Feeling Ill
Watch your back,
Watch your hands,
Your wrists and joints.
Watch them grow old
And cold.
Watch them stiffen, in their place.
Knees forget how to bend.
Hands shake.
Shoulders keep you awake.
Ankles cry.
Keeping your mind alive.
No sleep.
A breaking back,
With every seat.
You wonder, have you reached ninety-three?
With tears to speak,
And a break needed every few feet?
©jadeivy
#fibromyalgia
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jadeivy 33w
Fibromyalgia
©jadeivy
Bones of stone,
Skin of paper,
Eyes of jelly,
Teeth of sand,
Nails of glass,
Hair of straw.
Wobble around,
Try to make it to town,
Stumble and fall,
To the Earth
you are bound.
Knees are down,
Bones break skin,
Muscles snap in place,
Tears run down your face. -
jodi_writes 35w
©jodi_writes
©jeanniesdaughter
@jodi_writes
#selflove
#journey
#authentic
#doubts
#cleanse
#pain
#love
#healing
#itsoknottobeok
#mentalillness
#physicalillness
#fibromyalgia
#arthritis
#degenerativediscdisease
#depression
#anxiety
#ptsd
#struggle
#demons
#madness
#poetry
#poetrycommunity
#commumityofpoets
#poet
#words
#writingcommunity
#writingcommunityofinstagram
#writersofinstagram
#mirakewriters
#instagramwriters
#writingismyfreedom
#inlovewithwords
#writingmypainaway
#writing
#heartache
#misunderstoodLet the rain cleanse the tears
Let the lightning strike
Let the thunder roar
Allow the moon to see your face
Allow the sun to warm your soul
Release the toxins which take your energy
Release the toxins which burn your heart
Embrace the strength you are made of
Embrace the love found within
Allow the pain to teach
Allow the pain to heal
Erase regrets
Erase failures
Erase doubts
Allow yourself to love yourself authentically
You are worth the journey home
©jodi_writes -
jodi_writes 35w
©jodi_writes
©jeanniesdaughter
@jodi_writes
#adayinthelifeofme
#itsoknottobeok
#mentalillness
#physicalillness
#fibromyalgia
#arthritis
#degenerativediscdisease
#depression
#anxiety
#ptsd
#struggle
#demons
#madness
#poetry
#poetrycommunity
#commumityofpoets
#poet
#words
#writingcommunity
#writingcommunityofinstagram
#writersofinstagram
#mirakewriters
#instagramwriters
#writingismyfreedom
#inlovewithwords
#writingmypainaway
#writing
#heartache
#misunderstoodhead aching from unwanted thoughts
heart broken from tragic memories
strength is at it's lowest
♀️ confusion overrides clarity
lucid dreams instead of peaceful sleep
eyes wide open to reality
voices screaming within my unconscious
sinking in the quicksand of the past
A Day in the Life of Me
©jodi_writes -
jodi_writes 35w
©jodi_writes
©jeanniesdaughter
@jodi_writes
#mentalillness
#narcissist
#itsoknottobeok
#mentalillness
#physicalillness
#fibromyalgia
#arthritis
#degenerativediscdisease
#depression
#anxiety
#ptsd
#struggle
#demons
#madness
#poetry
#poetrycommunity
#commumityofpoets
#poet
#words
#writingcommunity
#writingcommunityofinstagram
#writersofinstagram
#mirakewriters
#instagramwriters
#writingismyfreedom
#inlovewithwords
#writingmypainaway
#writing
#heartache
#misunderstoodShe knew he was a narcissist but what was she? Is there a mental illness for someone who keeps returning to the narcissist knowing he is a narcissist? An answer she is reluctant to
know.
