My world crashed down the moment They bought her home wrapped in a bloodstained cloth, Even though knowing it few minutes before I didn't want to face that harsh reality, All those live images of our sweet moments Flashed in front of my eyes;
The way she had called me "Mumma" For the first time in her mellifluous voice, The way she used to irritate me when I cooked, The way she used to make faces to make me smile After getting scolded from me, The way she used to sleep in my lap After finishing her homework, The way she made me chase her Around our garden while she played, Every single moment was live and fresh in front of me;
I wasn't crying Neither I was feeling anything, I was just standing still near the open door, Then I saw her Right in front of me, Laughing and calling me to come out with her, I stretched my hands to reach her But she disappeared, Something hard as an arrow pierced my heart, I felt blood getting sucked out from my body, Then suddenly everything went black.................
When I opened my eyes Everything was blur, I put my hands over my chest And then on my face, My heart was beating and I was breathing alive, Then suddenly something stuck my mind, "Where is my angel?" I asked them, But no one had any answer of my question, They all were staring at me blankly, All I remembered was the words she had told me last When I was busy cleaning the house, "Mumma I'm going to find my doll" My mind was on ripples, "Did the doll take my angel with her?!"
She was standing in a corner with a glass of wine, as a guest who came to attend the engagement party. Suddenly her eyes connected with him, who was gazing silently at her from the stage. Those two pairs of eyes went through an emotional rollercoaster. There was a sudden gush of thoughts and emotions, crashing with each other. But they both knew that it was already too late for anything. Both the pair of eyes welled up and then turned different ways..
An announcement was heard "So let's put our hands together for the lovely couple Aryan and Ruchika, who are going to be engaged today." And there was a big round of applause which pulled her back into the reality. Her mind was rewinding the memories of the 2 years that she spent with him and also of the following 6 months after they broke up. She shoved all those thoughts apart for sometime, trying to focus on the engagement..
Finally the rings got exchanged and everyone clapped & cheered for the couple. The elders after showering their blessings on them, went to attend the guests at the party. She crept out of that place as it was making her feel suffocated and went to the terrace to get some fresh air..
After finishing all the formalities, he took a glass of wine in his hands and his eyes again went back in search of her. His heart sank as he scanned each and every face in the crowd but still couldn't find any trace of her. That uneasiness made him head towards the terrace too. And then his heart skipped, as there he saw the silhouette of his lost love, that's her..
Sipping her wine, she was watching the city lights from the terrace, which were eventually getting blurred from her sight as the tears were escaping from her eyes. She was cursing herself to have come to this place only because her colleagues forced, even if her heart was shattering due to the fact of losing the only love of her life. She was cursing herself for letting him go that day without uttering a single word. Then she heard his soft voice from behind. For a moment she resisted turning back as she was sure that she'll collapse weakly into his arms the second she'll face him. But his voice was coming closer to her "Divya, please stop me from doing this. Please tell me that nothing has changed between us. I love you the same even today."..
Even after trying her best she was unable to control her emotions that were gushing out of her. So she finally turned to face him, and as expected her fears turned into reality. His eyes were full of tears, reflecting his infinite love for her. On the other hand, she too was in the same situation. Within a blink of eye they collapsed into each others arms madly. And those long lost soulmates started kissing each other with so much passion as if they had been hungry since ages. They expressed everything of their hearts to one another without even a single spoken word, and finally decided what to do next..
And that was their unison once again, under the starry sky, as the moon smiled from above witnessing the rekindle of love..
Helllooooo my sweet mirakeeans!! Wishing you and your family a very HAPPY NEW YEAR.. Stay safe and healthy all of you..
*** So here's an announcement from my side on this new year ***
Everyone here with whom I'm close to, knows me by my name i.e. "Megha".. So I'm gonna tell you that, yes Megha is my name, but its my nickname.. And my official name is "Ankita".. Hahahah friends, don't bother cuz u don't have to call me by that.. I'm only Megha for you all.. And I love to hear this name from my close people here..!!! Yes, one more thing is that I'm really sorry to reveal this so late.. But I had some helplessness.. Hope y'all will understand.. Love you all a lot..
Now let's go..!!! Off to a new year of life with new dreams, hopes and resolutions..!!!
