Miraquill
Mummy’s Wait.
Your gathered somewhere tight and small in a clust
and to get you out is a must.
Out the orvarie and a slipping slide down the fallopian tube,
right where I need you to be to bring you closer to me.
The two week wait will it happen? is it fait ?
More hungry, more tired and my boobs are sore,
But I won’t spike happiness yet I’ll wait some more.
I’ll wait with anticipation and patience.
Just two weeks untill I know
wether or not I wait some more to watch you grow .
It’s the one line I fear but the time is now here.
Widthdraw the stick and then you dip.
now I wait just two minuets longer while the adrenaline gets stronger and stronger.
With my heart thumping for fear or excitement I don’t know I turn the stick ……
for a strong solid No!
The butterflies go and they disappear yes it’s another month with out you my dear .
Hopes are still high however I can’t help but cry.
With the only question being why?
Why not me?
I’ll be the best mother I could ever be.
I Cry the news out to your dad and watch
his face drop and look so sad.
We cuddle and we dream of you, speak of you,
wish and pray for you.
Another month yet without you but another month closer till all our dreams come true.
We haven’t met you but we already love you we really do.
❤️🤞🏽🤱🏽🙏🏽🤰🏽#ttcjourney
©cherry_renaya
#pcos
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the_venus
47w
SCARS
Growing inside me
My flesh baby
Sucking my blood milk
And thriving so good
I know you love me
Can feel it in your grasp
Denying my thighs my
Darling dark blood
And those bloody stains
That purify my soul
Leaving my femininity
An idiot in agony
Stealing my endorphins
And scarring my mind.
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poojabista
93w
bleeding with a smile IV
yes,
today isn't a normal day for me
i am bleeding independently
which feels
strange and beautiful
how everyone
does not have
'cramps free' subscriptions:
today life was traded with bliss.
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poojabista
93w
bleeding with a smile III
however,
the September feels like
a new spring in my life
after five years
i bled peacefully
with a smile:
without my mother massaging my thighs and legs
or without my father
staying outside the door with a worry and sympathetic eyes
or without my younger sister preparing a medicinal water
or without my younger brother who hears my helpless scream from another room
or without a hot water bag hugging me for 24/7
or without a certain position to ease my cramps
or without a sleeping music
or without shouting at my uterus for not being able to bleed without torturing me.
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poojabista
93w
bleeding with a smile II
you think it is a normal day for me?
my body ached for hours
my inner muscles hurts
my bones hurts
every tiny parts hurts
tearing my uterus apart
unable to move,
i laid down on the floor
bled with a disconnected body
my whole body's temperature differ
not being able to carry own weight
for the first and the second days of bleeding,
i hate humans connections,
when i am so close to
unconscious,
fatigue
and nearly die inside
when I bled with pain.
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poojabista
93w
bleeding with a smile
it was cold and cloudy morning
i took a cold bath,
wore a beautiful dress,
ate more than usual,
cleaned my plates,
folded own clothes,
read some stories,
talked with people,
had a productive meeting,
light a scented candle,
clicked some selfies
sang and shaked my body,
took a long breath,
and smiled a lot.
you think it is a normal day for me?
©poojabista11 1 1
Pcod /pcos
You don't know the pain of irregular periods.
My mood swings suck my life
sometimes I don't have a sound sleep
And sometimes I oversleep with a lot of work.
I cry all day and night without any reason.
I'm hating for being a girl with a lot of weight gain even when I don't even eat properly.
People give a lot of advice to lose weight than being my mental strength.
Just my pcod level will increase a bit.
I will have more hair on my face than on my head. I almost lost my wonderful long hair.
My body will gain a little Weight which affects my mind. And it turns out to be anxiety, pressure, stress, pain.
My pcod made me more depressed than my breakups.
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aesthenia
140w
Read MoreI was Too young and Too pretty,
to know you more,
at the time,when,
you clasped my body, and soul.
You never had ,my green sign ,
when you made ,your red way,
into my happy life.
I was full of joy ,and vigour,
ready to climb mountains,
and cross oceans,
those days ,were too good ,to be true.
I was too proud ,of my glowing youth,
until the day, I learned your presence.
I was shocked, and shattered.
Digging out more ,about you,
I had no courage,
but to yell out ,in my shower.
I never wanted anyone,
to know you inside me.
Slowly, as the days ticked,
you took over ,my tender body.
I swelled up ,to a spiny puffer,
with balding head ,
and dry scaly ,wrinkles.
I traded you ,my soft sheen skin, and my silky bushy hair.
I traded you, my laughter, and my vigour.
I traded you ,my dreams ,and my love.
For ,you gave me,
irritability,and nicknames ,that I couldn’t carry.
