Time brings no comfort
Honestly, it’s been ages.
One ought to move on but the tears still spill at unexpected times,
Perhaps I need to be taught still,
How to stop the suffocating reminders,
How to block the unbidden memories.
If I could choose,
I’d be strong, independent, bold, courageous, invulnerable.
Alas, in that I seem to disappoint even myself.
This crushing pit of despair threatens to swallow me up,
It drags me back and forth with no break in between,
I beg desperately for solace from every point.
I wish for the numbness again... the numbness I detested in the past
At least it gave me some dignity
22nd Aug, 2020.