in the middle of it all And yet so far away!
I am lost in my head Wishing for you to see me, Trying to return Back to the past, Washing away the dust From the shelves! Am I a stranger If I don't recognize myself? My world is so different From yours! These walls around me Ensures, That I endure All these memories, These fake memories That I fabricate daily So delicately! I created these walls To keep myself away From you! But now that I want You so badly, There's no room in here For two! I am lying to myself, Trying to fake the way I feel! Burying down blades, In the part of me that's sealed! I've been walking through this fire Trying to hide my scars! I can feel my heart trembling And these bruises on my arms! I've always been this way But there's nothing I'd change! 'cause these memories Are all mine. Whether all real Or so damn fake!
Heaven comes to me When I see you smile Like a morning sunshine In my stupid dreams! Never realized How real you were And how close I was To breaking! I left that town You once lived in To ice my bruses And to shelter your pain Within me! The shelves in that old corner Of my mind Are now full of dust, Full of blood stains! I was trapped by the demons of the day And they were asking me to stay I was so stupid to try to ignore your pain And tell myself that you were gonna be okay, Over and over again! And I knew the pain that you were Dealing with Broken and unseen And I knew the smile That was fading in that smoke screen! I know it wasn't my fault But I was so busy crying That I chickened out Instead of even trying! Now I have blood on my hands And it creeps me out Just won't let me sleep And it makes me scream! So I roll it up Into some fancy words Trying to fool myself Trying to fool the world! Am I losing my mind? Am I losing my soul? 'cause it hurts so bad But I just won't let go!
You feel hatred and rage With your whole heart It's buried in your soul! You keep telling the same story, Over and over again To feel a long lost pain! You don't want to fit in You don't want to play This follow up trend game! You don't want to be Who they want you to be You don't want to stay But you stay, anyway! Playing the same old song To make it all fade away! Making a toast for the lost one's You try to reincarnate those souls! People ridicule you again For being so dramatic and insane! You break the last vial of hope You never knew you had! It's a mixed feeling Of being angry and sad! You realise you should have said something But now, the moment has passed! Living in a limbo of dead People pretending to care when you are around And laughing at your back! In one moment they say you are useless In other, "you need help!" Lost somewhere in confusion and hypocrisy You lose patience, you lose your sanity And as the memories from your past starts to linger You smile back at the world with a middle finger
खोया है तू खुदमें यूँ सात समंदर ढूंढे क्यों कहानियों में लिपटा हुआ आसमान तेरा क्या चाँद, क्या सितारा उलझी उलझी सी ये कहानियां तेरी दास्ताँ कोई सुनाती हैं पलकों पर सवार सपने तेरे कहीं दूर उड़ा ले जाते हैं पंख फैला, उड़ता जा चल एक नया नाटक दिखा दुनिया ये ना समझ पाए नासमझ से परिंदे सारे उड़ना ये जो भूल चुके पिंजरे में कैद सारे टूटे तारे टूटकर बिखरा ये जो ख्वाब है समेंटकर एक जहाँ बना फिर जीना सीख फिर उड़ना सीख ये जंज़ीरें तुझे अब रोकेंगी क्या! तू आग है तू ही तूफान तू बात है और तू ही मकान तू रात है तू ही सवेरा उड़ जा पंछी ढूंढने एक नया बसेरा
pakhi1738@the_charismatic_soul I don't know what it is but I think I gave you an impression that you can't talk to me about it. I get it. My first instinct was that it's something about Rishu because that's what it has been about ever since we started talking. I just want you to know that it doesn't always have to be about him. If there's ever anything that you want to talk about, I am right here. About anything. Anything at all. Text me whenever you are ready to talk about it.
pakhi1738@the_charismatic_soul you freaked me out I thought I said something wrong last night. Had to delete some comments from here from last night. It was nothing. Just me overthinking again. Thank you for the wishes. It's almost done. Just one more question left and then I'll submit it!!
Letting go of something Holding on to another Looking for a moment of peace With eyes searching for a never ending sea A sea with a perfect sunset And golden sunlight shining like a dream A dream so bright, with power to heal Even the deeply wounded
You visit the beach everyday To feel your feet in the loose sand And the salty breeze on your face To listen to the silent roars of the sea!
And as the strangers pass by You look for a perfect home A home to hold you in it's arms Forever! And to never let go when in pain
You have dreams A new one everyday You live them like they are your life And as the characters of those dreams Keep visiting you time and again They become a long lost family A family from another life Still holding onto you
You love deeply And say you've never been in love You sacrifice things To please others You love your stories And patiently listen To the hush hush chit chats Of the stars and the moon You talk to clouds and birds And end every conversation With a see you soon!
"See you soon!" But you don't really believe that Do you!?
In the moment of absolute silence When you can feel your heart Pounding and holding on to keep you with it Just a little longer Long enough for you to realise That you are worth fighting for, I'll be there for you
Holding your hand Lying by your side Looking at the stars Dreaming about fairies and unicorns But most importantly The life that we had!
Crazy, as one might say With exhilarating ups, crashing downs And of course Several little middle grounds
Getting drunk on nostalgia Shaking hands with the present And smiling at the future With a hope as bright as the Red giant
As our bodies say goodbye To this weird but beautiful world We will be reborn in the stories We once were a part of And the dreams that we shared together!
My hands are cold As I walk through this ocean of fire! With cold breeze gently calming my soul, The orangish golden lining of the clouds in the sky Trying to heal my wounds of ignorance and fear! I hold on to a little dying leaf to save me from drowning It smile at me as I watch people frowning! I sit by the riverside with my feet dipped in the freezing water I feel the gentle flow making my feet float! With a perfect sunset painted all over the sky A little bird on the tree sings for me! Colorful butterflies hovering on the flowers Fireflies burning with a soothing cold shine! I lie down on the dry grass and feel it to be alive I want to cry but all I can is smile! This view is perfect Everything I ever wished for! With the memories of past and some hope for the future Trying to seal my wounds with a virtual suture! I close my eyes listening to the bees To dream about you, me and our piano keys!
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pakhi1738@the_alchemiist I know, right!? This was in the memory of Rishikesh trip that I went on with my family... My first rafting experience! That water was freeeeeeeezing... I still get hurt freeze even by thinking about it! And that perfect sunset making the water of Ganga look golden as gold! I literally sat there on the banks with my feet dipped in that water for an hour... I couldn't feel my legs after that but it was worth it! It was just perfect! That entire trip!
Thank u so much for reading! Such a lovely feedback, that too coming from you just made my day! Keep smiling bhai!