TRIGGER WARNING :- STORY OF A WHOLE MENSTRUATION TIME
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It was midnight. The clock was showing 3AM. I felt something uncomfortable which had interrupted my sleeping. I felt like something wet in my lower undies. As I'm habitual, I got my periods was started. And then I get to know about the reason behind the pain that occurred two days ago. I woke up and opened my closet to take out the pad. While changing the pad, I could see the reddish black blood as a wet spot. I attached the pad with my undies keeping the adjustments in my mind. I checked the front, back and the sides that if I had fit the pad correctly or not. Done with this, I came back to the bed and tried to sleep again but the periods pain had came along with it, which was provoking me to wake up and fight with it. The baby sleep had turned out into the temporary insomina. Changing the sides in every five minutes, I was trying and trying...
Any how the time passed and the night turned out into the morning. Doesn't matter if I had remembered the date and was mentally prepared for it but still the pain is pain.The killer pain had increased now which couldn't be removed by any painkiller. But still, I had to fight with it. I woke up for the daily basic routines. Went to washroom, while peeing, I could see the reddish black blood flow on the toilet seat.
The pain and the cramps were increasing by the time. I was clearly feeling the pain in my vagina which was continuously laying me down. The pain and cramps in my pellet,waist,thighs,legs, backs, buts and even in breasts were breaking me. All the inside functions were affecting the outside part of my body. It seemed like someone is spearing the poke inside the uterus and it's walls. I can't have the painkiller as it's not the matter of a single day and having painkillers every month will affect the health. There aren't any perfect ointment to massage over them but some exercises help out in reduction in the pain. The hot water bags help out in this. The period cup, tampons are useful in absorbing the blood. I'm thankful that I don't use leaves and old clothes.
I choose the wooden stool over the bed to sit down. Everytime I check if there is any spot on bed or on my trouser if i sit there. I don't have to touch the auspicious things. I don't have to go to the temple and kitchen. I can't touch pickles as it is said that touching pickle in periods can decay them. I have to wash my clothes by my own.I avoid wearing white clothes because of blood stain. I have to wear a smile everytime to hide the pain. The day passes with the changing mood and different mood swings, but I have to hold them as a secret. I can't share my pain with anyone nor I can talk over it with my father or brother. They say what happened why are you acting weird and sitting like that,but I can't answer them. The periods makes me feel like stranger and untouched at my own house. Or I myself had isolated myself from the crowd. I want to shout but I can't. Any type of tension or stress can affect the date and bleeding. To maintain the hygiene, I have to wash my body part, where the blood comes out from. Everytime I have to wrap the pad into a paper to throw it. Even when i go to buy it, they wrap it into a the newspaper.
I can feel the hot flow of the blood and the thick blood clots. I have to wash every garment that I wore, doesn't matter if for 24 hours or for 24 minutes. I can't eat something sour. I can't eat pickles as it will increase the bleeding. I can't move any where. I feel like lazy. Sometimes I get pimples because of periods. I have to face the orthodox. People with a different mindset say that "you are a girl and periods comes so that you can have a complete rest of 4 to 5 days". But how do I tell them that, "I can have a rest just from daily works but I can't have the rest with all these pains and cramps". I have to check for the leakages and I have to change my pad time to time. Sometimes the pungent smell of blood vanishes the fragrance of pad. The wet pad sticks with the butts and everytime I have to unstick it and bring it back to the position. The night passes in changing the sides but I'm directed to sleep by left side.
Fighting all the night, I move to the second day. I can see the blood spot on the bed sheet. I can see that the bleeding this time was much more than the previous one, that's why it leaked out from the side and it is now on the bed. I have to wash the bed sheet. Earlier I used to cry over this but now I am mature by the mind so I think it's normal but still cursing 'why I am a girl?', shouting and abusing 'why I am a girl?'. I am bound to wash the bedsheet. I am feeling weak but I can't do anything. I call my bestie, she catches me with my voice and ask if I was fine and then I say 'no I am going through my periods'.
She says 'I am also going through it, ok which day?'
'The second day'.
'OMG, it's the second day of mine too'. Laughing over the true best friendship, we are going through it.
Ugh it's itching now and it is itching very badly and irritating me now. Oh no! I just sneezed & I am feeling like the blood is flowing like hell ,does it change into the sea of blood whenever i sneeze? Suddenly my mommy sees a blood spot on my lower that makes me feel embarrassed and she scolds me to change it as soon as possible and says me to take a shower. The bleeding is more than the first day. Also I'm feeling like vomiting and headache. My body is motionless. I use two to three pads a day and sometimes forth one too.
The third day, the bleeding reduced still I'm suffering all the unconditional discomforts. The number of using pads also gets less. This is how these days pass. It's the fourth day when I have to do shampoo to change my impurity into purity. And eat something sweet. The pain has also decreased so as the bleeding. As I know it will bleed less, so I use the small pad instead of the big. I'm free of the periods after the fifth day. A pinch of pain ,I felt on the fifth day as well. My periods are over but just for this month. It will come again and again the every month and I'll have to face and suffer all those things. It's the tragic story of every month that every girl or woman goes through.
