I was your only support, but you were not there,
I'm still looking for you, can't find you anywhere,
There is nothing I can do, and it hurts everywhere,
I miss you all so much, you are everywhere.
I fixed you and you broke me,
I loved you and you destroyed me,
And when I'm trying to feel better and I'm laying in bed,
I'm saying I'm lucky, that you saved myself.
I am lying to feel better, but it doesn't help.
My heart is bleeding and I need help,
I am not feeling good, I am fading,
I don't know why I am failing.
We were happy together but you wanted more,
You were looking at things and I was looking at love,
I asked you to marry me and you said yes,
I wanted to give you the whole earth,
I got all your problems on me, so you will be free,
So you won't be in pain, but only me,
I supported you and I gave you a family,
And you treated me with just cruelty,
I loved your kids more than anything,
And you stole from my life everything.
But it's fine my love, I only want you happy,
I know you don't care at all about me,
But remember, I was the only one who treated you good,
The others were abusing you inside your room,
I left everything for you, friends and family,
And came there having problems constantly,
But I never complaint, never asked for more,
I only loved you all more and more,
I fixed your life and you destroyed mine,
I feel like I'm about to lose my mind.
I gave you all my heart, my everything,
And you left without explaining anything.
And I still love you the same as before,
It never changed, no matter what happened before.
We all do mistakes, we are all humans no?
But you ego doesn't let you admit that you were wrong.
Becoming paranoid and blaming me
Makes you feel good, like it's all me.
But it's ok my love if this is good for you,
Always everything was about you.
Just remember I love you more than anything,
And I could do for you everything.
I will only ask you for one thing,
Give them a kiss and don't say a thing.
They don't have to know it is from me,
They will never see me again probably.
I know they love me like I love them too,
He said I am his dad, you were there too,
And it breaks my heart that I lost them,
I'm not even allowed to talk with them,
I know they are not my kids, I'm not their dad,
But I loved them like they are mine, is it that bad?
One day you will understand, what you've done,
And then everything will make sense, but I will be done,
You will understand how much I loved you,
And all this pain will make sense to you, like I told you,
Because when everything will make sense,
You will come to my place, you will be there,
Remember those times you were hurting me?
Remember when I was begging you to stop stabbing me?
You will come to my place and you will feel my pain,
And you will understand why I became a nade.
I exploded because the pain was too much,
And you wasn't even there to understand.
But still I love you more than anything tho,
Even if you don't even care if I live or no.