©jodi_writes -
jodi_writes 35w
©jodi_writes
©jeanniesdaughter
@jodi_writes
#madness
#itsoknottobeok
#mentalillness
#physicalillness
#fibromyalgia
#arthritis
#degenerativediscdisease
#depression
#anxiety
#ptsd
#struggle
#demons
#madness
#poetry
#poetrycommunity
#commumityofpoets
#poet
#words
#writingcommunity
#writingcommunityofinstagram
#writersofinstagram
#mirakewriters
#instagramwriters
#writingismyfreedom
#inlovewithwords
#writingmypainaway
#writing
#heartache
#misunderstoodWaiting for the lightning to spark some kind of emotion. A dull ache corrupts the once balanced heart. Slowly falling into the abyss and it's madness. A favorite place to exist. Within the madness lies a peace. A calm within the storm.
A dangerous place to stay.
©jodi_writes -
jodi_writes 36w
©jodi_writes
©jeanniesdaughter
@jodi_writes
#itsoknottobeok
#mentalillness
#physicalillness
#fibromyalgia
#arthritis
#degenerativediscdisease
#depression
#anxiety
#ptsd
#struggle
#demons
#madness
#poetry
#poetrycommunity
#commumityofpoets
#poet
#words
#writingcommunity
#writingcommunityofinstagram
#writersofinstagram
#mirakewriters
#instagramwriters
#writingismyfreedom
#inlovewithwords
#writingmypainaway
#writing
#heartache
#misunderstoodOnce upon a time there was a girl who was broken inside. Not living. Just breathing. Just biding time.
Then she met him. He gave her life. He gave her a new way to feel inside. The mirror became her friend. Her pain subsided. She saw herself in a new light. She liked the new her. She felt strong again. She found her power.
He helped her to escape into his world. It was scary but she didn't fear. She stepped into his image pushing everything she believed in aside.
And time went by.
Last page in their book of life she fell over the edge and he let her heart die.
Once upon a time there was a girl
©jodi_writes -
jodi_writes 36w
©jodi_writes
©jeanniesdaughter
@jodi_writes
#itsoknottobeok
#mentalillness
#physicalillness
#fibromyalgia
#arthritis
#degenerativediscdisease
#depression
#anxiety
#ptsd
#struggle
#demons
#madness
#poetry
#poetrycommunity
#commumityofpoets
#poet
#words
#writingcommunity
#writingcommunityofinstagram
#writersofinstagram
#mirakewriters
#instagramwriters
#writingismyfreedom
#inlovewithwords
#writingmypainaway
#writing
#heartache
#misunderstoodround and white
easy to digest
sharp and silver
give the pain a rest
same path
same plunging hill
same mountain top
1 step, 2 step, fall
©jodi_writes -
jodi_writes 36w
©jodi_writes
©jeanniesdaughter
@jodi_writes
#itsoknottobeok
#mentalillness
#physicalillness
#fibromyalgia
#arthritis
#degenerativediscdisease
#depression
#anxiety
#ptsd
#struggle
#demons
#madness
#poetry
#poetrycommunity
#commumityofpoets
#poet
#words
#writingcommunity
#writingcommunityofinstagram
#writersofinstagram
#mirakewriters
#instagramwriters
#writingismyfreedom
#inlovewithwords
#writingmypainaway
#writing
#heartache
#misunderstoodDon't think
Keep your mind busy
Don't feel
Turn your heart to stone
Don't cry
It's all in vain
Don't breathe
©jodi_writes -
jodi_writes 36w
©jodi_writes
©jeanniesdaughter
@jodi_writes
#missmymother
#itsoknottobeok
#mentalillness
#physicalillness
#fibromyalgia
#arthritis
#degenerativediscdisease
#depression
#anxiety
#ptsd
#struggle
#demons
#madness
#poetry
#poetrycommunity
#commumityofpoets
#poet
#words
#writingcommunity
#writingcommunityofinstagram
#writersofinstagram
#mirakewriters
#instagramwriters
#writingismyfreedom
#inlovewithwords
#writingmypainaway
#writing
#heartache
#misunderstoodalmost 4 months
©jodi_writes -
jodi_writes 36w
©jodi_writes
©jeanniesdaughter
@jodi_writes
#myworld
#itsoknottobeok
#mentalillness
#physicalillness
#fibromyalgia
#arthritis
#degenerativediscdisease
#depression
#anxiety
#ptsd
#struggle
#demons
#madness
#poetry
#poetrycommunity
#commumityofpoets
#poet
#words
#writingcommunity
#writingcommunityofinstagram
#writersofinstagram
#mirakewriters
#instagramwriters
#writingismyfreedom
#inlovewithwords
#writingmypainaway
#writing
#heartache
#misunderstoodYou once told me that you don't live in my world but I live in yours. I didn't understand what you meant.
