Emotional flashbacks are a type of flashback in C-PTSD that happens when your body releases memories of trauma, but your mind- the visual aspect that would make the memory complete- remains disconnected. You may feel pressure in parts of your body but not know why, you may have emotions bubble up that feel ancient and lost and take over you entirely, with no memories attached. You can have only visual flashbacks or only emotional flashbacks, or both- depending on how deeply you repressed something in childhood. This means that, it is possible to have just a visual flashback with no emotion or real understanding of it; and it is also possible, for just your body to start feeling the abuse again, with no memories as to where it's coming from. The latter is what I suffer from nearly every day. The body remembers what the mind is not ready to see. Emotional flashbacks are terrifying and exhausting, and they're still only half the story... but I think I'm starting to remember more and more... #pod#poem#trauma#cptsd#abuse#dissociation#flashback#thoughts@miraquill@writersnetwork@writersbay
Memories of you sail through my heart Memory lane, flashbacks, mental scars. A blunt a day dull my memory of you each day Lighted pain, smokey fragrance, Inhaling your presence warms the cold blood that runs through my vain. Our puff of happy ending sails through the silent night of the worlds reality.
Starting it with the restitution of phone calls , 2020 was a desired start for the fractured land of distinguished #Kashmir. We , the inhabitants, were still copying dravid and pujara.. defending the opening to make this inning a better one, although we never hope for a lead. Then the widespread buzz around was changing VPNs, (hacking ka gunah bas reh gaya tha humse..wo b kara liya). Getting a new vpn was the ardent desire of #kashmiris. We were never demanding ...no roti , kapda , makan, no ...bijli , pani , sadak..bas vpn chahiye tha.. although a handful of us.. were knowing it's full form , untill it came a question ina competitive exam.. actually unka maqsad bi yahi tha..shayad hum galti se ..kisi naye vpn ka naam bata den... #kashmiri's afterall.
Who knows the next shot of Almighty , he sweeped it from #wuhan to bewakufon ka mulk , and we titled it #corona. or #COVID19. Lockdowns took us to a new tour of life.. and Kashmiris were tweeting day - night , on their traditional #twitter - "Waane_pend". Dopnas .."Ade chukh corona ...be kithkenh mane". ( Mnz... Corona honge tum wuhan ke...hum ni mante yahan). We #Kashmiris were living with a hope, that nothing will strike us... (Tute hue ko kon todta hai #Aug.2019). Later to some extent we agreed that corona exists..but gaerat ki baat thi ...to thoda defend b karna pada.. Temi wonus...aes..modiyin chal.(#modi ki chal).
This deadly corona corroded the relationships ...but you know ..there is some good in every bad ..It is still with us ..and the year is no more.....2020 was just a number , we used to calculate time... Nature's process will be same...we ll be still revolving the sun and spinning with earth..but we have to deal differently, and act in a new fashion.
Yet this morning, I feel an aroma of expectations, some want to be rich, some want to be healthy , some will get married , some need air #delhi, some still need food , some producers demand their rights , and some hypocrites need understanding. At the end of this fresh inning , again we will look for the same...#happiness . Man is greedy, always winning , and beginning again.
To conclude this.. i will say...
The game is not over till your last inning. Everyday here, is a new beginning.
heartfelt_renditions2020 was really only a number but I think it had some 'khabasat' in it... Jaate jaate it took my mother but I hope things do get better for everyone Inn Sha Allah SWT, especially for Kashmiri people, Aameen Ya Rabb
May be ..it had some ..as.it also took away some of my dear ones also ..and restricted me to bed for nearly a month .. but then i think...ye Allah ne likha tha 2020 koi aisa hi ..ki hum usko is sal mei zyada kren... that's what we do in difficult times. To ismei 2020 ko ek bura sal qara dena isn't justice.
And yes...it was different for everyone... that's what i wrote in the very first line... Of caption
heartfelt_renditions@unsaid I guess you're right about calling it bad unjust... We have grown used to putting it all on the year like the non-believers, although I never used to do that it came involuntarily to me this once ☹️
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