So this was the story of periods. It isn't easy the way it looks. It's not easy to bleed for continuous five days and suffer the pain and pressures.. We don't need sympathy, we need some love , hugs and a lot of cares, that's it...
capricious_quillThankfully, menstruation is being talked off and written about more these days. I have read some works on this topic. But really, the way you have described every minute detail, the pain, the ugliness, the embarrassment, the stigma, it's too too awesome. I'm glad your pen wrote on such a taboo topic in such a majestic way. More power to you and your pen di!
that_gryffindor_girlHello! I'm Jayarani. I'm working with Verses Kindler Publications, a publishing agency, in compiling an anthology of poems and I'm fascinated by your writing skills. Are you interested in writing a poem and getting it published? ✨ Please respond to this comment so that I'll let you know more the details. Thanks❤️
capricious_quillGosh gosh gosh !!!! So right you are di! It's so great of you to pen this one down boldly and with great precision ... This reminded me when our English teacher told us in her class how a little soil is collected from the house if a prostitute for making the Pratima of Goddess Durga for Durga Puja, because a prostitute takes in the evils of society within herself, thus saving innocent lives from getting destroyed.
d_shubhAap jis bhi topic pe likhte ho bhut acha aur sahi likhte ho kai baar esa hota h ki jb bhi koi.ese topics.pe.likhta h to koi na koi point ya koi na koi baat xuut jaati h mgr aap jb bhi likhte ho pura likhte ho hr ek baat likhte ho.....aapki likhi hr ek baat bilkul sahi h y sb krna bhi rape hi h....mentally physically emotionally hr trh se effect krta h y sb.....glti hmari hi h ese mamle mei jb bhi hme bolna chahie aksar hum khamosh ho jaate hain....sayd y sb padhke kisi.mei aawaj uthane ki himmat aae kisi mei badlaav aae ❤️
dipsisriI don't know why people don't get this that there is a thing 'consent' which matters for each person & gender.But people just don't understand this & even laugh on that how a husband can do rape he is ur Husband u r his property.
jaya___Amazingly written. My dad buys pads for me and my sister tho!! And he was the one to first teach me about it. And there is relative openess about the taboo topic a bit now....but still a long way to go... Wonderful posts❤️❤️
safflowerBold and powerful ❤️I agree there shouldn't be shame about a thing needed,it's what you portrayed cab be flet at shops,it's a stereotype!!!I loveed this the way it rhymed and everything,more power to your pen !
awaken_wordsThere are short of words to praise you rani di... literally im in love with your must read posts... everything u said from top to bottom just flawless.. every word each line demonstrates the actual criteria.. how can someone be so accurate in expressing?? Bow down❤ I'm just spellbound... More power to your pen.. keep inking.. keep shining.. more and more love and high peak respect to you di!!! ❤❤
He- Hmm, so this is what you were worried about? Well, what if I say, that I don't need your virginity. Nor I will judge you, by your past. I want your hearty not physical purity.
And what's virginity? Having a sealed membrane to be broken, To show your manhood by taking it. And feeling proud again n again.
If breaking of membrane or so called 'seal' Flowing of blood, and leaving a girl in pain Then calling all these as loss of virginity, And achieving the real manhood then,
Then better people change this mentality, Because,a virgin girl may cheat me. And being non virgin you can be loyal, This is how, these all , I see.
For me virginity is not all about Taking it by breaking it. Nor it is about giving blood and pain, It's not an enjoyment kit.
For me what's more important Is your mental purity. If you're so, Then I'll call it an unbreakable virginity.
For me virginity is not physical But an emotional attachment with man. And I'm no one to judge you on this basis. We'll be emotionally supporting, as much as we can.
Sharing bed with someone else before, In a little age, was just your immaturity. But It never means you're impure And it never takes your hearty purity.
We live in an era, where everything is developed Except poor n old mentalities Where a girl is called slut,if she losses virginity, And boy is a real man, with manhood abilities.
Well, sometimes boy are also judged, But I really don't care, To start a new life, I don't need your virginity, But your trust and love,which is totally fair.
I know virginity is a sign of purity,but What will i do taking a virgin who won't respect me. I just need a true and open minded girl like you. Who's transparent with her words. Everyday whose love for me, will be totally new.
I really don't need your physical 'VIRGINITY' never ever, I repeat. So now would you like to be my wife now? And now may we happily meet?
She- Still you should think twice. What the world will say? Won't they blame me, In direct or in indirect way?
capricious_quillaha! Thanks for the tag ... I would keep on wondering what happened in part 2 ...and raat ki nind urr jaati .. This is really how it should be. But it isn't. See now in India, the reality is ...we are living in extremes. Either there are too backdated and patriarchal. Or people are being just totally playboy/girlish ...with young kids indulging in sexual activities for looking " cool" without knowing the consequences and repercussions ... We really need a balance. And acceptance. Like what you wrote. But we are far from it me in the real world. Hope we reach this ideal state soon!
_brofessor_@rani_shri let it.. I didn't see this this side of yours..i thought you only wrote hindi poetry.. you wrote some awesome posts in the past..✨ Why don't you write on these topics again?..
rani_shri@_brofessor_ these are already done. I wanted others to write. I initiated. A few of people followed me . After that noone. I rarely write same thing twice, like i did with periods, there are two posts on periods in this hash tag #a_must_read_post_by_shri N i couldn't find if there is another topic to be written, which people are ashamed of writing about.
_brofessor_@rani_shri kudos to you di, for most People will never write on these topics.. There are more topics left to be written about..
_brofessor_@rani_shri di can I ask for an honest opinion..? I wanted to on topics like virginity, bra and taboo topics as such But upon reading,I found out there's many post on miraquill already and seems clichéd .. Should I write on these topics?