#hopeless

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  • barbietocatwoman 3d

    Autobiography of a wildflower
    Love hard, live harder
    I don't remember what it is I wanted to be...
    Oh wait,
    I wanted to be a water tower at one point, but the dam broke and I floated away
    I survived the journey on a raft in the hearts of many while mine was broken like skeletal remains
    I exist in a state the likes of cryogenics,
    my heart prematurely frozen
    I make regular trips to the land of the demented
    Push them farther off the cliff, into the ocean

    I need a lobotomy
    I don't think that'll work right now
    I'm so far down the well the light range's run out
    I'm fine, I will be just...fine
    I die inside as I lie and lie and lie
    I won't be fine, I will be miserable
    I cry and cry while they ignore
    I'll live, for that is strength in itself
    Is that what they told you would happen,
    that you'll get better with positive affirmation?
    Please
    I'll exist, is what I say to me
    Because to live is to die inside
    And to die is to burn in a world, three hundred and fifty degrees


    ©barbietocatwoman

  • thalianoya 4d

    Failure

    I wanna pull all my hair out
    I wanna smash my head against a wall
    I wanna hit my face so hard I won't be able to feel it
    I wanna jump from all my failures,
    from everything that blocks my way
    All doors seem to be closed for me
    All dreams seem to be a false hope
    Such a fool for thinking everything's gonna be fine,
    when everything is just falling apart
    Seeing myself in a big city is just a lullaby
    Hearing people sing my songs is just a fantasy
    It's over,
    let's just be real
    I'm just a disappointment to anyone who thinks highly of me

    ©thalianoya

  • anonymous_forever 2w

    You turn towards God when you have no one,
    But what if even God isn't there for you,
    Who do you turn to then?

    ©anonymous_forever

  • darkvoid 3w

    What happened?

    What happened to that girl ,
    the girl with perfect grades
    the girl playing in the ocean every afternoon 
    the girl laughing with her friends
    the girl doing a photo shoot wearing her favorite dress
    What happened to that girl
    the tanned girl who was skinny like a model
    the girl who ran out of fingers to list her passions
    the girl that spent hours making desserts, locking her fingers clean of chocolate 
    the girl who read books on the beach, wind brushing against her hair
    What happened to that perfect girl? 
     What happened to daddys little girl? 
     What happened to that smart girl?
    What happened to the girl who was perfect?
    How did that girl with perfect attendance and straight Es come to be here;  half an hour late , head dropped  and feet dragging hiding from society with puffy eyes from crying. 
    Only a hoodie to hoodie to hide the body they hate so much.
    How did this happen?
    Was it the loss of innocence, 
    a realization that life is meaningless?
    Was it the shattering of childhood dreams,
    t he last ounce of hope ripped from their heart?
    How did this person end up wearing a sports bra for days on end hiding their body? 
    How did this person end up eating 2 chips for lunch because the texture of a sandwich makes their brain tear apart?
    The dry skin flaking underneath a bra stained with sweat and the constant roll of hunger remains them how their life is a mess. 
    A COMPLETE MESS
    When did their showers become hours long , sat on the floor, tears brushed away from their skin , their skin burnt bright red, the scalding water taking the pain away , the stained water rushing a wave of red down the drown?
    Every step reminds them of how their footsteps feel wrong , they don't deserve to belong on earth, every breath a breath wasted on this planet.
    What happened to the mornings of freshly cooked french toast and sunrise walks? 
    What turned the mornings  into sobbing under the covers the harsh sunlight reminding them another day will rip away the threads of hope?
    What happened to the girl that was terrified of death?, now only a ghost remains , one which begs and plans for a way to escape life.
    Only a Ghost ,   at the back of class , only words muttered are 'present sir', before they slink back underneath their hoodie , headphones in, thoughts intruding their mind.
    Every sound makes them flinch
    Every bright light is too strong 
    Everythings  too much to handle 
    Everything's too much 
    What happened to the girl laughing on the beach in the sunshine?
    Playing fetch with her dog?
    Kicking balls back and forward with her dad? 
    What turned them into the monster that ripped apart a can , using the sharp edge to feel things  ,the sharpness making everything feel better?
     How did the monster come to lie in the stormy waters , the winds and fog swilring around them , there hands around there neck , shoes soaked , taking the last breath , then hiding, waves washing over then , winds howling around them , they are at peace , motionless , until they gasp for breathe and they relaise that there is still life within them, screaming out in fury that life exists?
    What happened to the little girl whos only wish was too see a shooting star?
    Was it the fact that they learnt to hate their body?
    Was it the fact that  someone calling there name became a harsh reminder that they exsit.
    Or was it just that there  brain that invades every thought , sweeping over like a wave, trying to drown them.
    Their cries for help
    Shut down
    Silenced 
    Ignored
    Until it became a whimpering cry for hope.
    ©darkvoid

