When you tremble and you fall
You expect to get back up
You don't think about the looming fixation of alcohol
When you get sad and you cry
You think it's a mood
You never dream of letting smileless weeks go by
If you watch a scary movie,
You'll be paranoid for Pennywise
But what if to you everything was spooky?
We space out, we lose attention
But some of us can't focus by the minute,
We think about tomorrow but blink and you'll be in it.
I'm intoxicated with this mood,
Intoxicated while I turn away food
No one will know, okay?
I'll be fine just give me another day
Physical or mental
This feeling drowns out both,
Please, someone, throw me a rope.
I'm intoxicated by being numb
I'll ignore the pain no matter the outcome.
Sometimes I feel I need to please people,
I'll wear what they want and kneel in a steeple
Yet some days I just run wild
Never let a man nor beast get me riled
I won't open up my heart-
Nary a sappy line I wish you to impart
Life is messy, so let it go
There's no secret key or verse I need to know
You can't help me through this,
I need to do it alone, I'll go against your wish
If only society cared about souls as much as waist size!
If only we didn't spend so many days waiting fo die
It's a change from bodily pain to torturing your mind,
It's no longer life and death it's if you're so inclined
I'm intoxicated by this wreck of a life,
Maybe hypnotized by this fife
Intoxicated by music and words,
Want to stay yet I wish my soul flew with the birds
Intoxication is unhealthy, sure
But can you name a better way to pretend you're secure?
We crave physical touch
We need each other so much.