You held on me When I was losing myself You made me feel wanted When I was feeling rejected by the world You made me love myself through your eyes When I was hating to even see my own reflection You glued my soul in your arms When I was falling apart You made my heart bloom When every emotion inside me was about to die You made me rest on your shoulder When my inner peace had gone insane You were there always for me As my shadow
Till now I still remember Those words said by you at the end "I'll always be with you, inside you" Before you closed your eyes And they closed the coffin I still remember darling The feeling when my fingers Were entangled with yours Till the last point before they separated
I've survived with all those Memories of yours And its been almost a lifetime now But my time has never moved on From that moment when they buried you I'm still there waiting for you
Now its my time to give up And to meet you in that universe Because my darling Our love was meant to be completed there Where the sky meets the ocean And the earth collapses into a dot There we'll meet To provide our love a beautiful destination
Will you be there for me my love Like you used to be always And forever Will you?????!!!!!
I had scribbled it late night, about 8-9months back. And it was in my very old and forgotten draft. I found it 2 days back and thought to post now.
Hope you all give it a read I'll wait for your kind feedbacks
It was half an hour past two The darkness was at its fullest outside A bottle of beer in my hand And a heart full of your thoughts
With every single sip from my bottle I was requesting the mind to shut off your memories But it was in no mood to listen
Heart was getting more and more heavy And I could do nothing but stare Blankly to the wall in front of me There were you smiling at me from the picture With the ever sweet face of yours Besides you was also the picture of Our one month old son The souvenir of our pure love
A few drops of tears rolled down my cheeks And a nostalgia of memories flashed through my mind The beer wasn't able to overpower our moments I was feeling all of it like before
How could God be so heartless and cruel???!! He destroyed our happy world just within seconds..
Wish I could've been 10 more minutes earlier that day to the hospital Wish I wouldn't have let you both go alone to the park Wish I could've canceled my meeting to be with you Wish things could've been more easier to digest I wish............................
// Three years ago he lost his wife and one-month old son in a car accident while they were returning from the amusement park.. //
He took the baby from Zeenat's hand and said, "I am so sorr...." He ceased. They both were looking at each other. And then something surprising occurred. Zeenat muttered slowly, "Naksh." And my heart missed a beat.
Chapter-15 *********** 21st September 2014 •••••••••••••••••••••••• "You..uh..i.." She stammered. It seemed as if she was indecisive of what to say. "Nice to meet you after so long, Zeenat." Naksh brought his left hand ahead for a handshake, carrying the baby with his right hand. She shook her hand with him and said, "Same here." "How are you?" He asked. "Good...am good." She replied. He was about to say or maybe ask something but she halted, "Umm...I gotta go. Maa is waiting. Hope to see you again." "What? Where are you going?" I muttered slowly. "I'll catch you up later, Karthik." She smiled..an awkward smile and left.
I was about to leave too but before that, I looked at him, he smiled and I smiled back.
29th September 2014 ••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• I was homesick seeing the hustle and bustle all around the Kolkata for the start of Durga Puja. I wished to go back but the thought of vacating Zeenat alone when she needed me the most, stayed me. I was having my breakfast when my phone buzzed. A natural curve on my lips arose seeing her name on my phone's screen. "Hello! Karthik. How are you?" She asked. "Am good," I answered. "Umm...would you mind having street foods or maybe pandal hopping on Ashtami? Together?" She asked. "Okay. Meet you then?!" It was reasonably surprising but I was happy.
2nd October 2014 ••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• I was blessed getting the opportunity to enjoy Navratri in Kolkata. Well! I didn't bring many clothes with me so I wore the same clothes. She rang me and asked me to wait for her at the nearby bus stop.
"Hey!" She arrived. As always outfitted in the most adorable attire. She looked like an incarnation of Maa Durga in that White saree with a red and yellow border. "Umm...so we are gonna travel on the bus today. Are you okay with that?" "Uhh..yeah!! Anything is fine to me." "Mmhm..but I should let you know that buses in Kolkata are way too crowded particularly in festivals." "Well! No problem...I will manage it."
Luckily, we didn't have to wait for long coz soon the bus arrived. We entered and struggled to find a better place to stand coz the seats were full and a lot of crowds were standing, clutching the grab handles.
I was standing beside her, looking at her when I noticed that she was uncomfortable as a man was purposely loose hanging himself to touch her. And being a man it was my duty to protect her. I pushed the crowd a bit and came in front of her, asked her to walk back and stand resting herself in the corner. I put my hands on her side so that not a single body could touch her not even unintentionally. She smiled and sighed.
The bus stopped giving a sudden jerk and I missed my balance, my body was about to hit her but I managed to control myself by clasping the grab handle tightly. My face was inches away from her and it was a long eye contact till she moved her face and glanced outside the window near her. The bus arrived at our destination and with us, a lot of people got off the bus.
