double_la

Open-minded kind hearted young adult "My inner peace arrives from my random humble poetry" - L A

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  • double_la 16w

    Desperately

    been Searching for an explanation
    To get past desperation
    Of not being stuck in situations
    Just us 2 with love as a creation
    Privately avoiding separation
    Instead i found reasons to quit
    The seek for something other than this
    broken to the point it can’t be fixed
    Feeling our emotions are a mix
    But do they even still exist
    After the pointless arguments

    It can’t go on no matter how hard i try
    I wont move on but I can’t handle another lie
    Seems as if my eyes were only made to cry
    Its all they do since the very first time
    I realized I never mattered in your life

    claimed as just a stranger on the side
    so why even say goodbye
    I was nothing so the memories inside
    Are only mine to leave behind

  • double_la 21w

    Behind

    Been searching for an explanation
    To get past this desperation
    Of not being stuck in situations
    Just us 2 with love as a creation
    Privately avoiding separation
    Instead i found reasons to quit
    The seek for something other than this
    Broken to the point it can’t be fixed
    Feeling and emotions are a mix
    But do they even still exist
    After all the pointless arguments
    It can’t go on no matter how hard i try
    I wont move on but I can’t handle another lie
    Seems as if my eyes were only made to cry
    Its all they do since the very first time
    I realized i was never really in your life
    Claimed as just a stranger on the side
    So why even say goodbye
    I was nothing so the memories inside
    Are only mine to leave behind

  • double_la 60w

    Preview

    Pushed to take a brake moved into a wave
    Tearing up our ways forcing us to face
    Causing this to break opening a space
    Went from start to finish high to low
    Down from the floor up to finally show
    Even though it seems to be going slow
    Only thing continuing fast is our time to go
    With the flow of focusing on tomorrow
    Ignoring the past since the present is borrowed
    The key to the closed doors of a so called home
    Had been lost a while back close to long ago
    When it use to be a bliss way before the thought of a kiss

  • double_la 72w

    Thoughts Inside

    The more effort I provide the more pride of others shine
    Within the false hope and lies that comes from inside
    Their heartless minds twisted ways never seem to decide
    Wether to keep the grudge on hold or release it in time
    all that should've stayed forever left behind
    Only thing kept steady is moments feeling heavy
    where they frequently subliminally assuming what seems to lack reality
    What a tragidy whom basically apparently
    Appears to be drastically
    viewed dicievingly
    without the possibilty of continuing
    to believe the misury
    You supposedly have been put through due to because of me
    All i ask for is closure after the exposure
    Of our love that now is over
    Having you in my life was like finding a 4 leaf clover
    But the feelings won't keep me sober
    From now on even when im older
    i wont Forget what caused me to become bolder
    Could say my heart turned colder
    Just know our secrets are kept inside as if in a folder
    ©double_la

  • double_la 74w

    MINImum tiME

    now its the times like this I'd try
    would prefer to list the thoughts that I
    start to let exist in my mind
    that never have the chance to
    unwind
    my anger arouses during it's rise
    of things that I've had to keep inside
    as if was I a bird without a flight
    to reach above clouds in the sky

    someone tell me why
    this happens every time
    there is no finish line
    to end the sleepless nights
    wake up speechless targeting
    to end
    this life of misery you pretend
    to call love answer me does that seem right

    don't put it on me cause you caused them to take your pay for the time
    you failed from outside even on the inside
    showing how does someone
    even come to decide
    to be apart becoming party
    of a crime with more felonies than any inmate even the ones that they hide
    you switched for county to county
    then prisons far from where you reside

    somethings you never comply
    with damn near every time
    otherwise we'd be fine
    to end the sleepless nights
    wake up speechless targeting
    to end
    this life of misery you pretend
    to call love answer me does that seem right
    ©double_la

  • double_la 74w

    DepenDENT

    Dislike this appeal sugar coated to be real
    No time to heal I dont want to have to deal
    Pain served as a meal tell me and explain why do you steal
    These feels are over due although I care about it it sealed
    There is no excuse for the bullet wounds
    Leaving opened holes shot into my soul
    Now
    How did you expect things would go
    After you had no control the time to let you know
    I have to let go of the door leading to what I mistakenly considered home
    I'd rather stay away and be alone
    Dont waste your time trying to call my phone
    All you'll get out of it is a voicemail tone
    The promises, trust and tears balled had been thrown
    6 feet underground our strings went very low
    Buring dirt all around so the peace can grow
    Decreasing a flow of what might of never existed in this road
    I'm sincerely sorry that I didnt listen to you
    After you told me think about you here before I do what you do
    Pardon me I was confused didnt know right from wrong nor lies hiding what is true
    All I ask for is to get to see you and say my goodbyes before I failed to comply
    and get myself into trouble that isnt worth the abuse
    or maxed out lies
    Can I confess my closet seems to be full
    with fuse
    So I can say that I flew and cut off then.
    Broke the chains holding back all the strength that I once independently grew
    ©double_la

  • double_la 74w

    Ready To Not

    It's like the females were made / to go through the worse
    To stumble into what they / wish to have occur

    Assholes were meant to approach their innocence / with persistence undercover
    Invading then creating
    them into
    something
    far from what they were pastence
    is the issue
    How doeas that even make any sense With you / is God whom brings together negatives to reveal the positives
    Born made in this world to pick up your regrets with you
    And commend for and only to you without reservation
    No hesitation for his type of preparation
    Finally Get through To the combination blocking the segregation to our situation
    Failed as a friend you could've had within.
    Failed as a twin with goals we would've been accomplishin.
    Failed as a support system should've gave you the win.
    Failed as a person you didn't make yours again.
    Similar to when you'd pin me down under my chin.
    Nemo has more fin than my power to give in.

