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  • inspiration_telugu 14w

    Inspiration

    “If you won't improve yourself,who will ?”
    ©inspiration_telugu

  • ileecoleman 20w

    Little Black Boy

    Forgive me king for I know NOT how to begin,
    To apologize for all the tears and fears that you've corralled within,
    For the mounds of broken promises that launched many dreams into the wind,
    Due to the addictions of those whose job was to protect you and called themselves friends,
    For the unspeakable pain you've endured that still leave you broken and insecure,
    I empathize and wipe my eyes that you have been unable to find a cure,
    Little Black Boy with ungodly secrets untold, left to fend for himself in an emotional fishbowl,
    I hear your silent cries and can see the invisible scars,
    The decible levels are off the charts and the wounds are the results of other's faux paus,
    But yet here you stand and continue to push through,
    With the weight of the world being carried by your shoes,
    I pray for the day that you heal all that hurts,
    And find peace within your inner sanctum without the need to please skirts,
    You are more than someone's utility,
    Your additions outway your subtractions,
    You are a leader to most and an influencer of many - just by your strength and reactions,
    So for now, melanin king that wears the shoes whose tips have wings,
    Hold your head high and adjust your blue suit,
    Take a moment to breathe then proceed with your pursuit,
    Your day will soon come and you'll glow like a lighter,
    Keep believing you'll beat the odds - look what just happened to Tiger.

    https://www.instagram.com/p/BwZO7AsAg2PgyM-yisLgsxoka1RiTbFVU3Z1u80/?utm_medium=copy_link

    ©ileecoleman

  • ileecoleman 22w

    A Dream

    I had a dream, i said
    About WHO, she said
    About YOU, I said
    Is that TRUE, she said

    True Indeed, I said
    Better believe, I said
    I was hoping to pick you up and help me CONCEIVE it, I said
    Let me SEE, she said
    I may AGREE, she said
    Or I may find it uninviting and quickly FLEE, she said

    I bent my lips and showed my teeth to help me get in her head But her beautiful set of eyes messed with me instead

    Let me SEE, I said
    You and ME, I said
    Were holding hands and locking lips under the TREE, I said

    Under the TREE? she said
    You and ME? she said
    It must have been mistletoe intertwined within the LEAVES, she said
    What I noticed was that she slightly readjusted her stance, In such a way that made me sure that I could get in her pants, So I stepped up my pursuit like it was the last dance, I reached out and caressed her hands so that my words could advance
    Could it BE, I said
    CURIOSITY, I said
    Is getting the best of you and now you’re wanting to SEE, I said

    She smiled at me and said with her face all red, Dreams come true when you least expect them to And I just shook my head

    She pressed her lips against my mouth raising my mini-me from the dead, Until my emotions ran amuck levitating both pant legs
    How would it FEEL, she said
    If you take the WHEEL, she said
    And lead us both into ecstasy without a moment of dread

    My eyes opened wide and the corners of my mouth widely spread
    This dream of mine is going just fine and now my pencil is all lead
    I’d be a FOOL, I said
    To play it COOL, I said
    When we both know that I’m excited and about to DROOL, I said
    Does this mean… I continued
    That we are about to get into
    All the pleasurable things I dreamt about and have them all come true?
    She nodded her head and said yes, Then took her time to undress, To unveil all the wonderful gifts in which GOD chose her to bless

    I couldn’t believe my eyes as I got to see inside, Cause my dream became a nightmare
    When I found out she was a GUY

    #poetry #amwriting #poetryporn #nyc #russia #telaviv #washington #sweden #poetryofinstagram ##europe #china #japan #author #amwriting #seattle #tacoma #germany #world #canada #london #italy #spain #france #tampabay #africa #amsterdam #losangeles
    ©ileecoleman