Now I understand
I live in my world
A world you refuse to see
A world you would never understand
My world is priceless
©jodi_writes -
jodi_writes 36w
©jodi_writes
©jeanniesdaughter
@jodi_writes
#wordsdontlie
#itsoknottobeok
#mentalillness
#physicalillness
#fibromyalgia
#arthritis
#degenerativediscdisease
#depression
#anxiety
#ptsd
#struggle
#demons
#madness
#poetry
#poetrycommunity
#commumityofpoets
#poet
#words
#writingcommunity
#writingcommunityofinstagram
#writersofinstagram
#mirakewriters
#instagramwriters
#writingismyfreedom
#inlovewithwords
#writingmypainaway
#writing
#heartache
#misunderstoodWords don't lie
People do
If lies could count as dollar bills
We all would be rich
©jodi_writes -
jodi_writes 36w
©jodi_writes
©jeanniesdaughter
@jodi_writes
#itsoknottobeok
#mentalillness
#physicalillness
#fibromyalgia
#arthritis
#degenerativediscdisease
#depression
#anxiety
#ptsd
#struggle
#demons
#madness
#poetry
#poetrycommunity
#commumityofpoets
#poet
#words
#writingcommunity
#writingcommunityofinstagram
#writersofinstagram
#mirakewriters
#instagramwriters
#writingismyfreedom
#inlovewithwords
#writingmypainaway
#writing
#heartache
#misunderstoodI sit back and view my life as scenes of a movie where I can't remember the title. There is no editing. Every emotion, every feeling and every
word spoken comes from a place which can't be replayed or revised. The direction at times can be confusing but the moral of the story can never be rewritten. My heart is the writer that tells the story of a girl who was lost but is gradually finding her way back to herself. There is no end. No final scene. It's a never-ending story.
©jodi_writes -
jodi_writes 36w
©jodi_writes
©jeanniesdaughter
@jodi_writes
#journey
#itsoknottobeok
#mentalillness
#physicalillness
#fibromyalgia
#arthritis
#degenerativediscdisease
#depression
#anxiety
#ptsd
#struggle
#demons
#madness
#poetry
#poetrycommunity
#commumityofpoets
#poet
#words
#writingcommunity
#writingcommunityofinstagram
#writersofinstagram
#mirakewriters
#instagramwriters
#writingismyfreedom
#inlovewithwords
#writingmypainaway
#writing
#heartache
#misunderstoodEven though I am lost within myself right now
I know this is necessary in my journey of me
©jodi_writes -
jodi_writes 36w
©jodi_writes
©jeanniesdaughter
@jodi_writes
#memories
#itsoknottobeok
#mentalillness
#physicalillness
#fibromyalgia
#arthritis
#degenerativediscdisease
#depression
#anxiety
#ptsd
#struggle
#demons
#madness
#poetry
#poetrycommunity
#commumityofpoets
#poet
#words
#writingcommunity
#writingcommunityofinstagram
#writersofinstagram
#mirakewriters
#instagramwriters
#writingismyfreedom
#inlovewithwords
#writingmypainaway
#writing
#heartache
#misunderstoodFloating on memory to good to forget and to painful to remember
©jodi_writes -
jodi_writes 36w
©jodi_writes
©jeanniesdaughter
@jodi_writes
#thepowerofwords
#itsoknottobeok
#mentalillness
#physicalillness
#fibromyalgia
#arthritis
#degenerativediscdisease
#depression
#anxiety
#ptsd
#struggle
#demons
#madness
#poetry
#poetrycommunity
#commumityofpoets
#poet
#words
#writingcommunity
#writingcommunityofinstagram
#writersofinstagram
#mirakewriters
#instagramwriters
#writingismyfreedom
#inlovewithwords
#writingmypainaway
#writing
#heartache
#misunderstoodWords are eternal. They have a power all their own. A cruel and demeaning word/sentence will enter our mind as a virus which eats away at our ability to process self love. The damage is horrific. It changes how we define ourselves. It changes how we see and feel love. It will confuse the mind and paints a picture of distrust. It is painful. It causes us to bleed internally and externally. The scars are deep rooted. The pain can be excruciating.
