Stop negotiating with my scars. I know it all carried inside the heart, taken place from the heart. Wanted a literal change externally and internally. Things that we are authorized to bring a new way to feel anything with new glee and spark. I couldn't repeat through what I went through such kind of horrible thoughts that once remain inside without sharing. To whom it could be shared manipulated to the down direction. A new courage is required to start a new approach. The strategy to minds to read is the same still, incomprehensive; so why is there need to scratch the scars from the start to the death.
In between illusion, passive, loneliness, and lack of speaking had been existed. We couldn't fight against manipulators who are considered as the innocent but destroyed everything unknowingly. Ugh, we love to laugh over the mistakes a lot, right; especially at the time of need we love to be offended instead knowing the inner conflicts of others with their mind. Because we lived differently rather their living that we gave them easier than us.
Finding positivity to have scars that needed the resolutions to be vanished for beautiful future and present. But not understanding the panic games inside a mind of a person, the innocent manipulators blames others back to see them flourishing oneself without feeling guilty because they sacrificed for them and we have no right to know what kind of real peace is needed. Doing materialistic approaches make us insane mentally and stuck back to an useless hope to see somebody understand us.
Nope, no need to linger toward anymore mistakes. Others create stories. They don't get it. They kept many faces. Originality needed to be found oneself now. Being sincere with own soul, and not letting others to translate the silent person. We can go in trap in order to help others but others loves to mock back a lot. No more discussion is needed now. No need to rely on manipulator. A peace would be come definitely by easing the mind without creating scenario against others who couldn't get in mind. They aren't responsible for it.
It all goes in the mind. The reflection of the past, dreams, illusions, thoughts, perspective, aspects, transition, decisions, planning, regrets, memories, anxiety and sometimes traumatic incidences into darkness and what not. It all needs the humbleness and peace to be calm to get rid of it to stay away through its other mental health problems that gives nothing back and destroy the intrinsic peace. The continuation of positivity fills the moment of life differently where a human doesn't feel sick of each other anymore. As it all happens due to inhuman aspects when they gets rude or annoyed unnecessarily over the tiny aspects or neither gives value to the big loss, it makes different phenomenon in the end.
A mourning can be cured because they express their pain easily through their expressions, or words to share their belongings to whom they trust the most, but what about the melancholic person who keeps many things from the past subconsciously or unconsciously towards any motto. The melancholic person tries to be intrinsic the most usually, and try to resolve things of his own to avoid those words that they didn't expect from others who gets them drown in the favor of need or by humiliation. A misery of mourning person can be resolved because he's being encouraged from the people to whom they trust the most but melancholic person who tried once to open the scars and got no recognition and her wounds looks more ugly in return, that wounds no longer consider as external but internally. Internal damage gets more panic attack and gets the distance from others in order to resolve their own mystery. Through what a journey, some gets healed or some becomes more vulnerable. Some makes their boundaries and priorities. While, some keep avoiding others for the sake of mental health.
In between that journey, a vibe exist from somewhere and makes deep connection of sense among the similar pattern of thoughts among people with the spiritual connectivity of their soul and they get screwed like they had met before but in real they thought they don't. A real vibe of connection through heart saves each other and compensate with each other and works with empathy together.
I couldn't feel the energy of love any longer I couldn't enjoy the nature anymore I couldn't feel what I really want Through the struggle of mind and heart I couldn't think of my dreams towards the completion I don't mean the success I wanted the peace only for what I stayed quiet the most but left with misunderstood tried to confess my genuine beating and it couldn't be interpreted easily if I do scream, I am a mad one if I do cry, my tears are useless if I do laugh, I am a freak if I do write, it goes in vain if I do breath, I feel stuck if I do share my thoughts, that's been called wrong pattern Now, why I have to feel the spark of life? to express real of me without any hesitation like all what I've seen to stay under the manners, you have to be obedient, thus, I've lost my dreams I've ended the friendship interaction, connection, to stay remain humble and what not but, I didn't feel worthy of myself at all
Me: Uh, the Art covers darkness into colors, it paints the scars, it lets the underpainting smile over sadness, it fills the gap of doubts to stay quiet, it lets you escape a lot of things through what you want to get rid of,
Is it a natural pleasure to achieve or not?
Me: Nope, I did not have if for the ecstasy but to resolve inside mystery
Hmm, so you pretend to be happy through it?
Me: I lost a form to show myself originally, but act genuinely whatever I feel at that moment
What else you learn through the art?
Me: Prevailed darkness, get into abstract, finding spirit back that what I've lost in the past, hidden meaning of colors and perspectives of life, people and nature, and a deep kinda philosophy of any type that inspire my soul accordingly
What you devote the most while doing it?
Me: I work out with all my inside energy through my mind, soul, and heart. Mentally, physically, and spiritually it works beside to the depth accordingly