I am letting the ship sail far away,
And I got no more words to say;
I am leaving the past alone,
And moving to a new wide world;
I said my farewells and I am ready to move on,
I planned a new life for me, where I can finally spend my happy years.
I just wish that was all true,
But these are lies I keep telling myself;
Just so I feel like I belong somewhere,
Without pretending to be someone else;
I got a new house,
But how come I can't call it home?
During the day I hide in my room,
Afraid to get burned by the sun;
And when the moon finally shines,
I disguise under my sheets,
Trying to hush the loud voices inside of me.
I am trying to face my new reality,
But I keep wanting my old one back;
I am just tired of the way things are,
But I know if I jumped in a pool right now,
I would hold my breath all the way down;
I know that it is not hopeless,
It is just that my hope is hard to find;
And it is true that I live in a world,
Where I can only hear the beatings of my heart;
But there will be a time when I will finally realize,
That I have to almost lose it,
To remember what I left behind;
So I won't wait for the ending,
Until my last breath starts to leave;
Before I finally remember how much I like to breathe...