I think of us...!
I want to talk to you. Can you listen to my things forever? It's not a proposal. It's just my ups and downs which I want you to know. I want you to know who I am as a person, but I know you don't want to be that person in my life.
So, I lie on my bed, pretend that I am sleeping so that I won't get caught when my parents come in my room, and start a conversation as if you are sitting next to me and enjoying the sunset. It's beautiful, but not the reality.
Sometimes I think of us going to a trip which may never come true. We take a bicycle on rent and go for a long ride, shouting to the highest pitch possible, crying and laughing together.
Sometimes I think of us sitting in the balcony with cup of coffee in hand so that we won't feel sleepy and talking about our past relationships, the hurricanes we faced, and even about some adventurous experiences with our first partner for example the first kiss. I want to have all the deep conversation with you and I promise it will be our secret forever.
Sometimes I think of us staring at the stars from the hill, enjoying the last sip of wine and embracing the fact that we met unexpectedly. We discuss all the things we did together and just laugh at how foolish we were at those times.
I know they are just some things which I want to do with you after being someone special to you which is not possible, but these thoughts at night makes me happy. What if these things come true?
_ Utkarsha Kalambe
Dt. 5 April, 2021 @1:59 am IST