  • shogazi 34w

    The Entirety of Everything

    Guys have you ever just been there intoxicated or drunk and you start to think about...oh well, everything
    From material things, to religiousness, values, traits, growth
    Like the universe, knowledge and fucking improvement
    Like does curiosity choke you like it does me ?
    Philosophies are blown around casually these days
    And there's a correct argument stand point for everything
    Like alright I'm not about to dive deep but if you check it, there's actually no theory now that's honestly 100 percent right or wrong
    Like OMG, guys how do we convey true emotions
    Via words ? Text ?
    Have you not ever been driven to tears by a movie or a song ?
    Like how do you explain this ?
    Have you not struggled with explaining a feeling ?
    I am utterly convinced that all the world has to offer is the physical thinking about many a things like this that are not physical but still affect our own existence
    Like the fuck!!
    ain't it crazy ? The way a particular chord that has been hit by a particular person in a particular combination of notes can resonate with a person and be far more important and peace giving than essays ?
    Or that, people could actually have hours long conversations and end up with just memories of a person's lips or how a person smelt ?
    And you really think all this is physical and what ? chemical or biological ? Well I don't know
    But what I do know is there's a huge more things and emotions for us to discover
    Like
    Just recently we started to admit that rain has a particular smell, guys ain't it obvious, the whole thing we call the observable universe is far more than we can ever comprehend
    And for some people that's scary, it was for me for a while
    But if you check the beauty of it all
    OMG
    You could realize that, just the ordinary sound of raindrops on rooftops could be worth more than a million dollars to some other people in different situations
    Or the fact that a soldier returning from war and his wife rushing to hug him would actually play in slow motion right before your eyes if you was caught in the moment
    Like howwwwww ?!
    Why would I feel hurt and then apparently feelings that ain't physical would actually cause my throat to hurt or my stomach to cringe...these are physical pains yo
    Oh
    And now there's religion to further complicate or simplify the whole existence thing depending on your own person point of view lmao
    Like why do we drink alcohol
    And feel the way we feel you know, I don't mean Drunk I mean
    We have the courage to be our true selves
    Like when I'm drunk I think to myself
    Omg this is the real me, I wish I could be tipsy everytime so I don't have to fake to everyone
    But when I get sober the next morning I'm like oh
    I was just drunk, so my people don't think I'm weird
    Lol, the grip society and the government has on us all SMH
    Why is it that I feel like I conquered a lot of levels to life, but like anytime I get to a new level
    There's always a harder one
    Like the universe keeps expanding ?
    Oh okay so what ? What does that have to do with heaven or hell ?
    A lot of people believe in conspiracy theories do you know why ? Cuz they fucking need something to believe in that's why
    I mean
    Yassss the Bermuda triangle is hell, just cuz a couple planes disappeared around it's coordinates, yea sign me up mate
    Hell is in the middle of the fucking ocean lol
    What's real ?
    What's fake ?
    What's original ?
    Like even we ourselves don't know, I mean we are only just mere creations afterall
    But who created our creator ? Ayt fine I wouldn't get into that, cuz I have my own answer, but thing is you probably have yours or you don't but somehow your whole take on the issue isn't concrete cuz you can't prove it to yourself hahaha
    Time travel ?
    Aliens ?
    God ?
