No more an artist
I miss things, I miss being perfect, I miss putting in efforts, I miss drawings, I miss art, I miss painting abstract art.
Lot of things to miss, but no guts to get back at it.
I miss painting passionately.
I miss drawing people into an art.
I miss drawing 3Ds from a solid perspective.
Been years, I have touched art.
Some told me that I am not good at it,
Someone said, I don't deserve appreciation and value.
Someone else said, I don't need deserve to earn money out of the art I paint.
Someone said, I paint for sake, meaningless art
And all these criticisms has hurt me to the core for some reasons.
I thought that, I have been good at it always.
I have been honored with distinguished awards for my work.
Never in my worst thoughts, I could be believe that am so undeserving.
Today, when I look back at it, I can't find flaws, worth to be called meaningless.
My loved ones have always admired my art.
But some people on social media seem to not like it.
And the reason is simple, is simply put people down who are achieving great heights.
Now I realized, what foolish decision I made considering stupid trolls I had received.
I am gonna start again, fresh and new chapter of life with beautiful beginning.
I am not gonna be perfect but better version of myself.
Motive to not to please others, but please my soul in first place which will initially attract audience.
I will improve not because society wants me to, but solely because I want the change.
However, I don't regret giving up my art.
Because I am awestruck with a realization for life that, I need not be perfect or deserving from the viewpoint of society, it is completely alright if I am just myself all the time.
Now, tables will be turned, history will change for a reason, no more fear will takeover my life, I will not let anyone else hold the paintbrush or colours and ruin my life in anyway possible.
I take a stand for myself to not give up on self again, I will try all the best and surprise people with awe who thought I would not start all again.
I am kickstarted to give my life a new sense of purpose and direction filled with gratitude and hope and under no serious circumstances, am stepping back.
If you are an artist reading this, this is for you, never give up an art for whatsoever reasons. Because at the end of the day, your art will grow you to a better individual and let that sink in.