Choose your words wisely. It can save or destroy a heart.
©jodi_writes -
jodi_writes 37w
©jodi_writes
©jeanniesdaughter
@jodi_writes
#itsoknottobeok
#mentalillness
#physicalillness
#fibromyalgia
#arthritis
#degenerativediscdisease
#depression
#anxiety
#ptsd
#struggle
#demons
#madness
#poetry
#poetrycommunity
#commumityofpoets
#poet
#words
#writingcommunity
#writingcommunityofinstagram
#writersofinstagram
#mirakewriters
#instagramwriters
#writingismyfreedom
#inlovewithwords
#writingmypainaway
#writing
#heartache
#misunderstoodshe left his world and found her own
©jodi_writes -
jodi_writes 37w
©jodi_writes
©jeanniesdaughter
@jodi_writes
#indifference
#itsoknottobeok
#mentalillness
#physicalillness
#fibromyalgia
#arthritis
#degenerativediscdisease
#depression
#anxiety
#ptsd
#struggle
#demons
#madness
#poetry
#poetrycommunity
#commumityofpoets
#poet
#words
#writingcommunity
#writingcommunityofinstagram
#writersofinstagram
#mirakewriters
#instagramwriters
#writingismyfreedom
#inlovewithwords
#writingmypainaway
#writing
#heartache
#misunderstoodIf they can brush you off with indifference then they aren't deserving of your worth.
©jodi_writes -
jodi_writes 37w
©jodi_writes
©jeanniesdaughter
@jodi_writes
#confusion
#itsoknottobeok
#mentalillness
#physicalillness
#fibromyalgia
#arthritis
#degenerativediscdisease
#depression
#anxiety
#ptsd
#struggle
#demons
#madness
#poetry
#poetrycommunity
#commumityofpoets
#poet
#words
#writingcommunity
#writingcommunityofinstagram
#writersofinstagram
#mirakewriters
#instagramwriters
#writingismyfreedom
#inlovewithwords
#writingmypainaway
#writing
#heartache
#misunderstoodThere are times when my head is filled with a hazy sky. So much to separate from the necessary to the damage feelings. I want to write it all down but it seems there is an invisible lock which doesn't always allow me to enter the eye of the hurricane which resembles my brain. So I write about what I can't write about.
Confusion follows me in my deepest thoughts.
©jodi_writes -
jodi_writes 37w
©jodi_writes
©jeanniesdaughter
@jodi_writes
#adaughterssorrow
#missmymother
#mymothersdaughter
#itsoknottobeok
#mentalillness
#physicalillness
#fibromyalgia
#arthritis
#degenerativediscdisease
#depression
#anxiety
#ptsd
#struggle
#demons
#madness
#poetry
#poetrycommunity
#commumityofpoets
#poet
#words
#writingcommunity
#writingcommunityofinstagram
#writersofinstagram
#mirakewriters
#instagramwriters
#writingismyfreedom
#inlovewithwords
#writingmypainaway
#writing
#heartache
#misunderstoodThe last thing she asked from me I wasn't able to give her. This is my cross that I will carry for the rest of my life. As it should be.
©jodi_writes
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