To the memory that still remained-A tale to the song Phir le aaya dil
Everytime this song plays,
It feels like a time travel capsule,
Taking me years back to the day,
When I chose to walk away,
Without even batting an eye,
When I didn't even stay to say a goodbye.
I couldn't muster up the courage,
To walk up to you and let you in,
On the choice that I had made
For weighing you in, would lead me to a decision, not in consensus with my longing then.
So placing a stone on my heart
I walked away, not paying heed to its pangs, Calling me out, towards the one for whom it was aching.
And even after all these years, those emotions still find a way to crop up from its grave where I had buried them years ago.
So here, sitting in a corner
Holding a glass of wine, playing this song on loop,
I keep asking myself,
What if, I had taken the road less traveled,
Instead of walking away, what if I had stayed and held on for a bit,
What if, I had mustered up the courage to knock on your door and bare my heart out.
What if, I had completed that conversation I hung up on, embraced that hug I never gave back,
And bid adieu to those memories that had coloured my days.
Drowning in my own grief, I still wish for a sunny day where I would cross roads with you once again.
To open my heart out and pour in,
All those feelings, I had supressed deep within,
All those unsaid words, that my lips had bit down.
I wish to write an ending to this unfinished story.
And when done may be I could nurse my broken heart lick its wounds and let it heal.
Coz now since it has told its story may be it could rest in the solace that,
Usse mayassar kare b aaye,
Wo jo adhuri si baat baaki thi,
Wo jo adhuri si yaad baaki thi.