Childhood is the only window That I sneak in when I remember about the fun we had..
That wasn't fun at all, We just humiliated each other, But I remember, That was the best stuff we did, I remember those insane kiddos, Walking along and passing the taunts, Where I was a listener, and you always spoke more than need. I remember those creeps I felt unsafe with, But something made me feel better when you were around. And when you were gone, I never realised why I stayed loyal for so long? But I usually cry, when I look back to a traumatic childhood, Where I always lacked love of "essential" people. Where I was part of humiliation. Where humans horrified me, and you were the part of it somehow.... I always wished if we could be good allies, So that we could share ideas And stupid stuff at same time, Just like I wanted to be a physicist, And you wanted to be a pilot(≧▽≦) We fought for Egos and somehow learnt that fights are important part of a bond. But I remember the best thing:: You looked for my glimpses, And lived for it, for eternities..
We are grown up now, And I cannot find any alternative Of the company of yours, The way we vibe, The way we agree, The way we argue, The way we taunt on each other, And the way we blame the materialistic world.. I know I'm not alone deep inside.. You are a crucial part of mine. I hope you stay like this, So that I can have glad, FOR ALL THE FUN WE HAD....
Hit by pangs of loneliness Inside my pulsating heart- I feel utterly under life's constraint, Trapped in an existential conundrum perhaps; Until you arrive like a beam of light, To illuminate my cavern.
In twilight, Your hold is like an inexhaustible flame, Consistent with love, life, and knowledge, Guiding me thus, To a greater reality. You open the door of my mundane cage- To uplift me to the vast sky, The infinite space.
Thus cravings never end Nor do hopes cease to build, Grappling with existential realities, Rowing through endless waves tirelessly, Hoping to find you beside me Till my lonely heart throbs.