  • hopeless 3w

    Will you pick up the phone??

    He lays beside me every night
    phone in the hand every time
    he says he spends all his free time with me
    but I can never see that free in time

    should I also call  you
    will you pick up the phone
    will you talk to me too
    as if no one's around you
    will you?

    should I also call  you
    to ask how your day went
    to laugh at those funny incidents
    to caress you for all the sad ones

    should I also call you
    to share how my day went
    how my friend made that stupid joke
    how everyone laughed at my stupid joke

    should I also call you
    to share my sadness of feeling alone
    to share how even when I m in a room full of people
    I feel empty till my bones
    to say how much I miss ......laying beside you

    will you pick up the phone?


    ©hopeless

  • angelssymphony 4w

    All I Ever

    All I ever know is heartache.
    I never even get the chance.
    It slips away beneath my fingers just the like ocean's sand.
    My love runs much deeper than the ocean ever can.
    Death to my heart is brought quickly by the reaper, just as quickly as as I found a keeper that my heart demands.
    I lay around heartbroken,
    Time after time it ends,
    before it ever even had the chance to begin.
    A curse unbearable to live with.
    Why must it be this way.
    I only wish for once I could have a love that would stay.
    Sometimes it blossoms, only then to die.
    And each time it happens I die a little more inside.
    Sometimes it is only a seed that begins to sprout,
    but becomes a useless seed because it was ripped out of the ground.
    I don't know how I manage to live another round.
    I keep it on the inside, and try not to make a sound.
    People could never understand, the love my heart demands, and the one that does that sees past my facade, well it always comes right to a stop.
    Why do I always become so teased with true love.
    It's all I ever live for, it's all I ever dream of.
    The pain is like no other, it never goes away.. Like a scar it fades, but leaves memories that will always remain.
    It takes you by surprise,
    when someone captures your heart inside their eyes.
    Because they see past the surface, and the beauty that's in mind.
    No one knows the struggle that I live through in life, They think they have felt pain, but they never have had death after death of love happen time after time.
    It is hard to keep hope, And not just drift away.. These are the things that can cause a person to go insane.
    I would rather not know love at all rather than to keep feeling this way, It's like a cycle that repeats itself, Just like the sun that rises, and sets day after day.
    It shines for the meantime, but then it goes away, and leaves you in the dark until a new day. But the only difference is day or night it stays, And causes my heart more, and more dismay.
    ©angelssymphony

  • thalianoya 4w

    Vainness

    walking through door to door,
    like a ghost searching for never exist answers

    so close to fall on the cold floor

    too strong to die, yet too weak to live

    spinning around under the crying sky,
    as it wash all of my sins

    no soul, no misery
    my body turns to mystery

    ©thalianoya

  • erikarr 5w

    He’s For Her

    There was a man I once knew,
    He was a fine guy and captivating.
    He told me he likes me, his feelings grew,
    In disbelief, my mind started navigating.

    All I felt towards him was platonic,
    But later on my feelings grew fonder.
    When that happened his love disappeared,
    And I found out his heart was for another.