    Dimensions and all those other stuff
    Who can confirm those ?
    Yes no one
    And now there's even people that apparently died and came back hahahaha
    Some people think our life/history/future is just God or the almighty being trying to amuse himself and honestly will you just straight up varnish this option ?
    I mean, where did we come from ?
    No definite answer
    Where are we going ?
    Also no definite answer
    What are we doing here ? Earth I mean ?
    That also still up for arguments
    Hahaha
    To me I think everyone has an entitlement to their own belief honestly
    Now here is another scenario
    Why do we feel or idk is it just me, that feels more spiritual, I mean idk maybe not spiritual but feel more connected to something when we're intoxicated
    Like bare with me, you drink alcohol and here I am spitting all these ideas in some sort of fucked up arranged order for Humans to comprehend
    I mean, most of influencial people smoked pot would also probably erupt in an argument but heyyy haha
    As a creative, I'm very sure i can relate to me and say that genuine content comes easily when we're drunk or intoxicated
    So erm what's the explanation to that too ?
    Are we more in tune with our like inner man or subconscious or what when we get intoxicated ?
    Like do we go into some sort of trance and unlock something like hey I honestly don't know
    Like I'm telling you I actually think deep about a lot of conspiracy theories it's crazy
    For example
    What if God smoked cannabis ?
    Wait
    What if God just made us for amusement ?
    Doesn't that mean we're getting boring already ? I mean 2000 years is a lot hahaha
    Like oh mehnnnn multiverses ?
    If they existed ? Does science still take the credit ? Or religion ? Haha OMG
    How about atheist ?
    Condemned to hell ?
    Like think with me for a moment, like what if they're right ? Yoooo my biggest weapon and weakness at the same time is probably open-mindedness cuz eishhh
    Someone comes along and says something and then you pretend not to listen but it still gets to you like damnnnn
    Mindsets, point of views, perspectives omg all these things differ from person to person
    Okay we talking bout everything right ?
    Give an explanation to the ties between the Catholic Church and the Illuminati hahahaha
    Like OMG mehn guys the way my mind wonders you'd be surprised
    If dragons never existed how come we talk about them today ? Like who started that fake story lol
    I mean dinosaurs died out right ? Archeology says that
    The Bible talks about 3 headed or 7 headed monsters
    Haa, wait…and we're somehow supposed to believe all these things ?
    Ignorance is bliss right ? I'm actually very fervently starting to believe this, cuz guys I tell you..the more you don't know, the more it's good for you
    But hear me out on this too, and if you smart enough hopefully it blows your mind
    The more you don't know it's actually peaceful cuz you don't get to question anything hence, no arguments or anything of the sort
    But just imagine people like me, the more you don't know...the more you want to know and you just keep finding out weird stuff which is cool until you try to explain it to the average human and you sound crazy AF
    You know what I'd leave it to you guys
    Explain anger to me, why is it that when we get mad we get all red and feel the blood pumping faster ? And teeth clench ?
    Why is it that when we free and comfortable everything seems ticklish ? Lmao
    We feel feelings physically yoooOo, how ?!!! Anyone wanna explain that ?!
    And family ? The bond ? Guys I feel like I've already said much already lol
    From science, to astrology to archeology to spirituality to education a little to everything lol
    I hope everyone takes something away from this tho
    Lol
    Cuz I just summarized the entire everything both physical and the beyond