I was, helpless and hopeless,
swinging in, my own mood swings.
Some hour of the day, I cried,
in the other hour ,I bursted out,
and in some others, I was overwhelmed.
The howling monsters in my head,
whirled me ,to think and overthink ,
every now and then ,on every this and that.
I felt happy, and jealous at the same time,for the others of my age .
I cursed myself ,for who I am.
I even questioned ,my worth.
I ran around, begging for, a second chance.
I had to give up ,on my favourite savoury,
And my wardrobe ,had to give up on my body.
My waist, was no more symmetrical.
My stomach ,was no more flat.
My eyes ,were no more shiny.
With dark lips ,and black necks,
I could feel you ,feeding my body.
With sympathies and pitiful remarks,
I moved my days, counting to the day ,of recovery.
I ran from medications to meditations.
I miss ,those red days.
I have lost ,my green fecund days.
I feel no more womanly.
I feel no more humanly.
Owning winding medical terms,
I just don’t feel, no more me.
Like the many,
you swallowed ,under your black burnt sky,
Are you going ,to swallow me too?
From the many flowers ,in the garden,
Am I to be ,that fallen autumn flower?
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@readwriteunite @writersnetwork @writers_together @writerstolli @mirakee @mirakeewriters @ashutoshstrike @alto_spade @branthan @geethalakshmi
#disease #illness #depression #killingthoughts #pod #pcos #womenPCOS
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I ran from medications to meditations.
I feel no more womanly.
I feel no more humanly.
Owning winding medical terms,
I just don’t feel, no more me.17 6 2
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mistakenculprit
Your poem has all my love, my lady.
Every syllable is so sane. - aesthenia Thank you so much! @mistakenculprit Your words meant so much to me...!
- aesthenia @ajeesh I love u too I think so🤪
- shstrike @aesthenia great one....
- aesthenia @write_in_love Repost ❤️ @ashutostrike thank you 😇
intergalacticat_
147w
i don't feel like a woman anymore
to see what makes you female
broken on a screen
to hear you may not reproduce
and never see your own little bean
to be told you have excess testosterone
a thing associated with men
to be told you can go crazy
gives it all perspective then
to have a stranger intrude
in your most personal space
to feel something scraping inside you
that came out of a medical case
to be told you are now at risk
of a million different things
to be told you have to make changes
and more hard work now begins
i know it's not the worst
but i still can't help but grieve
i don't feel like a woman anymore
and that's one thing i thought I could achieve
©intergalacticat_11 1
- cassandraamay This pain, for me, has dulled over the years. But it is still there, and if I let it, it does get sharp edges again. I am so terribly sorry.
#1
I don't know what is happening to me...i feel like i am the one who makes everyone hurt....Everybody including him whom i admire the most thinks that i am over possessive,dumb,short tempered and what not...Just a answer me one thing!! What is my fault if i have pcos? what is my fault if mood swings are common to a person having pcos? what do i do if i had no control over my anger and other feelings? i am tired T_T15 1 1
My life story
I finally started dating
That weirdo from school
After 3 years of awkwardness
My dreams have come true
He finally asked me out
And we made some time to chill
He was just so perfect
That I never noticed I fell head over heels
2 months in
We decided to move away
We struggled for a baby
and I was crying everyday
He always cheered me up
And he wiped away my tears
He held me in his arms
And would tell me what I wanted to hear
I'd often cry and feel useless
And tell him to find someone new
That could give him what he wanted
Something I could never do
I'd always be up on google
Trying to find out what's wrong
While he slept peacefully beside me
As I cried all night long
2 years of trying
I finally gave up
But my body started to feel different
So I peed in a cup
I laughed at myself for trying
Because I was convinced that it couldn't be
But what's the harm in trying
And there was clearly something wrong with me
My nipples were so sensitive
And I started spewing up at the smell of food
Even my body looked different
When I stood before myself nude
Waiting on the test
My partners eyes glared at me with surprise
There were 2 lines on the test
I didn't know what else to do but cry
Here I lay, 6 months pregnant
Thinking about how life just isn't fair
I pray for all those with a story like mine
I wish God would answer everybody's prayers...
©robyn_margaret12 1
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introvert_milescovers
178w
Read MoreLife with PCOS is hard, but it is especially difficult and frustrating when you want to become a Mom.
It was heartbreaking the moment I realized that it was just a dream, that it wasn't true. But perhaps that dream meant something. Maybe, it is a message that this year could be different.
I have not lost all hope though. In God's right time, a beautiful creature will call me 'Mum'.
#PCOS #lifewithPCOS #dreams #vividDreams #heartaches #introvert #Mom #Mum #IDontWantToWakeUp #writersnetwork #readwriteunite #words
It was a dream so vivid,
So lifelike..
