I hate feeling as though I'm on the edge of a cliff,
Am I to jump, to fall, or shall I be pushed.
People say I have to take risks to get anywhere in life.
Oh but what they don't say is how often those risks end in catastrophe.
All I can see when faced with such things is the ending of broken bones and bloodied pride among shattered dreams.
I tend to talk myself out of pain before I consider the bliss that could come from such extremes.
I suppose it's due to my track record of miserable failures that makes me hesitant.
Although now that I look back on them perhaps that's due to lack of alignment with my king's will.
The few that work out have been the ones I did for him and him alone.
So perhaps it is not the calculated risks I should shoot for but the prayer bathed one instead.
For with my God all things are possible.
When I am in tune with him, I can always keep the time and beat.