    ©shogazi

  • sarahrachelea 59w

    Dear Mother Russia,
    I want one of your son
    The one that has a humble, soothing vibes
    With those beautiful eyes and cutie pie smile
    Give me that young man to me now
    Zaraneye spasibo

    ~ A letter to Matushka Rossiya
    ©sarahrachelea

  • _the_professor 61w

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  • devdoo 63w

    My Screening For Volunteer Human Trial Of "Covaxin",����'s 1st COVID19 Vaccine,Is Tomorrow At Sum,Sixa O Anusandhan(SOA) 'Varsity,Vubaneswar

    #COVID19 #Pandemic #Endemic #Corona #Virus #Wuhan #China #KungFlu #XiJinping #Vaccine #Covaxin #Oxford #Russia #Israel #AstraZeneca #HCQ #HydroxyCholoroQuine #Remdesivir #Sum #SOA #SumHospital #SumMedicalCollege #SikshaOAnusandhanUniversity #Bhubaneswar

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    Screening

    ©devdoo

  • shogazi 65w

    WEIRDO MOTHERFUCKER

    I crave out of body experiences
    I wanna be in sync with all the universes
    I'm trynna chat with the devil and God
    I want to be weird
    Nobody understands me so I'm trynna confuse the people that think they do
    I hate Myself the most but I don't love anymore more than me
    You don't want to be in my mind trust me
    Foreign languages that I don't understand calm me
    I love Latin
    I want anima vestra
    Looking at clouds for too long make me feel weirdly excited
    The thought of me not being human floods my mind
    Imagine being an invincible spirit, just observing all the things that happen on earth, I think that's the best cruize a something can catch in life HAHAHAHA
    I love putting myself in situations that scare me, probably cuz of the adrenaline
    I think everyone around me is dumb
    But at the same time I think I'm not smart enough
    I don't fear death weirdly
    I think I'd love to die, see what's on the other side and then come back without revealing the secrets
    I want to have a demon friend
    I also want to have an angel friend
    I love floating
    Either in water or in gas
    I am that I am
    Which means I am God actually for those of you that don't understand
    Imagine Satan won the amageddon
    What if Eve wasn't such a bitch ? What if she didn't give Adam the apple ?
    I'm too smart for my age
    But again I am the dumbest foolish motherfucker you can find
    I feel things
    I want to be everything
    Imagine what's going on in Pluto, must be quite lonely
    Oh you fear blasphemy ?
    But you forget that God himself gave us this mind to think of whatever we think of
    Do you think angels and demons are just players in a game ?
    Imagine a conversation between Gabriel and baphomet
    Why do I think of these kind of things ?
    Why do creatives get more creative when they are intoxicated ?
    Ignorance is actually bliss when you think about it, but curiosity is like a hungry monster forcing me to crave more
    Piano cords make me imagine myself in space
    I'm not scared of xvjudthbd why ?
    And at the same time I like life, I enjoy it so much
    Why do people cry when they are happy ?
    God and Lucifer should just probably make peace with eachother and let us live in harmony
    But who will advice them ? Nobody !
    Define insomnia
    Like my natural body needs to sleep, but I can't cuz my mind won't let me wow
    Aethiest actually exist ? Saying there ain't no God
    So I mean like how do you explain solid objects falling from the sky in the form of small balls ? I'm talking about hailstorms WTF HAHAHA
    How do words hurt ? Like explain the chemistry of it.
    Anger ?
    Pain ?
    Suffering ?
    Happiness ?
    Feelings ?
    How do you explain all of that ?
    Ohhhhhh I almost forgot
    And dreams ?
    Like HAHAHAHA OMG
    Infact, why do I laugh when I'm angry or confused ?
    Actually why do I laugh all the time ? Hahaha
    I've had situations where dreams serve as warnings
    I'm 100% sure that spirits exist
    On to the next. why do evil people live their best life while good people suffer
    Anyways I'm getting in my feelings, let me continue talking about weird things lol
    Why do people listen to sad music when they are already sad ? Like why won't you listen to jiggy shit to boost your mood ?
    BDSM is weird. Do you guys think God fuck with that ?
    Incest was permitted in the olden days guys WTF!!!
    You reading this right now, let me not scare you much but tomorrow might actually be your last day on earth, and you still not trynna do what makes you happy ? Hahahaha I won't preach to you!
    Scary things excite me lol

    I want to be Vincit qui se vincit
    Astra inclinant, sed non obligant
    I want to be the Aqua vitae
    Mater semper certa est
    Acta deos numquam mortalia fallunt
    Te futueo et caballum tuum…. LMFAO

    quis ego non habeat fiduciam

    I am scared of Catholic Churches no offense, everything is weird with them
    Why do they worship the pope like he is some god, do y'all know how many consipacy theories surround the Vatican ?
    I mean it's only Catholic Churches that are portrayed in horror movies for exorcisms and shit lmao
    Yesterday I thought I was too open minded
    But is there anything as "too" open minded ?
    Anyways I'll leave y'all now, if not my mind will keep suggesting things
    Bye LOL

    Oh shit, someone tell Lilith I don't want Adam to catch us fucking !!
    PS: this ain't even half of the shit that goes on in my head on a daily
    ©shogazi

