Is it too much, to ask for?
I don't know what's going on in his head, I have always been there, put more efforts than anyone should. I have placed him before my friends family, work, studies and even my feelings. I try to be there for him all the time, in his good and bad but I feel very suffocated, exploited and used. In Short, taken granted.
I understand he is going through lot at this time and nor do I expect him to do everything I do for him. But in a relationship isn't it supposed to be from both sides. I can be selfless, but till what extent. I feel alone, neglected and ignored. What's the use of a relationship when all it has is sadness for you and your feelings and emotions are not taken care of, he doesn't respect me, value me or give me attention.
I can compromise on some things, but he can't really be responsible or do the normal couple things like informing me when he is out whole day, asking me if I'm ok, if I haven't spoke to him for long time, calling me if I'm not there, asking if I ate.
I literally have to do it all myself, like saving or wanting this relationship is just all me. He doesn't care about it at all. Doesn't feel like my existence matters to him at all. I don't want to be in constant doubts everyother day if he loves me or not. I don't know what I'm doing is right or wrong. But this is so hurtful and stressful investing so much emotions, in someone and that person doesn't even care about you for a sec. I don't know it could be a terrible idea. But I am breaking trying to fix him, by always prioritising him over me.