Miraquill
red
I’m not the nice guy
I have fucking depression
I wanna die
But I guess no one will listen
Head fucking pounding
Visions getting clouded
Tears keep on welling
Work is overbearing
I’m not in control
Can’t get down from this pole
Raising my self up higher to the clouds
I can’t see beyond my fingers
Don’t know what’s happening outside my head
But I’m feeling the judgement pressing down
Everything is see is red
I’m selfish and mean and weak
When really I can’t find the truth I seek
Of why I can’t be the person they need
Cause all I do is wonder
Why can’t I be you
high on success not anything less
Not messing with excuses for every lesson you miss
Knowing everyday someone is proud
Not always drowning in the clouds of your own making
All I see is red
©kb19160
#ineedsleep
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kb19160
71w
Read Morei think i need a hug. @writersnetwork #writersnetwork #struggling #red #depression #therapy #help #tired #ineedsleep
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secretvials
134w
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The world is your oyster. It's up to you to find some God damn good sleep.
-funny.thoughtwala5 0
arenegaines
191w
Some loves seem to grow into you
They wont let go
They start to take over
Spreading like a cancer
You can't break away
They won't let you
Lose hold
No matter how vital
It is to your existence
You must have them
Surgically removed
At home in your bed
Can't sleep
Bloody knife
Pillow to bite
Counting sheep
No tears left to weep
©arenegaines18 0
Trapped in the stance of an endless dream, where nothing's as it seems. Reality sounds too absurd, I give up clawing my way out of this brood. Hazy clouds begin pinning my mind, weighing me down till I turn blind. For a moment the darkness tastes sweet, then I feel no heat.
©asphodelicacy15 0
narremoji_san
229w
Read More#whatizthis #amateur #none #thizizlegarbage #gotnothingtodo #emo #sad #noturningback #howiwish #maybe #terrible #wrongspellingismine #wronggrammarismine #ineedsleep #i'msosorry #poem #not
"Raise me no higher
If in my fall, I'm alone"No more words
Sometimes I'd lay my head on the bed
Closing my eyes, waiting for things to end
And as silence become louder,
so does the pain grow stronger
I've known that my days were numbered
For someone who has been living in the dark for decades
A single light could make my existence fade
Yet it was your gentle light that made me aim
Please raise me no more higher
If in my fall I shall be the same,alone
Without anyone waiting for me below
For I was once used to my place
yet now they all look strange
The space wasn't this big
The music, it's terrible.
It's hurting my ears
I've shouted so much
That my voice is now not heard
I've cried to the point that I didn't even know
That my eyes were crying for me
Even sleep has betrayed me
There's always a dream of you and me
Always.
And there's a tear that would fell
No more words and I can tell
I could but I'd rather turn naive than be the doll that I was once
When you have not yet reached my heart12 0
Body and soul
I gave you my trust
But you wanted my soul
Youstole away my body
Grafting yourself in scars on my heart
I spent so many years hurting
I felt you in my skin, turning me to rust
Feeling you riddle me with holes
You move so fast it feels like rotting
I know that soon I'll fall apart
Inside I know you're lurking
I need to tear you out of me
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©indecisive_emu_711
