After a lot of silly and shitty work talks I asked a random friend a very simple Yet sophisticated question which we Ask without thinking twice. So, How are you doing? And with a sweet innocence Carrying all the honesty in his heart he replied "Pata nahi" i don't know how I am doing Right now. Isn't it strange how often we ask this To anyone we meet or talk about how They doing, how's everything in their life as if We can be healer to tht hurting soul. As if we know how to help them if They are not right. Instead of asking others why we never ask this Question to ourselves? Why we never gave it a thought or why noone suggests us to do a lil research about ourselves. How can we heal someone when we ourselves are not happy not surviving the right way we should do it. Why that guy felt clueless when I asked him about His life, about him. Why we always find difficult to answer questions We know the answer already. Have you ever thought about that peace of your brain. You keep talking about good life and good living, a carefree living. Have you found out the way to do that. Lemme guess...you didn't and you haven't even tried it coz it was someone else whose living whose happiness is hurting you, effecting you So should I say making you jealous and you are too coward to accept it because for you it's a challenge you have been fighting, it's a competition that you have been keep participating on. To run to run faster to reach higher to become someone popular or bigger a memory to others. Whether it will be a good one or bad one you don't care. You don't care about that peace you don't care about that life you are living and others are praying for. Coz all you do is figuring out how others are better than you. How they are having what you don't.
Just once ask yourself that how you are doing How your heart your body your soul your brain is doing. Instead of asking others about their life ask them about yours, your habbits they don't like Changes they have been observing in you lately. The things they were waiting to do and waiting to Ask you for your company. Just for once invest in yourself. LIVE YOURSELF.
As INSECURE as I was, so PASSIONATE has my writing always been; mostly very THOUGHTFULL, sometimes OVERDRAMATIC, but always speaking from the heart, trying to touch lives, which started with teenage love, perceived from a nerdy world and gradually evolved in the amateur writer I am today, using my fingertips and cel nowadays instead of the tradional, old fashioned way and still believing to be led by the God I serve, giving Him all praise and glory, even on this #FridayFun day.
The friends she thought she had, have left since long. She couldn't take the offered help and support... She wish for peace in home, in her life, in her mind... But, instead... There is a constant noise... CONSTANT... the yelling echo in her mind... She recalls the put downs from months ago, insults from past last years... There is no escaping from his ever presenting negativity. She see herself as a strong woman, who has been beaten down by words, WORST WORDS... She is the woman who's confidence has been minimized with every line he used.... The sleepless nights are twice as long.... She dream for PEACE, CALM and SILENCE. She is the woman behind sad eyes, the uncombed hair, the mismatched clothes, with the body language that screams.... PLEASE... I DON'T WANT TO OFFEND HIM... I DON'T WANT HIM TO MAD AT ME.... Again. "SHE'S TIRED"