    ©erikarr
    RUHKSA

  • 11amthoughts 5w

    It was just the scare

    It was just the scare
    The pregnancy scare

    I was crying the whole night
    Wondering about the consequences
    and the aftermath
    It was just the scare
    The pregnancy scare

    I was clueless
    It was my first time
    Trusting the boy with my first
    When I called the boy
    With hope in my heart and
    fear in the eyes
    It was scare
    Just the pregnancy scare

    Are you sure?
    'Cause you are such a slut
    Opening your legs for God's knows who
    It was scare
    Just the pregnant scare

    The night was dark and unnerving
    I look at the moon through the rusted windows reciting those words inside my head
    It was scare
    Just the pregnancy scare

    I wrapped my arms around the abdomen
    Trying to tie all the loose hope
    Staring at the unmade bed
    Cursing my life and the supreme
    Wondering if I will be happy again
    It was scare
    Just the pregnancy scare

    I confided in one of my best friends
    she hugged me close
    And whispered in my ears
    Don't be scared darling
    It's not the first nor the last
    It's a manuscript of existence
    And then I let my tears flow
    Maybe it's not as bad
    Maybe I will get through
    Maybe I am strong
    Like everyone before
    But that's all it was
    scare
    Just the pregnancy scare
    ©11amthoughts

  • prettygurl925 6w

    Stop Trying

    Why can’t I just STOP TRYING?!?!
    STOP TRYING to make u care about me the way you cared/care for others!!

  • marianotsaint 7w

    Dear God,

    Are you not listening to the cries of your creation?
    Can you not see the devastation that's rattling the world today?
    The dead burned and buried like cattle herds.
    Without a moment given to loved once to celebrate their life and mourn for their loss.

    Are we punished for all our atrocious acts?
    Why are the innocent suffering at the sinner's expense?
    How long will you hold your silence?
    How long will you turn away your gaze from us?

    Save us with your mighty hand.
    Pull us away from this dread.
    Don't let us wither away before our time.
    Is this the beginning of the end?
    ©marianotsaint

  • invictuz 7w

    She was beaten and broken.
    She broke everything she touched.
    Only it was her soul that felt her touch.
    ©invictuz

  • nibiran_saikia 7w

    Some questions to remain unanswered!

    How someone who love you could see you in pain? How someone who love you could do things that hurt you the most? How someone who love you could be dishonest with you? How could they forget everything you did for them? How could they give you the cold shoulder?


    ~~~nibi

  • anotherstardust 9w

    You know the sad part about falling for "what's on the inside" is that sometimes people change. Changes happen internally.

    Now you're left with a body you're not in love with.
    How do you confess that ?

    ©anotherstardust

  • anotherstardust 9w

    You told her she wasn't desirable enough.
    She starved herself and maybe lost a little weight.
    But you have no idea what you lost.

    You lost how carelessly she slept beside you without worrying how her body looked when she wasn't paying attention.
    You lost the way she used to giggle telling you she still wanted to eat more.
    You lost her vulnerability.

    Oh and yes
    Congrats on that "Desirable Woman" !

    ©anotherstardust

  • thefangirl 9w

    Can't

    It is really hard to believe
    that the person
    who always gave
    a smile on our face
    At the very moment
    you think of them,
    The one who always
    engaged in funny conversations
    and endless loud laughs
    committed suicide
    A morning.
    ©thefangirl

  • anotherstardust 9w

    Sometimes,
    I am just waiting.
    But I don't know what for
    I guess,
    It just gives me hope...

    ©anotherstardust

  • shooky_scribbles 10w

    I m not able to hope for...
    Because life seems unpredictable...
    ©shooky_scribbles

  • lalitha_l2 11w

    Oh my dark sky,
    Can't live without me, one night??
    Whether you and me are the only ones,
    Waiting with hope, for beauty of life??
    ©lalitha_l2

  • sillysadar 11w

    Hope

    Hope is like a prison
    Hope is like holding on a tin thread that's gonna break anytime soon

    Hopelessness is like sitting in despair
    Held hostage by sadness and,
    Bound in chains of grief

    So shall we live hopefully or hopelessly?
    Shall we have hope or be hopeless?
    ©sadar_ammar