  • shogazi 70w

    Who is a creative ?
    A creative is someone that births something out of nothing
    Guys a creative is one of the most Disturbed motherfuckers on the planet.
    Hear me out please.
    A creative suffers. and trust me I write this sobbing.
    A creative is someone that struggles to find the mood to create, be it art, dance, painting, singing, composing, drawing or writing, we all go through the same struggle.
    But you know what is the issue here ?
    I'll tell you
    You think a creative suffers ? Okay let me welcome you to the life of an intellectual creative, and I'm not talking a creative that's brilliant or got A's in schools
    I'm talking about that curious creative, that's also in search of knowledge.
    Guys the hurt is much
    Like you start learning in order to improve your craft, or yourself in general, and you get to realize that, the more you become informed about the world, the sadder it becomes
    Like bloody hell, this place Is really a shitty place to be
    I mean
    Ask anyone who knows a bunch about history, psychology and human behavior or let's even say something as simple as societal norms, like geez guys I'm not trying to blow my Trumpet here, like I am actually really dumb if you compare my knowledge to all the knowledge in the world, that's already enough to torture me
    And now combine that curiosity or "local knowledge" so to speak with creativity and you just have a mess
    Like OMG
    We're basically mad to these other "normal" humans
    Like we try to create something iconic and then our brain tells us
    Hey what you doing ?
    This is too conventional
    You have to dig deeper, wheeew
    And so we dig
    Deeper and deeper into our souls searching for unconventional and notably new approaches to theories or stories that aren't even born yet, just so we achieve that unique and perfect blend
    Omg
    Perfection is our greatest enemy
    And starting a project is the accomplice of perfection
    Cuz these two will make you never come up with something.
    We try to create, but our mind just wonders
    Like please, what is happening
    I'm really trying to gather my thoughts, but they're just all over the place like WTF
    It hurts so much I want to cry
    Okay and now looking at the interlectual aspect of it all
    Like
    Okay, we were once curious, and are still are
    So we learnt and are still learning any and everything about the universe
    But
    Why is it that the more we know, the more depressing it becomes
    Like eish
    The meaning of life is literally the quest to finding the meaning of life, or it's just whatever you are most comfortable with, and you have to understand that this is on an individual basis, and we're like what ? 7 billion individuals on this planet ? I mean
    Life itself as a whole is crazy
    The 1% rule keeps fucking is up
    Which kinda roughly explains that, it's only the 1% of 100 that will actually achieve anything worthwhile. And here is our demise, we strive to be that 1% ever always, straining for perfection in everything we do not knowing that, perfection is the sole killer of starting anything worthwhile
    Which leads us to a loop because, creativity don't work like that, to create, you don't need anxiety, you need a free mind
    And I swear, a free mind is like the worse sort of addiction
    Like once you're "woke" to the "scam" of reality thanks to intellectuallity, you definitely want to do the opposite because that's what makes you stand out, and that's the major truth
    Like for example obviously, once the normal brain comprehends something as simple as the fact that the mainstream educational system is designed to refrain major and I mean major life tips from us, you will definitely not want to go to normal school anymore hence a conflict between self and society
    And knowledge itself is very tricky, especially when accompanied with curiosity, because you definitely want to know more
    More about what you know, more about what you don't know
    And more about everything
    Now that's the addiction, you start yarning to know the real stuff, and it hits you, but you still want to know more
    So much more that, people that are not on your self imposed mission won't grab, because they're following society
    But you ? Nahhh you a full on rebel now, because you know, and so because you are somewhat knowledgeable, you tend to act differently from society, you do "the real thing" and now others who are apparently society, see you doing something different and they label you "mad"
    Ahhh
    I mean, but in your mind you're a little bit excited because all the great heroes you've come to know were labelled mad
    Until, you gain more knowledge and even more knowledge
    Because a normal knowledgeable person always wants to know more
    So okay you know more. And you find out these secrets that are kinda freely speaking, debunks society, and now you're worried all over again in this never ending cycle/loop
    Because trust me, everyone says ignorance is bliss, even your average fool, but only the truely knowledgeable understand the struggle ☹️


