I'm leaving, for good.
The kitchen sink was always too short
My mum crooned her back for years
Washing the dirty dishes
Flushing the grime and lather
And it was fine because
That's what she always does
But it was unsettling to me
I protested, acted out, bellowed
"Everybody must do the damn chores!!"
And just like smoke from incense sticks
It wafted accross the hall only
To disappear before anyone could bask in it
And the stiffling hot air took its place
But hey, this was normal.
While all the sighs of disappointment
From the air filled up my lungs
And I grew weary tired feeling like
I was trying too hard to not fail but I was
Failing from not trying too hard
Like this was a game I could not win
Until one day...
My family decided I needed to marry
So that I'll feel good about myself
Have a family of mine own...! oohh
Like I was having a great time already
Like the flesh is to bone
They got under my skin
Convinced me that I need to marry
And reproduce mine own kin
And I believed them
It's not hard to fall for that
When day and night
You're outnumbered by people
Who want things for you that you can't have
The pressure weared me out to a different level
And I began to act "funny"
So that I'll be deemed "funny"
Like whoever, but just not me
But when I would get closer to winning their exciting game
I would snap and quit, find problems with the rules
Because the rules were indeed wrong
It was a one-size-fits-all thing
And I wasn't looking to buy anything!
Regardless of how attractive they looked
Or how cheaply they were sold!
To marry was mandatory
Or so I was told
It was all untrue, too good to be true
Like my expired lovers who came off as great but "slightly" too overpowering
Because I was a giver in relationships
And it became important to find myself
So, I decided, I needed to find me first
Maybe with the help of a friend
Maybe alone, or even with fur-company.
It doesn't matter how, because
I owe myself an apology
For letting them tell me what I want
And for letting me believe that I needed
All those things that they prescribed for me,
In short I was past due
In getting a fresh start
And that's what I'm gonna do