deepc2002

caught in the vicious cycle of life

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  • deepc2002 155w

    @mirakee @writersnetwork @iammusaafiir @rashi100108 @raaj_kalam_ka @mansi_jain @joycee_joy.
    As a guy suffering from ADHD and Maladaptive Day Dreaming Disorder reality works differently for me and many like me. It's really tough to keep up with the pace of this competitive world while facing random pop-ups of distractions- disturbing yet fascinating and creative. Can do nothing but just struggle and either hope myself or the world to change. Written from such a hopeless hope... Image credit goes to owner.
    #ADHD #day_dreaming #disorder

    The Blame

    I had to sell my soul to this world,
    Yet I know, I'm not the same.
    Just had the strength to go against,
    But never had the fortune.
    Many to listen, some to pity, just a few to care,
    Torturing oneself with resonating self-denials.
    "Oh Lord! had I been you!"-
    I would have given each poor soul an alternate reality to live,
    To exist and let others do the same!
    I have walked long, in my own way, my legs are now fed up,
    But my mind have already dreamt far- miles ahead! Now what to do?
    They lift me up but my fate shoots me down;
    Creating the aura of self condolences, that breaks and builds up again and again-
    Maybe something good will happen yet I don't know how and when;
    " Oh Lord! Had I been you!"
    Would have shown those poor blinds-
    The path to rise, the air to breath, the way to bright end,
    "Oh Lord! Had I been you!"
    That's the only way for me to BLAME...

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    Maybe something good will happen yet I don't know how and when;

  • deepc2002 157w

    @writersnetwork @mirakee @iammusaafiir @rashi100108 @raaj_kalam_ka @joycee_joy. Image credit goes to owner.

    Depression

    Tears rolled down,
    But they never touched the ground;
    Vapourized in thin air,
    Of smoke and despair,
    He never saw the sun nor it's light,
    Hopes were out of his side,
    He had stories to tell, but walls to hear;
    He had his emptiness packed in layer-by-layer;
    Crying, blaming and panting in pain,
    He certainly kept waiting for his LAST TRAIN...

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  • deepc2002 158w

    A heart too cold
    A face too dark;
    Living in a world,
    Where diamonds crack!
    And charcoal glows, sparks!

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  • deepc2002 158w

    @mirakee @writersnetwork @iammusaafiir @rashi100108 @raaj_kalam_ka @mansi_jain @joycee_joy . Image credit goes to owner.

    Stairs of Roses

    Flights of stairs of roses there I see,
    My dreamland waits above high;
    "Now or never!", I shout and climb,
    Suddenly I let out a shrill cry;
    Oh! the thorns they lay beneath,
    Hidden in sweet perfume,
    My feet bleeds in red of roses,
    While my mind thinks twice to resume,
    I get up once wounded and rush again,
    My chest thumping loud, my body wet with sweats of pain;
    Some illusion I see far up there,
    The stairs are rough, but who cares?
    'They' see with their eyes, 'they' don't see my pain,
    'They' look upon me with disdain;
    'They' just stare at the stairs of roses with eyebrows high,
    "Look at him, how much he gets, still such cry?"
    I bear them all, running my path,
    Curving where it takes- left and right,
    Only my feet knows my hidden tears-
    The REAL darkness of a night...

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    PLEASE READ THE CAPTION

  • deepc2002 161w

    @writersnetwork @mirakee @iammusaafiir @rashi100108 @raaj_kalam_ka @joycee_joy @mansi_jain . Image credits goes to owner.

    Manipulation

    The world expects so much from me,
    And tries to shape me up in its way;
    I had my words, but was rendered dumb,
    While everyone had theories to say.
    They told me to go with tide,
    They had rules for me to abide,
    And at last, my tiny voice gave up,
    And faded away amidst tonnes of rebuff...
    Everyone had something, to say but nothing to hear,
    The world knew better than me, 'bout my life,
    While I had my own issues to bear,
    Still I had to make a senseless dive...
    Yet world expects more from me,
    Robbing off my old smile with glee;
    They wanted me to be an engineer or a physician,
    Yet my innocent heart screamed to be a Human.
    Flares of my passion were cooled in silence,
    My cries were bound tight inside their fence;
    My life was Manipulated, so was I;
    I had tales to tell, but no guts to defy...

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  • deepc2002 162w

    @mirakee @writersnetwork @iammusaafiir @rashi100108 @raaj_kalam_ka @joycee_joy @mansi_jain . I actually don't know if what I have written really makes any sense! Just wrote it in a moment of tranquility while I was lost in thoughts of this kind. Image credit goes to owner.

