Miraquill
It is not you, It is me!
I know this feeling
I have been here before
I know exactly what this means
I have heard this before
You say it soo sweetly
As if you don't know what it means
You try to sugar coat it
As if your words aren't the bitter truth
I can't believe I'm here again
I can't believe I let this happen yet again
I can't believe how naive I've been
I can't help but belive I'm not enough
You say I'm sweet but you don't like sweets
You say that I'm caring but you want to be alone
You say that I'm loyal but you don't want to settle
You say you dream of us but you hate being a dreamer
Why? How? Where? What?
Only musings of all the rings wrong
Because as this familiar feeling of deep pain settles in my chest;
I can't help but believe
I must be wrong
I must be not worth it
I must be hopeless
I must be pointless
I must be unlovable
©hedwigs_mom
#fuckedup
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hedwigs_mom
2d
6 1
Life
Sometimes I just lie on my bed,
Staring at the ceiling,
Lost and wondering,
If this life is even worth living.
©devilsangelforeverPhoto By Zukiman Mohamad on Unsplash7 0
aishwariya_
5w
Nhi ho tum..
Jab zarurt hai tumari..nhi ho tum
Jo lagta tha tum ho...wo nhi ho tum
Laga tha bina bole b smjhoge tum...
Bolne k bad b nhi smjte ho tum
Laga tha koi mil gaya hai
Tumse milke hi tume kho diya hai...
Bate tum meri sun na sako..
Shikhayate tum meri seh na sako
Chup rahu toh kehte ho bolo..
Bolne lagu toh bolte ho q bol rahi ho
Nhi hu me wo jo tum chahte ho...
Ye chidiya pinjre se udd gayi hai
Wapas pinjre ka darwaza use q dikhate ho
Jab chahiye tum ...nhi ho tum
Jaise chahiye Tum ho...wo nhi ho tum
Jag kya soche tume Parva hai..
Me kya sochu yaha tum laparva ho
Tum sath ho par nhi ho
Tum paas ho par nhi ho
Tum khush ho par me nhi hu
Tum khaffa ho par me nhi hu
Tum gussa ho par me nhi hu
Tum anjan ho par me nhi hu
Tum ho kar b yaha...afsos sath nhi ho
Ye chidiya pinjre k andar b akeli thi...
Pinjre k Bahar b akeli hai..
Afsos Tum ho kar b yaha
Sath nhi ho humare
©aishwariya_4 0
Pushing
Ghosting everyone and wondering why doesn't people care about me or text me is just fucking another level insanity
©anjPhoto By Megha Ajith on Unsplash9 0
Yeah it was easy to move on....but unfortunately I died while moving through...
I never had a regret of my decisions no matter good or bad they went but this is the first time
You made me regret for falling in love with you
It left me shattered
I am alive but I am no more alive
I smile but no matter how hard I try I can't be happy
It's like I am walking but I don't feel that ground anyless
I might talk to few people but I just cannot trust anyone anymore
Yes I might get full stomach everytime I eat but still I am always hungry
Yes I am breathing but I am dead from inside
I got fucking hurt but I didn't even made a sound of it
I am killing myself from inside everyday
You wanna know how bad it went for me ....
I craved for you but now I don't want you...
This insane anxiety is like a parasite inside of me growing every second I can't even sleep for an hour now without a thought spinning in my head about you...
I cannot make decisions anymore because everytime I think about something it gets overwhelmed with your thought...
Yeah it was easy to move on....but unfortunately I died while moving through...
Now it's not just my brain that reacts to your thoughts but also my body that every inch of it aches with an essence of your absence...
I am not aware of what I am anymore or what will be the leading consequences of all these sublime reactions been charged up....
Because a part of you will never leave me alone....Can also be the reason for why I can't let you go off me...
Just so can't deny that your presence was my Pride....
©stellaire_mystique18 0 2
bclark2681
35w
Committed
I know,
I think,
That I'm in love
With the ache
But I believe
That I'm really
Just engaged
To the thought
Of loving myself
In a fucked way
©bclark2681Photo By Rafael Garcin on Unsplash8 0
Once there was a time
Where we couldn’t think to leave our friendship
And now its been couple of years we haven’t spoke yet.
It hurts!
©poem_is_an_emotion5 0
You
Find what you love,
And let it kill you !18 2 1
fatal_fatalist
50w
Read MoreDo you really wanna fight?
As in real fight?
Don't worry I'll give you reasons
Why to fight null and void?
Remember when I told you
About the stars?
When I smiled, the time you laughed-
The way I told you about my scars?
Remember the time I went on my knees?
To tell you what you mean to me!
Think about the things I've said or done!
Me being 9-days fast for the sake of us,
Remember I told you- I wanna be forever;
I mean it seriously, not being clever
Just tell me what do you really want?
Watching me dying on my death bed?