I believed it was real,
even If i'd already
roused from my sleep.
How I wish it was real.
©milescovers6 0
nycevallos
189w
Read More#pcos #pcoscysters #poem #poetry #existentialism #existentialist #writing #love #romantic #poets #poetsofinstagram #writersnetwork #poetrycommunity #girlswhowrite #pansexual #lgbtcommunity #queer #spokenword #gay #yaoi #yoga #lgbt #words #photography #art #mood #bipolar #depression #anxiety #bipolardisorder
Nameless
I drown everyday on polluted air
And wake up to swat the bugs I feel on my skin but aren't actually there
I feel the earth crumbling and growing hollow from constant over use
And forebode my decline through its core to potential drug abuse
Falling endlessly in no general direction
Desperation that my world is ending and I have no protection
From family, friends, or God who I fear
Because lately it's been hard to feel myself
Almost like I'm not really here
©nycevallos
@a.glitch.in.existence12 0
nycevallos
192w
Read More#pcos #pcoscysters #poem #poetry #existentialism #existentialist #writing #love #romantic #poets #poetsofinstagram #writersnetwork #poetrycommunity #girlswhowrite #pansexual #lgbtcommunity #queer #spokenword #gay #yaoi #yoga #lgbt #words #photography #art #mood #bipolar #depression #anxiety #bipolardisorder
Pay to Play
I can't hold sentimental value to the moments that you will vaguely remember
My notes on longing can no longer be addressed to selfish lovers
In name alone
Wanting you was everything
Ill stop positioning you on a pedestal
The way I positioned your body to embrace me whole
Filled with me
I reject your love
©nycevallos
@a.glitch.in.existence7 0
nycevallos
192w
Read MoreI feel that I'm slipping away
Writing is my last attempt at grasping the essence that's escaping me
#pcos #pcoscysters #poem #poetry #existentialism #existentialist #writing #love #romantic #poets #poetsofinstagram #writersnetwork #poetrycommunity #girlswhowrite #pansexual #lgbtcommunity #queer #spokenword #gay #yaoi #yoga #lgbt #words #photography #art #mood #bipolar #depression #anxiety #bipolardisorderTeething
Aggressive intolerance to random seething rage
I can't filter my reactions
Or shut my mouth and let the ilogical rants thrown in my direction pass through me
I used to be quiet and passive now I skip pleasantries into sinking my teeth into your arteries with intent to kill
In front of so many witnesses because they have pushed me past reservations on public presentation
I'm always in the wrong
They wish they could have put me down years ago
But I'm a part of this family by blood and name
Born within violence and raised with subconcious hate
Aware of the resentment being fed to me until it becomes an acquired taste passed down like family tradition
My mental stability could not keep up with the uncleanliness I've endured for fear of repercussion.
@a.glitch.in.existence7 0
My dream
My baby
My bright shining star
For years all I wanted was that positive test,
For my dreams to come true, the moment the midwife would place you on my chest.
Starting to believe that it may just never happen.
Then in May two thousand & sixteen, unexpectidly, unplanned, those two pink lines were to be seen!
Instantly in love, a love like no other.
So filled with joy, so filled with happiness, are you a girl or are you a boy?
The weeks passed by and my love for you grew, making so many plans for me & you.
Life was perfect, the future looked bright.
Little did i know, it could change over night.
Early one morning blood could be seen,
My thoughts going crazy, what does this mean? Holding on so tightly to all my hopes and dreams.
But laid on the bed, staring at the screen, im sorry to say theres no heartbeat to be seen.
I left the room, feeling empty & alone.
Walk out through the waiting room,
Seeing smiles all around me, when all I felt was gloom.
Why me? I asked myself, What did I do?
Left with my heart broken in two.
'It wasn't meant to be'
'Atleast you know you can get pregnant'
'you can always try again'
People kept telling me.
But that was my baby, that I wanted for so long,
I never got to see
I never got to hold.
Taken from me far to soon,
To precious for this world.
You was my dream, you was my baby,
Now a shining star, high up in the sky.
I will always love you.18 3
- beautifultraveler32 Wow. That's beautiful and sad at the same time.
- beckyfoster @athenasdescendant thankyou❤
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wishyouwerehere
217w
Facial hair
The only nightmare of a girl
I never knew why it keeps growing n growing
I thought why i m not like others , smooth skin ,milky white complexion .these things were like a good dream which i wasn't aware of .
I thought atleast one day someone will accept me with my flaws .
But it never happened ..i made it my strength worked of it , took therapy now i m confident enough to walk looking at someone .every problem has a solution .
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