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  • roseanna 10w

    Anna Come Back

    Mold Anna
I am Anna
But Anna feels so far away right now
Anna hasn't been to her core in a very long time
Anna doesn't even know who she is
And maybe because she has caked on so many different things
But to peel them off feels empty
Boring
But when Anna can breathe, she is then free
And secure
And satisfied
 

  • roseanna 10w

    It’s painful to explain why I relapse, but this was the best way I could explain. #addiction #relapse #addict #cocaine #drugs #drug #abuse #recovery #aa #coke #thoughts #rehab

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    loss

    cocaine,
I have given you
    everything in me
    to keep you
    everything
    I spend my time searching for
    pieces of you
    the tiniest amount
    just to feel the loss of you
    a little less

  • roseanna 10w

    Hidden

    My love
It’s not your fault you don’t know
    Or see,
You see
This drug has a mind of its own
    Making my mind
    Weak

  • roseanna 10w

    It’s painful to explain why I relapse, but this was the best way I could explain. #addiction #relapse #addict #cocaine #drugs #drug #abuse #recovery #aa #coke #thoughts #rehab

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    Lost on Cocaine Highway

    I don't know how to tell you that Izzy has came back, my dear
    She whispers things in my ear
    Tells me she's so sorry I'm in pain,
    And reminds me of those beautiful times, we kissed in the rain
    She looks me in the eyes, and tells me she just wanted to see me again
    Take me on a ride to get away for a moment, just like old times
    But the old times to reminisce on are never truly that far away
    But time away with her feels so much longer, so I try not to focus on her
    To keep the longing at bay
     
    No matter how long our times been away,
    She insists again, again, again
    But the screams aren't in anger
    They are in a rush of pleasure
    Of the thought of us together
     
    She makes things so exciting, my dear
    She comes to me frazzled, excitement never lessened,
    Boasting about the world, and all the joys that are near
    There are new peaks to reach, she says
    A better feeling to feel,
    We get in the car, and step away from the fear
    I tell her a short drive, remembering her lack of care
    But I trust her way of knowing the perfect way
    And we start driving so fast
    That I can't remember where we even started
    Going so fast, I am forced into the moment
    Holding on to that moment
     
    We speed through the lanes,
    The world is moving so fast,
    I look around to see beauty,
    Colors, faces, nature,
    The beauty of the world will last
    But I'm amazed at how everything I see as beautiful,
    Also quickly moves past
     
    Izzy asks you why I'm so depressed
    I look at her and tell her my life has darkness
    That I can't surpass
    A life of confusion and wistfulness,
    That is only escaped at home by sleep
    Or a slow paced walk, to calm my head
    Can we not think about it right now
    And stay in this moment
    That gives me a glimpse
    out of my mental torment
     
    Izzy starts to sing
    A loud beautiful song, meant only for me
    Making me feel so special, she kisses my cheek
    And tells me there's no reason to weep
    For she is there, with me, and will show me all the beauty to this life
    Going so fast, feeling so happy,
    Hearing her sing, and watching life go past,
    Makes my heart skip a beat
     
    The police pass, and I realize they aren't watching
    Us go flying through the road,
    Everlasting
    No paranoia
    The rush is incredible, every cell letting go
    No sad thoughts anymore, I am never alone
     
    We drive so far
    That I don't know where to go
    But I do know, we need to get on the road
    That will lead us to go home
    My eyes are tired, my head is spinning
    I'm getting frustrated I don't see an exit 
    No wonder I feel burning
    In my chest, anger boiling
    Izzy keeps trying to comfort me, but nothing is working
     
    Izzy understands, and tells me she understands I have to go home
    I ask her what way, and she tells me to listen to the sound
    of my own intuition
    She reminds me I know God is near, 
    And he knows the way, off the highway
    So I can get home and pray
     
    As i start to pray, there's a deer in the way
    In the middle of the road, calm as could be,
    I'm trying to get home, can you just let me be
    A sudden slam on the breaks
    And know this is part of God showing me the way
    All at once I am still
    And Izzy looks at me confused
    I hate that we are still, 
    But will sit there until, the deer goes away
    And I feel the movement of no choice go away
     
