I'm so sad right now. I wish there's someone I can talk to but, there's no one. Nobody understands me. No body wants to. Sometimes, I feel so weak and incapable but I know one thing for sure... That I'm not a failure. And if I am, I'm not a total failure.
Dad complains, mum supports him. All my siblings are laughing at me, even our neighbors. They mock my writings and body shape and skin colour. How my hair grow and even how I walk and talk. Deep inside, I know I'm not perfect and I can never be. At 23, I don't even have a boyfriend like my mates do. Oh God... Provide me someone from you. Someone understanding, who would make my world, paradise. I'm so tired of home. Most times, I get insulted for things I didn't even do or things that aren't even my fault. But I take all the blame, bold chested. Yet, I'm being called lazy, Stupid, crazy, dull. This happens within me. Only me know what exactly I feel. How painful it is right now, even though it's unbearable.
It's so painful how I get rejected every single time. At home and in relationships. I don't have second chances. I'm always the rejected one... the last. The one left with tears in her eyes and knife in her heart. I'm always the one, tagged for failure even though I do all in my power to satisfy them. They don't recognize it. I'm being scolled for writing and restricted from visiting friends.
I'm so tired of me, myself and I right now. I might just kill these three with one stone so it would be a short, tragedic story. At least, everyone would be satisfied. They'd forget me in no time and let me would move on. And who knows? This might be my last night on earth.
alisdaire_ocaoimphWhat a heart felt write..i felt tears come to my eyes....the truth is my friend you are more than any perceive...your writes are wonderful...i know its hard, but one cannot allow the world and those in it to direct ones will or being. God has a plan and a direction for you..by whatever religious path you may follow just understand that this life..even with its woes and strife has meaning...destiny..fate..its Gofs will that we see and experience life in particular ways...ot allows us like a phoenix reborn in the flame...to become something greater and more important...should you ever need someone to talk to as a friend..you can always hit me up on instagram...my profile has my account there.....
madinah_writesAwwwwn... This really mean a lot, thank you. I wrote this last night while crying behind closed doors. I feel at ease whenever I write down my worries. It somehow fades away. I'd love to be your friend too. I'll hit you up, I'm Madeenah Junaid.✨✨✨
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