I watched this movie tonight called "I can only imagine" about this Christian band called MercyMe...it touched on my biggest heart issue; Abandonment....my entire life I've been dealing with this, or so I thought...I guess I really hadn't been dealing with any of it at all until I started asking the Lord to show me His heart for me, asking Him to align my heart with His heart, asking Him to show me how to love Him like He loves me....and as I've been being refined by Him, He made me feel again...when I hadn't even realized what was really going on in my heart. I couldn't feel, I was just allowing small bits here and there. I closed my heart for a long while, like it stopped beating...I couldn't even feel it in my chest anymore, I was spiritually dead.... I held on to that closed off feeling out of fear for what it would be like to feel, and what I'd have to face if my heart could even take it....
Well Lord, here we are...its just You and me forever. You've got my heart, I'm open to you Father. Today marks the day my heart finally cracked open. Today is the day it started beating for you again Lord!
THANK YOU JESUS CHRIST FOR THIS CHANCE AT LIFE WITH YOU, YOUR FATHER, AND HIS BEAUTIFUL HOLY SPIRIT!!
I dont say that you've to solely bring that salvation! But do your duty ... fulfil your responsibility. You pray,u plead, u weep,u show ,u depict,u make them understand. ...do everything u can. Do ur best and leave the rest to GOd ...HE will finish the task.