"So? Where are we going now?" I asked her "I am hungry. Let's have some street foods." "Mhmm okay but I won't eat. You know I am not that fond of street foods. Umm....I am a little conscious of my fitness but I won't stop you eating." "Nothing happens by eating one day. Trust me you will enjoy it." My heart didn't want to refuse her but I haven't ever had street foods so I was feeling weird.
I wished she could understand and to my surprise, she did understand. "Mhmm...your silence is speaking that you are not comfortable eating outside. It's okay." She smiled. "Let's go to a restaurant then."
There was an elegant restaurant just a short walk away. We entered, but unfortunately, all the tables were occupied. The Manager saw us at the gate and greeted us with the host over there. "Good evening, Miss Zeenat. How are you?" "I am good, Uncle." She smiled. "I am sorry, Miss Zeenat. All the tables are engaged. But there are two seats left over there at the other stranger's table." He pointed the finger at the table where a woman was sitting but we couldn't see her as we were confronting her back. "If you agree then we will talk to them else I will try to manage something else for you, Ma'am." "It's okay. Why will you talk, Uncle? We will take the permission." The manager smiled and ordered the host to guide us to the table.
"How does the manager know you?" I asked her. "He is my father's friend." She replied.
"Excuse me, Ma'am," Zeenat said. That lady was certainly beautiful. "Would you mind if we join you at the table?" The lady smiled and said, "Of course, please have your seats." And we sat. "We don't mind meeting new people." She said and smiled. "We?" I asked. "Oh! Yes. I am not alone. I have come here with my husband and child. Umm..he is in the restroom, changing our baby's diaper. Oh! There they are."
We turned our head back and my heart again skipped a beat. Her husband was no other but Naksh. He came and sat on his chair which was opposite to Zeenat, carrying the baby in his arm. I saw Zeenat and felt the discomfort she was going through at that moment.
Spring is here for the first time ever wearing a flowery tiara as winter has folded its sparkling snow blanket while the summer has bought tickets for next month. Here sits destiny, dressed in a camellia dress, wearing the petrichor perfume along with frozen sandles bidding goodbye to winter as spring blossoms the station with life.
Last year, regret, as recognised by monsoon was dressed in yellow, simple and sober with her exceptional beauty, consoling monsoon for months now, as he missed the deadline to meet August. Monsoon tore the sleeves she wore in anger, blaming her for his loss. Upon his act, he found that she was cold and white with dead leaves covering her deep scars and injuries. Regret took a step further, took a sigh of mixed emotions and rain turned into snow on her single touch. Regret felt weak on knees and fell over the soft snow. The snow swiftly covered her body with its blanket and her tears froze in silence. November had arrived, the reflection of rain had coincided with the silvery white shadow of winter. The glass of misunderstandings broke as winter and monsoon witnessed that it WASN'T regret but autumn freezing in melancholy of her existence. Winter kissed autumn over her yellow sleeves, hiding her frozen scars as monsoon hid in humiliation of only believing what he saw. Autumn promised that she would be back next year as it was not the death of her but the death of inexistent regret within her. Burning angst of the seasons called destiny to unfold and clear the blue skies to welcome spring from the heavens and poison misunderstandings with red roses, white poppies and mauna kea bearing flags of love, peace and patience respectively.
PS: Hope you all remember me! Juggle your memory, it's me _create_23! (You are welcome to the comment section if you still don't remember me) I'M STILL ON A BREAK (misunderstandings naa paale). Came here on a monthly visit since it had been so long. I miss you all! This may make zero sense but since this complicated story is here, will you read it?
. ••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• HIDING MY TEARS (Behind All The Smiles Are My Painful Tears) ••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• My smile hides my tears. My laugh hides my screams. It's been this way for years. Things aren't as they seem.
Nobody really knows me. They only know my cover. But I wish I could let it free. Let them know what's under.
I am once sad and lonely, Having nobody to comfort me, So I started wearing a mask that always smiled, To hide my feelings behind a lie.
Nobody can hear my cries at night, For I designed my mask to hide the lies. Nobody can see the pain I am feeling, For I designed my mask to be smiling.
Behind all the smiles are the painful tears, Behind all the comfort are the fears. Everything you think you see, Isn't everything there is to me.
Day by day; moment after moment I am slowly dying. I can't even go on, There is something missing.
What is wrong? You need help? Is all they will ask. So I have decided To live behind a mask.
