||Poetry and Other Literature Madness ||By River AnnMarie
I'll be real with you, I'm actually pretty fucking good with words, despite the many typos in my daily messages. That's just me though, I am often talented in the same place that my mistakes are stemmed from. Try to wrap your mind around that one. My strength can often times be my weakness, and visa versa. I have just so much to say and I'm in the hurry to say it but it all comes fumbling out like a drunk on a karaoke night. I am far from perfect, and I feel everything strongly. I'm an empathetic on my best days and pathetic on the others. I have a huge heart though, but like my words, the best part me can often times be where my failures originate from. For an example, I tend to fall for people's potentials and I want to see the good in everyone. I have the best intentions but it's like walking into something toxic without a mask.My past is filled with pain and trauma, so the fact that I still want to see people shine, just means my heart wasn't completely broken..at least not yet. I didnt write this post however to discuss my many perks and failures. I wrote this actually to shed light on the parts of us that are broken. I have questions that no one has invented answers to yet, and I'm left feeling empty. I'll explain, this world is not a fair place.Some of us walk around blissfully while hurting those who care about us, but why? Why is that we get strung along just because sometimes people dont like us but the idea of us?They like what we can do for them when no one else is around. They want to take from you without ever returning the favor. Friendship in this generation happens on their terms while love comes with conditions. Literally, the terms and conditions highlighted in small print, that would tell us all that we need to know about a person and yet we skim them over and sign ourselves up blindly . I'll tell you this though, people tell on themselves, so listen carefully. They will expose themselves so pay attention when they think you aren't looking. Frankly, I want to know why people do bad things to those who only wanted to be good to them?When you break the one who wants to help you heal, you screw yourself out of having something beautiful and rare.This world has become obsessed with quantity while shaming quality. But why though?Why is it that people are fast to discard a diamond just for a collection of stones?Something of value sadly becomes buried while what belongs in the dirt is cleaned and upheld as a trophy, what a twisted world. I guess that's how some of us have become our own enemies, we fuck ourselves out of happiness because we screw over the ones who would give us the world. But maybe that's where the good people went wrong?We tried giving the world to those who don't even want us in theirs.You have to remember though, when people fight with you, they are really in a battle with themselves.
Remember ,you are a rockstar and you're pretty fucking amazing if you are one of the good ones. I commend you for trying to be an angel to those who don't believe in heaven. I am inspired by those of you who try to heal the ones who break you. People don't have a problem with hurting other's feelings when they don't have any themselves. Just know that it isn't on you but them, because you tried. These are just some unfortunate facts about life. We sometimes fall for those who would never catch us, and we break from the ones that we try to help heal. I'm just so tired of giving my best to friends,family, and lovers when they can't even give me their decent side. I'm tired of wasting my time on those who wont even give me a small fraction of theirs. Enough is enough, and I say that also to any of you who can relate. Don't dummy yourself down or water yourself down for those who can only take you in doses. They come into your life stealthy, to take your time,heart,joy money and body, just to sneak away.How embarrassing it must be for these thieves. By trying to steal from you, they ended up robbing and costing themselves someone amazing who would have had their back from dusk to dawn. How embarrassing. I say this, the best revenge is to better yourself while hoping that they'll meet someone who is another version of themselves. Some one who carries the same toxicity and ultimately give them a dose of their own poison. As for you,I hope you keep shining and keep glimmering. Just because the world doesn't know how to treat a diamond, doesn't mean that you should forget your worth as well. Let toxic people go so you can breathe again. Love yourself first so you can care for the next person properly. Better yourself and focus on your goals. This may be a loveless world, that doesn't mean that you should be heartless, just use your heart less. Become protective with your time, and energy. You are simply just vibe that these thieves wont find elsewhere. I have so many questions and I know I won't find the answer to them. I just have to accept the apology that I've never received from some and acknowledge the truth that the others lied about.
As a child, I use to love the world. Then I grew up and realized that it was filled with people who'd never love me back. So, I chose to love myself instead. Stop trying to form something promising out of a fool with your delusions. Stop writing pathetic messages to them while being drunk on a cheap bottle of Jack with Queen playing in the background.Find your balls and let the world know that you are architect of your own dreams and the CEO of your own life and YOU WILL promote and demote whoever the FUCK you please! -Riverblaze