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    The Struggles Of An Intellectual Creative

    ©shogazi

  • shogazi 70w

    Let's know this

    Gentle reminder: you don't always necessarily get what you give
    ©shogazi

  • shogazi 71w

    The choice of a genius

    The world has a choice. It is either I am sick or the world is sick, so just because they got the numbers they made me feel like the sick one. Now I have a choice, to believe what the world tells me, or to die with my own notion
    ©shogazi

  • quarantinistani 72w

    A Question Worth Considering

    Which cause is more pressing,
    supporting the survivors or resisting their oppressors?

    © Quarantinistani

  • shogazi 87w

    Wisdom's weight

    In the society of today, i'm not in the position to say wisdom is a curse, but it sure as hell carries a huge burden with it.
    ©shogazi

  • shogazi 90w

    ME against it

    Fearless
    I look it in it's eyes, it is looking back straight into mine
    I can hear muffled voices in my head, uncertain what they trynna say, but they up to no good for sure
    I stand my ground, and evil stands it's own, as if in a standoff
    Waiting for me to fidget so it can use my own fear to consume me
    But I still stand my ground, unmoved….not because I'm brave but because I'm scared of what might happen if I show fear
    I try to be on to the light, but the light seems so very far away and dim, as if to say I'm coming your way but not anytime soon
    Ahhhh, I'm in the enemy zone, I gotta be extra careful if not I'm already a lost cause
    I snap out of my thoughts and try to focus on the light, but the light is so blurry
    A thought comes to me to engage and fight, but I'm hesitant
    I could be easily overpowered here as I have no allies, I'm in this alone, I'm surrounded but not yet devoured
    Okay I'll stand my ground for now since this is a face off, and nobody is making any advances yet
    I nervously wait, but with every passing second, I get more scared and I feel like it is sensing my fear
    I'm sweating now, and the muffled voices in my head now turn to muffled scornful laughter
    It's dark but I can feel things getting closer and closer
    I feel hot breaths behind me, but I can't look back
    Cuz I don't want to lose sight of it lest it feels I'm weaker and goes for an attack
    I feel darkness float above my head, almost like it sweeps past my ears
    I want to scream
    I'm clenching my teeth now
    I'm ready for the worse
    My sweating continues, but more profusely now
    It is now smirking as if to communicate it's strength
    I remember I'm with a sword, so anxiously and with form and uneasy movements of every muscle in me, I close my eyes, let out a scream and swing my sword
    And poof!
    Quietness
    I opened my eyes and I'm alone
    In a very white quiet atmosphere
    This is the light
    I'm in the heart of the light
    I beat it
    I see someone, some sort of godly figure approach me, the figure seemed to be the center of the light, the figure was blurry at first but as the figure got closer to me, I recognized the figure
    The figure was me
    I looked at me and smirked
    Lol
    I had beat it.