Is that what you really crave for
It was your fucking decision to get seperated
Don't blame me-
Before I could tell you things-
you asked me to leave;
Do you know I told my dad bout you the very day
He said, 'you found him by God's grace'
I smiled while my tears couldn't stop
I said, 'he has to be away, to just get me in his arms'
Don't you think you need to see
The other person is really dying,
And not for sympathy
Chuck it up, I don't wanna talk-
You too made me suffer, fuck it! It pains alot-
I got it, it's okay;
Just take care of yourself-
You may have trimmed your beards,
But my nails won't fade-
I was questioned for everything I ever did,
You told me to finally live;
You thaught me how to finally smile,
And then you took it with your eyes
Chuck it up man, I don't wanna cry
Uk after you, I texted bhai
'When I called you baby' he questioned me
'Why?' it was fuck hard
I didn't had words to surpass
No shoulder to cry on, its an immortal loss
Uk I was all inn: in this thing
Either to die or to live.
No friends no family-
I'm in my graveyard, begging to be happy
It's okay I don't deserve love
I understand
But 'sometimes' your wounds are healed
By the same person, who gave you them-
Btw I have to tell you,
I've started exercising, I won't be skinny anymore
So don't laugh at me,
I'm taking meds on time
And fuck the anxiety pills-
Back to the very place I was-
A dark room with a broken heart
Uk I've decided to chopp my hairs,
Uk I get irritated whenever, I had to put them back behind my ears
Uk I'm writing a book on us
Some memories un-finished
With some twists and turns
Tbh I'm fucked up-
Love always hurts and this is confirm
Don't worry baby,
I'll be fine soon, maybe-
And even if I don't be,
I won't bother you with my feelings
Ik there's a phase of everything
But day2 of every month,
Would make me cry like anything
Baby this would be the last time
I'm writing it to you,
'Please save me else I'll be doomed'
Don't worry I'll not text anymore
Use social things and kindly do not touch
ALCOHOL
There's something more I'll tell you soon
The songs you used to send me, aren't hymns
They're powerful
I'll be texting you on 2
Not of this month ofc, maybe of 22
I'll give you a proper time
Promise I won't ruin things
Take handful of time and kindly be alright!!!
@mirakee @writersnetwork
#love #death #life #you #fuckedup #lovedemandssacrifiseRemember?
(caption says it all)
©fatal_fatalist6 1
The problem with having mental illnesses since being a child is that your whole identity grew around them and you have no idea who you really are.
14 6 1
You will never get to know,
Untill you are completely fucked up!!!
©shuffler13 1
_petricore_tu
78w
I should have walked away the first time you hurt me.
©_petricore_tu8 0 1
Lies kill trust from beautiful hearts.
11 3 2
- _jahan__ ❄️❄️❄️❤️❤️
- _petricore_tu @_jahanvi_mishra its unwantedly very true.. But why! ..
- _jahan__ @_petricore_tu that's because you are beautiful but this world ain't ❤️
The only thing CONSISTENT in this world,
is INCONSISTENCY......!!!
©the_nishant13 0
We all are confined in desire
of infinite loop;
Whomesoever fulfill it,
We get attracted towards them...!!
©the_nishant16 0 2
The Human
Mythology says there are 84 lakh yonis and we have to go through all of them before we get the human form.
Human is the best creation of the creator. The smartest of all organisms. And here we are as a fucked up civilization. Lost in our idea of everything. Unable to accept, unable to allow. Still stuck to past. Feeling happy over same events, crying over same wounds. Making our own perception about everything, without knowing. We think that we are answerable to no one. We think that everything works as per our plans. We manipulate, we hate, we lie, we keep secrets and yet call our selves intellectuals. Conscience is a dangerous thing. Thinking is dangerous ability. Words are dangerous weapons. Humans are the most dangerous creatures. A snake hiss and bite. A lion hunt and kill.
But we have forgotten that we are humans. Its been a long time and we have been a lot of things. I think its time for us to be human again.
©sagarsabharwal5 0
ritik_sharma
102w
Broken Heart
For the first time I knew she would cheat me, she thought I was a regular guy who would never mind her. But, she didn't knew how possessive I was for her. I saw that images and my heart broke into pieces she swore me that she will not cheat me. She again cheated me within a week, week after week she did the same and my heart broke into small tiny peaces. Why somebody would do this to a person who is giving her so much love, affection and care?
©ritik_sharma7 1
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_husk_
108w
An explosive reaction is what all they need as a satisfactory tool, when you're fucked up.
As if, fake it up and screw them up.
©_husk_8 0
Childish Love Like I Used To Have
Ex-lovers of my past, How dare you you break my heart one to many times. Because when I finally found her I was too fucked up for her, and lets be honest if yall hadn't fucked me up she would still be way too good for me! Love you fragile bitch give me back what once was mine. I want that childish love with that no conditions heart I had back in middle school. so full of life and so full of heart it didnt take me much to fall in love. I want that feeling back more than anything. the feeling of before I knew how fucked up the world is.
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deependra_bhatt
115w
Read MoreSpeak, weep and believe not everything gonna be yours...
@mirakee, @writersnetwork
#depression, #writersnetwork, #fuckedupSetting sun
Cold dusk
And faithless heart
That's the world I have...
-Deependra Bhatt
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