You dont regret things that have made you happy in your life even if it was just for a matter of seconds. I regret nothing in my life because it was all my choices, my decisions, good or bad. Good decisions have made me feel blessed and bad decisions have made me realised what mistakes I should never repeat. After a point of time, you realise that maybe you suffer so much mentally because you dont give yourself time to heal, you dont understand your own needs and wants because you are always keeping an eye on the things you are devoid of. You make something/someone as your source of happiness and think that it is the only thing which can make you feel alive again, the only thing which maybe wants you to get up from your bed for the day ahead. But when that bubble bursts you know you only got to stand up for yourself, its impossible even for your family to be your constant support. When you love/trust someone blindly you dont think that they will never hurt you but you make a tiny bubble in your head that even if they do hurt you , you will be able to survive that hurt and pain. Its a difficult path to tread but you do it for yourself cause no one will do it for you.