Sometimes its feel like the world has fallen in my heart with full of love and on the other moment its heartbreaking and painful that I don't get that love back from you. I fall for the way you smile, dreaming of you every night was my constant, I never want to miss out that efforts to impress you. My heart melts by your every little expression which no one can understand and no one able to value more than me. I don't know if you ever going to be mine or not but I do love you the most and want to cherish all the beautiful and precious moments of my life just with you. You're not my forever destination but my forever journey which I will never going to leave from my side because that's only mine and no one else have right on it.
I am a cuboid evenly not the same. My characters are beyond many, I feel like a fraud lately. I am a contrasting piece of peace and upset. A beautiful harmony that scares even myself. I am a glued broken piece. A shattered mirror of fire and air. Soaked in blood and tears. I call my mind to ransom. Ransacked.
Most of us are dead at 30, but burried in our 80's. This life of ours is such a beautiful opportunity to explore ourselves and exhibit the best version to the world. Let's not waste it by wasting time.
I am compiling a book about and have an opportunity for you. Kindly DM me to my Instagram account : @heart_scribes. Hoping for a positive response. Please don't mind if I have already contacted you.
When someone hurts me, I end up hurting myself even more, by staying silent, and over thinking about it. Somehow, I don't fight back. I don't shout. I just feel so bad, just so-so bloody bad. It makes me go crazy, but I don't show it. I breathe in all that hurt and allow it to consume me from the inside. I will spend hours and hours of night just thinking about what made that person say such things to me. Do I mean anything to that person? Did I do something wrong? Why is it effecting me so much? Why doesn't the other person even care? And amidst this cyclone of emotional turmoil, I won't ask these questions to that person. I would just wait for that person to show some care, some concern. And when that person doesn't listen to my silent scream in our dull conversations, I get more mad. I feel more hurt. And then, I just want to run away. I know it's wrong. I know I only make it worse for myself. But I want people to care for me like that. So much care that I won't need to tell them when and why I'm hurting. You know why? Because I do care and love like that. I want someone with same heart, same soul..
May be what they said was wrong.. May be what i understood was wrong.. May be the things aren't like what they seem to be.. But May be you wanted this.. May be it's just your way.. Because you didn't tried to save it.. May be you wanted to leave too!!