Show us the Way
I guess now you see I'm not so good at saying goodbye. I knew that each time we saw you it could have been the last time. I fought that battle within. I saw the Hell you went through, the Hell you fought through. Knowing none of it was easy. Not many could have been as strong as you were. We always think we have so much time. We will see you next week. Or see you this Friday. I was never told you wanted to stop dialysis. Maybe cuz you knew I would have broke down. I would have, but then I would have understood why. When dialysis started back in 2017 you kept saying I won't live past a year on this. 2018 came and went. As did 2019- 2020 we were not allowed to speak to you, and here we are now. You told me Molly apologized, sincerely. She still doesn't answer me. Her brother came in from Kansas just to spend a bit of time to make sure I was ok. I could not have asked for a better son. He knows me better than I know my self. I have a support system, that consists of 2 of my 4 children. And a couple of friends. That's all I really need. No one really knows what to say now.
Lynn told Lilly & I that we can mourn your death, or we can celebrate your life. We choose to celebrate your life. As that's what you want. You are missed by many. Mom do want I said, shine through for us. Even though you never wanted to believe, you see now. Shine through so we can have a glimpse of of you on the worst of our days. Life down here won't stop. You will see from your view, what I mean. I love you mom. And I can't say goodbye, because you're still here. With us. Showing us the way. I love you.