You and Him
Written on: 08.03.2021
It hurts, it hurts so much I wana cry.
But it was me who pushed you away.
So why am I hurting this much?
It was me who told you to leave,
Then why did I want you to stay?
I felt guilty, you are everything I ever wanted.
You were right about everything except,
You were too late, too late.
I'm already obliged to someone else.
That person has done a lot for me,
No matter how much I hurt him,
He never left.
I told him everything about me,
He loves me a lot.
I know I can't love at the same wavelength
I wanted to break it off,
But he has been trying his best to live for me,
Saving money to have me with him,
Even though his health is so poor
That he can't get a proper job.
So tell me how can I bear to abandon him?
Tell me, how can I ever leave him
How can I be this ungrateful?
That's why I have to choose between you and him,
And I chose him.
I would rather be destroyed
Waiting for him to take me out of my cage
Than give my heart to you.
He loves me too deep,
Cherishes me too much.
I can't leave him.
I'm at a difficult position,
That's why I said I never wanted a relationship.
But you didn't listen.
I am sorry I hurt you,
But I have no other choice.