You choose to remain a victim because it gives you an excuse to treat others unkindly
You consistently rebuke offers to heal and grow, because blaming your childhood serves you so well
You thrive on the solace from others who sympathise with you and pity your poor soul, forgiving your every trespass against souls they have never met
You refuse to love yourself and are therefore incapable of giving it freely to those who love you... instead you find ways to make them feel unworthy
You run away from anyone that sees your tricks, like a coward, destroying what you can of them before you leave
You blame your past but you could easily grow up and accept that you have a choice to show up better, to be human, to be kind
I'm sorry for the trauma of your past. Stop the cycle. Grow up.