I oscillate between my desire to stay closer to you and my guilt consciousness to stay away from you.
Even after I have lost you, I still can’t fathom that somebody would mean to you today, what I meant to you someday earlier.
You told me, that I will be ok after a while. I can reasonably say that I try my best to be ok.
Even after I know that there is no future for us,
Even after I know that there is no fault of yours,
I still hoped in some tiny corner of my heart, that a miracle may happen someday soon.
All I can say now is that all those flickering lights of hope have died forever today.