It happens very often but I control myself,
I question my existence and I question who I am? But I assume it's normal because people have it worse so thinking that it's not, is not really worth.
Do you get this feeling as if you will break down? So you think about the future, think about the people you love the ones that you know, so the reason you survive is for them and not for you.
You may call it pathetic, you may call me a people pleaser, but my mind is at war? I'm not alone then, I may be at ease. it's truly just for my own selfish greeds, but I tell myself that I'm good and that I got this.
Let's be honest, NO one does! no one has "got it" and no one will get it, because everyone has a different experience however similar it may have been... it's still unique in it's own sitting.
You can wait for that, 'someone' or just move on. Life and time it DOESN'T wait for anyone.
Experience will 'always' be different, in due time you grow and blossom... and life? it will ripen until you go back to your original form.
Whatever it may have been soil, spirit, rebirth or Nirvana maybe just blank inexsistence sleeping a slumber of peace and quiet! beacuse life is an oasis, an oasis of something which we never got to decide.