    ©shogazi

  • shogazi 102w

    RELATIVITY

    Nothing in this world is right or wrong
    Like ahhhhh haha WTF
    Wait, dude legit question. Would you blame a manipulated dude for his wrong acts ? Like Seriously I legit need an answer.
    Okay let me help you out, or further more confuse you so to say. I mean would you rather blame the manipulator ? Hahaha
    Tricky right ?
    Okay name your biggest truth….you probably gonna name some religious stuff yea ?
    Now imagine proving that stuff to an atheist....Lmao
    No proof right ? I mean technically from his point of view, religion or spirituality don't even exist, only science and facts. But from your point of view, spirituality equals facts eyyy
    Now also imagine your biggest lie or scam
    Lol I'm going somewhere with this
    For me it's probably something like
    "The Earth is flat"
    Now to imagine that for hundreds of years literally
    Humans lived their lives with those untrue principles and it worked for them. Like it literally WORKED FOR THEM, till a so called crazy guy cleared out their ignorance, and he was right fammm like but till it got proven, he was wrong hahaha waohhh. I don't know why this shit seems to be only funny to me, they actually killed that Niqqa
    So you see
    There's a fine line between ignorance and knowledge
    And you know what that line is ?
    I call that line belief
    Shit….I mean, just think about it
    It's even scientifically proven, remember that neuroscientific phenomenon where there's a dress that apparently has two colors ? Yup that's how right and wrong is
    IT'S FUCKING RELATIVE
    some saw blue and black, whilst others like myself saw gold and white, this is just proof that the concept of right and wrong is flawed hahahaha
    Guys. The very concept of wrong or right is relative, it all depends on our subconscious, our state of mind, our conditioning and most importantly our belief
    Cuz talking from another perspective
    You could actually be wrong but believe strongly that you're right and till somebody proves beyond reasonable doubt, you'd continue to be right and vice versa
    So repeat after me
    The difference between right and wrong is just BELIEF
    Sprinkled with minimum to zero bits of proof
    You can literally be right to one man and at the same time be wrong to another, depending on perspectives and point of view
    This shit is all relative bro
    Think about it


    ©shogazi

  • shogazi 105w

    NUMB

    "Same shit just a different day"
    This phrase right here hits harder than you could've imagined it to be
    And what more am I here for that to open up the deeper interpretation for us to feel
    So I woke up this morning, nothing special about the day
    Except ahh, I'm late again
    Now the questions flood in like they do every morning
    Should I just go back to sleep ? I mean I already missed first class
    Why am I even going to school today ? Oh Dad actually paid a lot for this huh..…fine
    So dude are you gonna reply all those messages ? Or you'd just post that status and go offline again
    Do I have work today ?
    Am I supposed to meet anyone ?
    Did I make any promises ?
    Ehhhhh I guess I'd find out later in the day, let me shower first
    *Phone call comes in*
    *Exchange casual greetings and uneccessary small talk"
    Hey dude can I ask you a favor ?
    Hmmmm, reluctantly refuses or accepts depending on my mood
    Listen to music, and I get to class
    Stay in class for 2 hours, just writing notes
    But my mind is not even in class
    I don't want to be there, and I'm really starting to question if I have to
    I'm empty inside
    Like literally, I feel space inside my chest
    And don't come to me with all that love will fill up your heart bullshit, that's an entirely different story for another piece.
    Nothing excites me, nothing surprises me, nothing gets me angry, nothing makes me sad, nothing makes me happy
    I don't feel cold, or warm
    I don't have energy to do anything, I just drag myself from one activity to the next
    Thinking to myself, owh I just have to survive this activity and then yup onto the next one
    And now just understand this…..amidst all this going on, I still see someone going through something similar and actually don't hesitate to go out of my way and cheer them up
    cuz I know how it is to feel this way…..that's not even the surprising part, what actually surprises me is that it actually works, I mean WTF I'm also damaged, how did i manage to make you smile ?
    So at this point is where the question comes in
    What care do you have left for yourself if you give all your care to others ? Who actually cares for the caretakers
    Who becomes the therapist of the therapist…..
    A sad song comes up on my playlist, and I actually relate to it for a little while. But then I remember I have to be positive and keep going, and then I charge up again with my 5% enthusiasm and yea. I just realized I'm not even given the chance to feel sadness too haha
    So now I play something more upbeat and jiggy and I'm goofy till the end of the day
    Cuz I looked at a couple of memes, had to reply some funny messages, but majorly I'm goofy and "happy" because when I'm not smiling everyone comes to me and asks
    What's wrong with you ? Why are you not happy ? Are you sick ?
    And yea I really don't want to answer those questions
    Sometimes I just plug in earphones and act pissed so no one talks to me. Sometimes it works, sometimes they still come ask lol
    Most times when I want to re-evaluate my actions I kinda just ask myself okay dude, what are you doing now and why are you doing it. But most times the answer to the why am I doing it question doesn't make me happy, so I stopped asking
    The whole day is just a rollercoaster of fake mood swings
    At the end of the day, I go to bed knowing I have to repeat the whole thing again, and I low-key wish I'd wake up to something different, but ahh if wishes were horses right haha
    But I also go to bed knowing that, since I didn't die today and I actually survived the whole day....then it means I can survive tomorrow and besides you're only at your lowest when there's something great coming your way soonest