    Izzy tries to leave the car
    But I can't stand to watch her go
    How can she leave me here all alone
    When my head is still
    Stuck in its own loop
    But doesn't want to stop the thrill

    I sit their nauseous, and think about going home alone
     reality starts to hit
    And maybe she's right,
    These are the moments I can't quit
    I look at the deer, and see it's simple life
    But I can't escape my own head, 
    And will never be that type

    I shouldn’t have let Izzy
    Get me to cave in
    Every ride with Izzy
    Leaves a hole in my heart
    Making it a little harder
    To say that final goodbye

    I should have learned
    The ride is too much

  • alifrey 13w

    Short Comings

    The Step says simply that God will remove my shortcomings. The only footwork I must do is "humbly ask," which for me means asking with the knowledge that of myself I am nothing, the Father within "doeth the works."

    For some it's gluttony, food is their addiction
    Make up and selfies, too vein, to hide to their reflection
    Covers up the shame and guilt from somewhere within
    Hating self inside dating sites and adultery, men and woman
    Bottle and pills drowns sorrows for some.
    Taking another life off this earth, selfish and aggressive
    Others must have control and monitor,
    Violent and possessive.
    Breaking the law, violent crimes keep them from running.
    Once you admit your mistakes, you can God to forgive your short-comings.
    ©alifrey

  • charfire_m 28w

    #AA #vAAe
    Join us every night 7pm-2am pst, 7 days a week!
    Grant Us The Serenity Group of AA:
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    #Lifegrants us life #becausewe #aremadein the imagE(I’m agE<=of the AgE DimEnsion<=Go(o)d=absolute of/as this dimension) of Go(o)d+CrE(3)ator(lovE(3)/lifE(3)=solipsism) for IAM<(3)as IAM(3) w(3)hat IAM(3) all thE(3) lovE(3), as iam(3) E(3)nough to bE(3) BE(3)ing mE(3), mysE(3)lf and Iam(3)> a soul(IAM what IAM, Phonixe of ember as life) that has a HE•art(earth inside), for you are the same thing, of Go(o)d+CrE(3)ator(lovE(3)/lifE(3)=solipsism) be that by faith or by you have a body that came from the Earth(hE•art outside); you can something that came before you and that loves you more then you can love yourself to say simply.
    #v1e#WISdom_emPOWERment #
    v2021e #vvideoe#thenines#🌿
    ■ simply, simultaneously you know what is all and you keep telling yourself this story of what is at hand and by that you create from that state that you are at, of being, to that of living a lie as by a lie you can call it a a vail, so that you can then be of this and that by your here and now; for it when you choose the choice by where you are to then simultaneously be as you are, accept and then bring the fullness of what you are nowhere to now where as here you are.
    # in life you can be the wisdom that has something to say about life and the way that you can see it as in of itself you will be able to have a great day in all your means of yourself and what is your worth, for its true that you can be the echo of your own kind and the loveable means to being your betterment of yourself by besting yourself in all that you are and have to shear; for you can only shear what you have and so shear the parts that will give you a hug love the life that you are and shear with you betterment of the life you are able to give to yourself and to the world as to be wise to still accepting what your unwilling to shear by what you do shear. Have a great day seeing how wise as powerful as the worth of a master that, as what is great, as what makes life smile, thank you for having a smile; for you are great and that of you is grand of magnanimous measures of gems by the sky count...aka always finding more
    #poems #poetry #spokenwords #poet #art #beheard #published #thoreau #writer #writing #written  #oneday #art #true #beggingthought #letsstartmotivation #determined deepinthought # challenge yourself by loving yourself #lifestyle #NobodyWillDoItForYou #createyourworth #inspire movement #zen  #youcandoit namaste#vcomme nte
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    #Lifegrants #uslife #becausewe #aremadeintheimagE #ofGod for I’m #asoul #thathasaheart, #foryou are the #samething, #ofGod #bethat #byfaith #orbyyou #haveabody #thatcamefrom #theEarth; you can something #thatcamebefore #youandthat #lovesyoumore #thenyoucan #loveyourself #tosaysimply.