    Life - A Realization

    I wish the word "Life" had some more depth,
    A simple word, used in simple way;
    I have never heard many questioning about it,
    "What is life?", I asked to myself as I sheepishly gazed at twinkiling stars,
    Expecting a divine voice from heaven,
    "Does it make any sense?", I asked again;
    "Where it begins and where it ends?"
    None answered to my calls,
    We just come here to dream, fight, make merry;
    Survive, suffer and go?
    "You believe in illusions?", my mind asks me,
    "No, or maybe yes, I don't know"
    "Then learn to believe it dear, none shall answer your calls until you yourself do,"
    "Can you explain me? Sir?", I asked to my mind;
    "Yes, you are living in an illusion,
    Which you realize as true,
    And if you realize it as a truth,
    No harm dear, to live an 'unreal reality';
    Science taught us 'how', but not 'why';
    And when you question that 'why',
    You question an illusion, isn't that silly enough?
    Just Live your life justfully with true faith,
    For you should enjoy the true fruits of your conscience,
    While you live in a mirage, you can't question 'why',
    You began and shall disappear in faith, nothing is real;
    Just what you gain from this life is-
    A chance to realize an illusion, a colour, a sense;
    Isnt't that enough for you, for everyone here?
    Live this image of existence, Just live it in me."

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    While you live in a mirage, you can't question 'why',
    You began and shall disappear in faith, nothing is real;
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  • deepc2002 164w

    @mirakee @writersnetwork @iammusaafiir @rashi100108 @joycee_joy @raaj_kalam_ka @mansi_jain @prashantlm. image credit goes to owner.

    Love is...

    Something that knocks at your door,
    When you expect it the least.

    And leaves you behind, all alone,
    when you need it the most...

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  • deepc2002 164w

    @mirakee @iammusaafiir @rashi100108 @writersnetwork @raaj_kalam_ka @mansi_jain @prashantlm @joycee_joy. Image credit goes to owner.


    Poets Vs "Them"

    (This is where Idealism and practical life conflict arises)
    We think and write of stars, moon and sun,
    While they spend a whole day in search of a 'bun'.
    We think of diving into the endless thoughtful sea,
    While they strive hard to clear off debts and fee.
    We contemplate the reason of existence of love,
    They walk ways even more harsh than tough.
    We seek freedom , we believe in comeback and rise,
    They work under bondage with soaked up cries.
    Yes, we are the poets, thinking tanks of the world,
    And yes they are bearers, carrying loads of all,
    Without being themselves at any obvious fault.
    In the world which runs per Darwin's play,
    They live in night of a nevercoming day...

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  • deepc2002 164w

    @mirakee @iammusaafiir @rashi100108 @raaj_kalam_ka @mansi_jain @joycee_joy @prashantlm. Image credit goes to owner.

    Rising

    I have been hit a thousand times,
    I have bled through million cuts,
    But do you think it's enough?
    Can you stop me by just these?
    My blood oozing out, are nothing but rivers of will;
    I won't stop now, I won't breakdown,
    I have my goals to reach, I have my dreams to grab.
    You can try to bring me down, with your cold waves,
    But my heart is a hearth of flames,
    And it was never destined to die in dismay.
    I will fight till my deep breaths end,
    I will run till paths vanish,
    Into corridors of my dream, which leads to my faith,
    No, I won't stop, No, I shall never cry,
    The more you try to kill me down,
    The more I will fight till I die...

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    No, I won't stop, No, I shall never cry,
    The more you try to kill me down,
    The more I will fight till I die...

  • deepc2002 167w

    @writersnetwork @iammusaafiir @rashi100108 @raaj_kalam_ka @prashantlm @mansi_jain @joycee_joy. Image credit goes to owner

    I WISH...


    I wish the winter ends this time,
    For it has been long since the warm sun rays,
    Touched my skin, I wish the snow melts down;
    For my heart longs for light and heat;
    My frozen mind makes me heavy.
    I want the birds of my dreams to fly high again,
    The squirrel of my thoughts to swiftly climb up,
    The tree of truth, I wish the river flows again,
    For it deprives the gold fishes of my imagination-
    Underneath, from fresh air;
    I wish the tree of my ideas grow leaves again,
    And spread its enigma across, far and wide.
    For it has been long since it lost its hue,
    I just wish to live again, as I used to do back then...
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    I just wish to live again, as I used to do back then...