// Until now I'm still searching, For the thing that'll stop my crying. For someone who'll erase my fears, For the person who'll wipe my tears.//
. ••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• °°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°° MONSTERS OF MY HEAD (A Sad Song Of Teen Depression) ~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~• If I showed my true colors, what would society think? Would they laugh, show pity, or read the ink? I'm exhausted from smiling every single day; When I know the pain won't just go away.
Every night I cannot sleep, Because my thoughts run so deep. They went out for a stroll; But got sucked into a black hole.
My focus is no longer there, anywhere, I don't know why I'm like this, I swear. It seems like I'm just well-dressed; That just means how much I'm stressed.
My friends all laugh and hang around, You don't need water to be drowned. This darkness beneath consumes my mind; It's like I'm living my life blind.
On the outside I'm holding it together, But it's as unpredictable as the weather. "How are you?" "I'm fine." But the truth lies between the lines.
It's like being on Mars and trying to breathe air, When they talk about the future, I don't really care. You say to suck it up and to be strong; But little do you know what exactly is wrong.
My life is forever altered because of this, That cheerful 5 year old is who I miss. This is war; you either win or die trying; You speak the truth or continue lying.
The changes were all so very subtle; I don't blame you for not seeing, But what you don't understand is that I'm a human being. The truth is you wouldn't last if this was in your brain; But I've found a way to numb the pain.
I have to fight my mind every single second, But that's only because this thing had beckoned. I wouldn't ever choose to feel this way; these were the cards I was dealt; My only wish is that more people would understand how we felt.
Sometimes a glimpse of wonder wanders on over, But it's as rare as finding a four leaf clover. Monsters don't live under our beds; They scream inside of our heads.
. ••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• °°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°° ❤️MY ONE, MY ONLY, MY EVERYTHING ❤️ ~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~• For so long, I wished for the day. The day that our love would find its way. From my heart and into your soul, The feeling so strong, I had no control.
When that day came, when I found you again, I vowed never to make the same mistake. I knew I would never let you go, For my life is now complete in a way I cannot show.
For eternity I will spend making you believe, You are the sole reason that I breathe. My life is yours, my hopes and desires too. Until my dying day, my heart is reserved just for you.
You are everything I could ever need and more, More than I deserve or would dare wish for. You are my baby, my angel, my dream girl. I'm thankful every day that you are my whole world.
••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• °°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°° Why it's soo difficult to make someone understand that how much we love them, how much we miss them, that their ignorance kills us slowly, that their thoughts make us die thousand deaths in a day.
The moments once created are piercing in my heart. It's bleeding and someone can't see. I'm continuously burning within and someone can't see those flames.
Have you ever loved someone soo madly that the thought of loosing them stops your breath...!? ~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~• ... ( ; .) ~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~• , ℎ ' . ℎ , ℎ . ℎ, ℎ . ℎ ' , ' .
All good things come to an end, Even the gifts that God sends. Like her, the angel He sent from above, Who was the one person I truly loved.
She changed everything and made my life worthwhile, She was the only one who could make me smile. She really doesn't understand how much she means, I'll never be as happy as I've been.
She was my heart and my soul, She filled me with joy and made me whole. She was my world, my greatest treasure, I loved her so much that it couldn't be measured.
I remember every kiss and touch, All our memories I miss so much. I wish we could go back in time, When I was hers and she was mine.
I'd always protect her and let nothing harm her, How ironic it was though that she was my armor. She always made me feel so secure, No matter what went wrong, she always had a cure.
With her I felt absolutely no fear, But now I'm scared of anything that comes near. She healed me and put me back together, So I held on to her; she was my tether.
Sadly, she suddenly cut the rope, And with it went my happiness and hope. The spell had finally been broken, As I realized I had awoken.
It had all just been a dream, No matter how real it may have seemed. Everything I felt had been an illusion, Explained by the way it left me in shock and confusion.
My best dream became my worst nightmare, She vanished while she was right there. She left me to struggle on my own, She left me stranded, isolated, and all alone.
I had to wake up and realize, That the only real truth are real lies. But I can truly tell her, "You're the sweetest dream I ever had," And for that, I can only be grateful and glad.
To be happy again, I'll have to relive the past, Hold on to every memory for as long as they last. To look back at how I used to feel, To remember them as if they were real.
Even though it's over, l'll have to pretend, Because all good things must come to an end...!! ~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•
ALL RIGHTS RESERVED 11 April 2021 09:35 am ( Sunday )
It is implausible to fathom out how the moon is never relished to its enigmatic extremes ;"specks of imperfections are sewn across its form too" they say . And I die a little in awe how it's fractions are assembled to flare a little brighter oftentimes when the stars aren't abundant to enshroud the emptiness of the sky .