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    AA today
    11:08 PM 25% mothers front yard
    To embrace your meaning in life for what is to be love and love itself, that we are all Phoenix embers; that just being in the now moment, is all that you have to do in life to know you are loved; by gifting you the gift to open the gift of yourself, to the be able to open the gift of self is the best thing you can do for yourself. Simply simultaneously 1one thing is happening at the same time and time is a circle and all things happen in a circle so they come back tell you listen to learn that lesson; for you have all the weapons that you will ever need because you are a reflection of God+Creator, made in the image of. Even angels are perfect.
    http://www.mirakee.com/charfire_m

    Topics 4/8/2021
    1. Today I am no longer a slave to alcohol, yet in so many ways enslavement still threatens–my self, my desires, even my dreams.
    Courts\liquor demons, you know courts don't care what happens in real life as you grow, yet you do grow and yet they make you pay for what is life happening, that simply to say that they rippling echos of life happen from the times of the liquor demons, yet, it like you have to live this double life, where they make you, live the past

    2. Change is simply a combination of growing up and gaining knowledge.
    To find the moreness of life in/of God+Creator, to see self as what is to be a means of a Being of a lighthouse in the dark of night, passing the torch of fire knowledge of self; by letting God+Creator/life live through you so that you may have gifted yourself with the gift of doing something kind for someone1 and self Improvement.

    3. I came to this program to save my butt and found out recovery was attached to my soul.
    That life is all of 1oneness, and self love by seeing that their is a means a happening to that of what is the illusion of separation within stuff of yours to that of what is God+Creator of self to soul of self, to God+Creator is that of made in you in their image; all in all, their is all things have a sliver of you just as God+Creator has a sliver in you by image of self.
    4. What it was like then- what it is like now.
    1one is to let go and be freedom will you know upon the life of you and the life of yours is/of you and your timing becomes within Divine+timing, comes with in soul of knowing yourself be seeing yours through God+Creators eye as you are a reflection of God+Creator to be Being here and now for all of life comes the smiles of God+Creator that come from having Children of love and light/life.
    11:12 PM to 25%

  • charfire_m 32w

    ♒️ #zeropoint #vzeropointe #callitspirits #vcallitspiritse #AA #vAAe #commonsense #vcommonsensee

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    #NowIdon't #drank #likeIdid, #ifatall, #ifIdo drank; as, #theycall it #spirits #forareason, #socommonsense says #thattheirspirit service #theyare #entities #thattakehold #ofyou #ifyouletthemcontrolyou.. .. #insomeway #theyhavefullcontrol.

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    #1 #v1e #1one #one 🟥 🐛#v2021e #2021 🦋 🐳 🐬🦍#Enjoy_empowered_life_value #ENJOY_empowered_life #enjoy_empowered_living🐝🐴🐢🐋🦧🐫🎋

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    #Lifegrants us life #becausewe #aremadein the imagE(I’m agE<=of the AgE DimEnsion<=Go(o)d=absolute of/as this dimension) of Go(o)d+CrE(3)ator(lovE(3)/lifE(3)=solipsism) for IAM<(3)as IAM(3) w(3)hat IAM(3) all thE(3) lovE(3), as iam(3) E(3)nough to bE(3) BE(3)ing mE(3), mysE(3)lf and Iam(3)> a soul(IAM what IAM, Phonixe of ember as life) that has a HE•art(earth inside), for you are the same thing, of Go(o)d+CrE(3)ator(lovE(3)/lifE(3)=solipsism) be that by faith or by you have a body that came from the Earth(hE•art outside); you can something that came before you and that loves you more then you can love yourself to say simply.

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    #Lifegrants #uslife #becausewe #aremadeintheimagE #ofGod for I’m #asoul #thathasaheart, #foryou are the #samething, #ofGod #bethat #byfaith #orbyyou #haveabody #thatcamefrom #theEarth; you can something #thatcamebefore #youandthat #lovesyoumore #thenyoucan #loveyourself #tosaysimply.

