This unsettling feeling,
My heart running .
Running away from the feelings,
The feelings I don't want to feel.
These unwanted feelings,
That make me numb.
Life feels too hard,
My breath unconscious.
Blaming myself for everything,
Feeling trash, but being rash about my own self.
Kind, but sometimes, too kind that it hurts me to my core.
Skin unclear, eyes covered with dark circles, lieing to myself.
Running away from my soul,
Too scared to reveal myself to me.
Too scared of being a bad person,
Too scared of ruining my life,
Too scared to live.