    Don't You Criticize From The Greener Side
    Where You Decisively Reside To Be Beside The Only Thing Left Behind To Look Out As They Run To Find And Compel Your Desire Aprise Regarding The Fire Inside In Disguise

    I figure you're wack by the lack to act
    Right dont waste none of my time
    Every night before I close my eyes
    To realize and fantasize a new life without you by my side but I'll be fine
    Dont you worry dont put up a fight
    Sit tight before you might
    Appear to get caught up wake up
    to letters you would write
    After that night we pumped heads
    Of course I fled down to the ground
    Instead I didnt get my revenge
    I let you have your pride to pretend
    As if it all was not hurtin'
    Clearly I was botherin unexpected
    Words about what this had meant
    To the big boss who only redeems loss
    Especially since I have moved on
    Ditching my last call regret recieving leading to answering then responding
    Thank God I stuck to rejecting
    and continuing to not fall at all
    Fairwell to what n who I do not recall
    ©double_la

  • double_la 74w

    SOAKed Pane

    Can we just let it rain hope for the pain to go away from the hurt of yesterday
    Failure when you'd tried to claim you dont even know my name just a title while I play the role of someone who's ok
    Knowing that I'm not the same looking for a better day
    to finally get to say I'm glad i am this way
    and i am not afraid nor a coward with no pay
    Could make more than you its lame
    But I'd rather have my share with loved ones with my blood in their veins
    No I'm not a saint yes I've made mistakes so I can have a place to lay
    At the end of these cold days
    Only fame that ever came my way is for a past the never existed up until this day
    What kind of world did we create competing against each other just to have our way
    that isnt even worth the wait none of it is ok there's no explanation lack of motivation move on to the next station
    isnt a plan in this dimension
    I cant lie I feel the horrification
    Outside from inside, inside to outside
    Came from the southside actually never mind you wouldn't know a thing about our type of grind we leave the opps all behind no fucks given go ahead and go find while you're at it continue to unwind
    Reminiscing to remind the paper to this discharge is signed led me to disappear have you thinking that you're blind the entire time I'm guessing its traditional for females to have to go through that one bad time to let go and finally find the one to love the most and learn to work things out wether the route turns out to be great or not preferred but other wise until when it occurs I'll be patiently waiting for that grudging return failed the test cant even lie or face your head west no matter the distress I will always be irreplaceable due to the fact that I am and was the best
    Had to runaway to stay sane and add a finish to your game no gain or giving away vise versa should've been created into your middle name
    ©double_la

  • double_la 74w

    Cuff MY FEEt

    Similar to the boys flashing red and blue
    Hardly having any kind of sympathy for you
    Hands up dont shoot my life matters too
    All I've tried to do is make money to eat a plate of food
    If you intend to keep some peace must cuff my feet
    Cant request me to leave if I've always been gone living blindly
    Meanwhile as I try to keep explaining that you've lost me all along pleading questioning
    Lately really has me wondering
    How could someone cause such harm
    Forgot to set up my alarm to at least warn me of the drastic opposite of a charm
    Is it possible to do this much wrong
    It's like a never ending song or a empty waterless bong
    Up ones ass more than a thong after all the issues that were brought upon
    Moments considered a love and hate situationship
    At the end of this relationship healed my eyes to realize that it wasn't shit
    My overused lighter proves to be majorly lit
    Compared to what ever it is you call it
    As you can see I obviously do not need that shit in my life man please
    swear snapchat was for the weak weekly posting nudes for others to peep but if only you knew I only join for lurking on negativity posted subliminally
    cant discriminate when I create hurtful things
    I cant write on my timeline family too nosy
    and I dont appreciate irrelevant peoples 2 sense pushing me
    to recieve some type of sentencing especially a stranger with no info to speak on me enjoy and good luck attempting to be difining me
    ©double_la

  • double_la 74w

    If it MADe sense

    Dont even attempt it I might be tempted
    I wouldn't forget it revenge I'll get it
    Your so problematic I gotta solve it
    End it why fix it I didnt cause it
    careless about it cant compare it to me
    I'm different you must respect it I stay winning
    no losing of course since I control it
    I call shots then fold it when I prefer it
    what is it recall your mission just say it
    or are you frightened don't speak upon it
    your screws are tightened enlighten
    stress shouldn't be your intention
    go on and mention lucky you have my attention stop giving me the sensation
    of the need of aggression
    Detention is for school not for relations
    Excuse my profession but I
    can no longer keep the discretion
    it's been a while since I felt any type of affection
    Loves punctuation is likely to be confusing during this generation
    Precaution my dueces slip out very often
    Not satisfied it's not enough dry like cotton
    Done with this lack of effort the bond has soften
    Regrets not in my book but I can't lie
    about how I feel for what I have gotten
    ©double_la