    The fact that all of us in this generation can relate to this on some level is crazy like damn
    This some weird shit, but ahhh life is weird, and besides I heard someone recently say life's a celebration, hmm. Not really my accurate definition tho, but it works for now so I'mma just go with the flow and by flow I mean
    The grind, the journey, the ups, the downs, and staying positive and making the best out of every situation
    Even this one
    The numb.

    ©shogazi

  • shogazi 107w

    Guys first of all I'm not proud
    I swear…..I love people in general, but I hate snakes, I hate rats and ahhhhh I fucking hate hypocrites
    I go with the flow, I turn up, but I've come to understand a lot of things ��
    Like my Niqqa, life is actually funny yo don't you think ?
    I just laugh all the time at all this clowning
    Ahhhh lol oh
    Ahhhhh mad ohhhh
    Like my mum doesn't know that if she comes to Moscow she'll be famous because of me
    And well I'm ACTUALLY NOT FAMOUS
    But omg people think I am
    They way things are right now, jeez
    I want to escape cuz the way people include me in everything even when I don't have the strength, but well we go steady
    Blending work, personal life, spiritual life and all the other lives, and education too oh
    Although we all know this ideaology of school as we know it is deceit and all we want is moneyyy, well and happiness haha
    But yo
    Why wasn't there a manual to life ?
    Why didn't someone ask us first if we wanted to be born or not
    Cuz now I'm thinking, is this shit really worth it ? Like okay yes, I came I saw….but have I conquered ?!
    Because if I die today I'll both be happy and sad
    Happy cuz I lived life as I am without hiding my true identity, at least the most of it haha again
    But I'd be sad cuz ahhhh there's so much more I could achieve
    Like yo, how about that school I promised myself I'd build ? Yea the one that would house bullied kids and reassure them that they're loved ? Just cuz I was bullied as a kid
    Like how Will I be a philanthropist ? How will I help ?
    Ahhhh it sickens me when I remember that I made a decision to help only myself
    Yea…..I used to be all selflessness and putting people first, but life taught me a lot
    And yea I learnt to love myself in a fucking hard way
    I became selfish ☹️
    Selfish asin always put myself and my inner peace first in every situation
    Like, haha my life is chaos, but so is also everyone's life
    The real thing now is only to learn how to stay calm, act normal or oh well, pretend that everything is fine when you're experiencing your own personal chaos ������
    The second real thing is to find humor in all of it all
    Like find humor in that person that doesn't understand you
    Find humor in that disappointment
    Find humor in that rejection
    Find humor in that loneliness
    Find humor in that meaninglessness
    Find humor in Life in general
    If not my Niqqa you'd just commit suicide and waste away
    And the fact that I found humor in this last line hits on a different level ��
    Cuz at the end of the day
    The only ultimate meaning to life is that
    Firstly, Life is meaningless
    Secondly, We must not try to find meaning to it or we'd get depressed and die
    And thirdly, we must just live it to the fullest before our time is up
    So yea the ultimate sense is that nothing makes sense, but we MOVE !!!
    ������

    - Shogazi

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    Me is life and life is me

    ©shogazi

  • ramapatil 116w

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    !! Thoughts of the day !!
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