I miss you a little less everyday.
I still miss you
But not as much as i used too.
No, i'm still not over you
But just like us, that wont last forever boo.
See what i miss the most are the memories that we made
The memories that you wasted and now they just fade.
I dont regret those happy times because i was over the moon,
Even when we would just cuddle until noon.
You fucked everything up by giving up on me,
You gave up on someone who would have supported whoever you wanted to be.
I let you have time with your friends, your family & even yourself,
Meanwhile you never gave a shit about my mental health.
I do remember the good times but i also remember the worst,
Like the times you would sleep at night knowing my heart had burst,
Into a million tears because of a fight,
& then all day i'd wait until you finally tell me we're alright.
& i'll obviously never forget that hotel morning and how i stupidly let you get away with what you did that day,
But i didnt wanna ruin your life just because you ruined mine & i knew the police wouldnt even care what i say.
Because i'm a nobody & i've always seen myself like that,
I saw you as an absolute King & i was just a fat rat.
I always knew it was too good to be true,
How could someone like me last forever with someone like you.
You had your whole life ahead of you and i was trying to make a future for me too
But you ruined that for me & now for so long i have been so lost not knowing who i am or what to do.
I appreciate that for some time you did love me and you did care,
Even though that love didnt last forever, it still happened, you were still there.
But you left me & now i'm still trying to put the pieces together,
I have been single since and the only feeling of being in love i have is sitting in rainy weather.
I dont hate you because hate is a very strong word,
But you definitely dont make me feel as free as a bird,
You used to you were my escape before,
& if you ever miss us that was your fault you threw the relationship out of the door.
I wont lie and say i have moved on because sometimes it still feels like yesterday when you left what we had
But everyday i become a little less sad.
You're not always on my mind like you used to be,
One day i'll find myself again, one day i'll be me.