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    0. call it spirits
    8:53 PM 71% mothers backyard

    Now I don't drank like I did, if at all, if I do drank; as, they call it spirits for a reason, so common sense says that their spirit service they are entities that take hold of you if you let them control you.. .. in someway they have full control while in you and the only way to control them is to keep them in a bottle.. .. something about sand = Earth(hE•art outside) .
    8:58 PM 71%
    ©charfire_m

  • bejubaanshayar 61w

    #mrak #aa
    Tumhari nazron me ham bure bane
    Usse pahle nazron se dur chale jate hai

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    Muhabbat ki talash me the
    Khud se hi nafrat ho rahi hai
    ©bejubaanshayar

  • princehamdard 67w

    बिछड़

    कश्ती है हमारी कोई सराय तो नही है हमदर्द
    तुम आ गर नही सकते तो बिछड़ क्यों नही जाते

    ©princehamdard

  • chiragjaggi 71w

    Yaari

    Chal aa hath apna badha de,
    Aa tujhe bhi yaari hum sikhla de....
    Kehene ko to badi aasan hai,
    Nibhane me kayi hue nakaam hai....

    Jeet or haar to lagi rhegi isme,
    Yaad rhene chahiye vahi poorane kisse....
    Tujhse ke hai mene yaari,
    Yahi hai shayd meri ek bimari....

    Chal aa hath apna badha de,
    Aa tujhe bhi yaari hum sikhla de...

    Kya hua kabhi rooth bhi jaye hum,
    Galle laga lena ek baar, bhula ke saare gum....
    Baandh ke rakhiyo apni yaari ko,
    Kayi ghum rhe hai anaari, isse mitane ko....

    Bhatak jaye kahi hum to sambhal lena,
    Ye baate ghar pe kissi ko batla na dena,
    Chalna hoga tujhe he es raste me mere sath,
    Thamna pdega tujhe he mera hatho me hath...

    Chal aa hath apna badha de,
    Aa tujhe bhi yaari hum sikhla de.....
    ©chiragjaggi

  • rishrishi 85w

    Aa fanna ho ja _!

    Aa fanna ho ja meri aawargi mein ' Bhala mujhse kyun darti hai ||
    'Jara '
    Nazar utha ke to dekh meri iss aawargi mein bas ekk tu hi tu to basti hai ||
    ©rishrishi

  • deep03 86w

    Ek baar tu aa

    Mehkegi duniya meri teri hi khushboo me.
    Ek baar tu aa to sahi meri galiyon me.
    ©deep03

  • shivvani 93w

    Inspired #aa#dil#

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    ****

    When u meet someone
    Ur energy matches...
    And it awakens smthing in u
    Which is part of u
    But smwhere....
    Unknown
    By u.
    I m in Love of that part
    Of "me"
    ......
    .......
    which is touched by You
    when
    We met

  • shivvani 95w

    Inspired#aa dil#dobarA

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    Sardi mehsoos nahi hoti thi Mujhe..
    Teri ek chuann ne Sari garmi nikaal di..
    Thand kya hoti hai
    Meri Jaan...
    Ab mehsoos Ho rha hai..... ####

  • shivvani 95w

    Inspired#aa dil#dobara

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    Har shaks me kuch khaas hai
    Par koi tere jaisa kyu nahi hai

    Meri jaan ****
    Tinder*ke sare swipe ek taraf
    Or tera //Right swipe//ek taraf......

  • shivvani 95w

    Mujhe Choo Karr tune mujhe khud jaisa karr dia.....
    Warna mai to rato ko chain se soya karti thi ..


    ©shivvani

  • bhavya_7 102w

    To all the ones I admire
    #MSD#vijay#sudeep#BTS#dq#AA#V

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    Why do I like them??
    It's Simply Because I love how they reply haters with their success.....
    ©bhavya_7

  • mrsyco 105w

    I was lucky.....

    The best night of my life would be to runaway on a midnight train with my crush.
    ©nikkchaudhary

  • beautifuldisaster870 112w

    Imperceptible

    Changes that make you are imperceptible
    Trying to grasp at my old ideas is inevitable
    Awareness is my tool if I am to reach
    My cool, cool waters
    ©beautifuldisaster870

  • beautifuldisaster870 112w

    Greatest Flaws

    Moments that define you
    Never intentionally made
    So subtle the position they create
    Sleepless nights seeking
    Hoping I'm just dreaming
    Looking through an hourglass image
    When did it become so vivid
    ©beautifuldisaster870