It reminded me how close I was, to everything I could have had. It reminded me of a vague line, between expectations and possibilities. It reminded me, how I was always wrong, how I always had to take a U turn. It reminded me how dad said again and again, life's not that generous with her second chances. It reminded me of a blind trust of a young woman in love, people, universe, oh what not! It crippled me all over again, as if life was replaying itself right there in front of my eyes. Of how I was always late and a heart that was always drunk. How careless my footsteps were, how believable those uncertainties. But now I've learnt to play safe and to count my breaths. A heart had been tamed and shed some tags.
Still I missed a bus, just standing few yards far away. __________________________________________________
I grew up. my perception too. out of the blue, towards the blues. __________________________________________________
The sky had Been a sickly Shade of grey All morning, but We still decided To go out Because the silence Amidst the four Walls was more Than either of Us could bear But no sooner Had we gotten Out of the Parking lot, and You had just Pressed the second Gear, did the Heavens open up.
So we sat Side by side With the asphalt Glistening with every Red light we Jumped, and there Was a thunderstorm Outside our window But we were Too busy to Notice, because there Was a thunderstorm Inside the car Raging within our Bones, one we Tried to quell Without much success.
We drove past Empty streets, and It was now Lashing down, it Was biblical, I Stole a quick Glance at your Stoic face and Tried to remember That once upon A time, you Loved this weather For a while So did I Now, we were Strangers who knew Each other well Much too well.
It was familiar This feeling that Seemed to be Washing over me And even though You looked steadfastly Ahead and shifted Into fifth gear I knew that You must be Thinking the same And when the Thunderstorm outside our Window dies down We will still Be trying to Run from the One that is Tearing us apart From the inside.